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Food Log Feb. 8 ,2022

Breakfast:

Baby bel cheese (70cal)

A strawberry (4cal)

Total: 74cal

Lunch:

Nothing

Total: 0cal

Dinner:

Half Chicken Pot Pie (305cal)

Rice cake (35cal)

Crunchy cookie butter 2tsps (57cal)

Almond roca (50cal)

2 pickles (10cal)

Total: 457cal

Todays total: 531 calories

Notes:

In the pictures it was 3 pickles but I could only eat two because I highk started to feel sick. But I mean less calories 🤷🏻‍♀️. Trying to get back on track since my boyfriends been feeding me right ☹️ I’m so grateful for him but I really need to lose weight. I hope my ED doesn’t fuck up how he feels abt me.

day 3:

i love this thinspo sm cuz they're all just so bony and small and they look so sick and beatiful. i want all my bones to peak through my skin and be able to wrap my fingers around almost every part of my body with ease. i want to be thin. i will be a skeleton.

day 5:

i want to lose weight for others to notice. do I want to lose it for myself? yes, i do. but I want to be so thin strangers stare or tell me to eat, I wanna look like i belong in the hospital or like a walking corpse.

i need it.

Help me choose what to eat tomorrow!

Option 1🍏:

Gerber apple cinnamon puffs ( 150)

1 cup unsweetened almond milk (30)

*I would eat this like cereal for a total of 180 calories

Option 2🐟:

3 packets of lemon pepper tuna (210)

pickles (0)

* I would mix together for a total of 210 cal

Option 3🍄:

mushrooms (~15)

1/4 cup of Jasmine rice ( 160)

2 tbsps of low sodium soy sauce (20)

* I would stir it all together to make a mushroom rice for a total of 195 calories

Option 4🥣:

2/3 cup of Greek nonfat plain yogurt (130)

1 green apple (95)

1 tbsp of cinnamon (19)

*I would stir it all together for a delicious apple cinnamon yogurt for a total of 244 calories

Some daily thinspo 4 myself:)

My pfp will forever be my fav thinspo idc

Some thinspo for the tl

Where did all the self control go now that i need it the most tf???'dnjsjsbdhsujs

Im gonna spend more time on here cuz that was the only thing keeping me from BWING SUCH A PIG

Im gonna try and restrict for 300 cals for the upcoming week amd work out more because i ve stopped completly and thats gross

someone pls bully me i need to get to 40 asap

Tw:mentions of suicide

Instagram keeps suggesting recovery posts for me and they get me sometimes, but everytime i atempt to recoverand see that i've gained weight not only do i relapse but i start thinking about k. myself :D now don't you love that

First time weighing myself after the binge a couple of days ago, and im back at it again thank god lol. BUT im still very teriffied for tge next 3 days like what do i do , i can't purge after every meal and i doubt ill be able to work out so like tf am i suppoesed to doooo??!??!?

Rules for myself for the rest of the summer xoxo

If you can get out of eating breakfast do it , don't snack on anything during the day

If you had to eat breakfast mame sure you burn all the calories of by lunch time

Eat lunch at 4 or 5 pm if you are with otger people

No eating past 5

Working out either by walking or cycling, and do the hot girl challenge+ skinny girl diet idc if its a feast you'll feel gross if you binge again( also wouldn't it be embarassing to start your diet over for the 3rd time and not being able to stick to one of your goal weights for longer than 2 days just because you can't resist some stupid chocolate.)It'll still be there when you are at 40 kg. It'll all still be there when you are skinny,you just have to control yourself.

I literally want a coach idgaf anymore. I used to be so good back in march and qpril and now i binge every 2 days man fuck recovery i hate my body and everything about myself.

I miss the early stages of my ed where i never even thought of bingeing, burned of every cal consumed, now i am just this big fat mess who cant resist food,like i binge twice a week now and cry about it all the time i hate myself and my nonexistent willpower i keep on gaining and droping the same 4 kg its so embarassing:/

Being able to purge is the only thing im good at D:

Im gonna try to fast this first week of school ill see how it goes.

After the first week ill start the diet i saw on edtwt

Here it is if any of you are interested

Okay i finally gained some self control looked at lw pics of myself cried a lot, ate a disgusting amount of food wich made me gain 9kg!!! I HATE MY SELF FOR IT.So i decided to get back on track for real this time. I haven't eaten anything since monday and im *trying* to workout daily. Im not giving up untilim at my ugw and this time i wont let myself go. Everyone is having dinner now and im sitting here looking at thinspo and drinkig water, i do kinda feel superior ngl.

Im kinda scared Im going home tommorow and i have to eat. Im scared it will turn into a binge. Gotta be careful,dont want to be fat again lol. Im gonna meal plan tonighttt