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2 summers ago i was ethereal and bruised by beauty

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Bruh I had my dietitian appointment that I’ve been waiting 6 months for just to get told to go back to the gp bc it’s “not a food issue”

YEAH NO SHIT LADY

Literally everything I eat makes me feel sick / throw up and or other really fun bodily functions that I don’t want to even think about

I had to fill out so many forms of invasive and incredibly personal information about my body and the reactions it had, for this lady to NOT EVEN LOOK AT THEM

She saw I filled out the food diary (everything I ate made me sick / ill / uncomfortable) but told me that I will still getting the nutrients I need despite it making me so sick so I should continue doing that

The only reason that food log was filled out our properly was because I was told to, otherwise it wouldn’t be

She said that because I have nice skin (I have hEDS my skin will always look a certain way because of this condition) and the fact that I’m not malnourished (and am not underweight) that there’s nothing wrong with me

So great. I’m back to the start, triggered (she told me my weight even after I asked her not to) and told me she sees sicker people then me and therefore it’s not a food issue and I’m fine.

So yay. I’m completely fucked.

If anyone has any advice or suggestions I would love to hear them because I’m desperate at this point.

does anyone happen to have any resources to help with disordered eating that they swear by? kinda don’t wanna eat 1 meal a day and wonder why i feel bad anymore

My ED recovery is a nightmare.

So many health issues and teeth issues. I don't deserve what's happening now. I feel like I have been abused by my ED, telling me lies about how good I'd look underweight. Now, I am filled with regret, cause nothing can buy my health back. I'm too young for what's happening to me

Please, contemplate recovery for the sake of your future health.

I can't wait for the end of the school year and at the same time I have not clue of what I'll do after college, but I have Jesus.

It's been 6 years of college, for degree which are pretty useless on the workmarket. I don't regret my bachelor in english literature nor my master degree in the field of education. Though I have a longing fear that I might not have enjoyed my student years as much as I should have. Six years of college but also six years of an eating disorder which both ruined my mental and physical health. Six years of spiritual journey which eventually led me to Jesus Christ. My heart feels heavy still but thanks to Christ I don't dwell into that feeling no more. I hope to get better, I no longer hope to put myself down.

I don't know what the future holds but I know that Jesus Christ holds it. Whatever happens I know I live in victory. The one of Jesus Christ. I won't let myself go to death.

introduction post ig?

name: aurosh

nationality: russian

born: 18.01.2005

sw: 63

cw: 44-45

ugw: 40 (or 39, maybe?)

used to have an 3d blog before but got t3rm1nated. (my id was deadassskelly, wasn't a big thing but still meant a lot to me).

currently searching for mutuals / buddies cause i need that inspo / encouragement.

i loved going through w3ight l0ss and i want to bring back that era. wanna go with me?

('coaches' pls don't come after my a$$. been through enough already. also if you're under 16 - i don't wanna be a cr33p, sorry.)

b0dy d¥smor₽hia beating my ass rn

My sister said I look like an ironing board

That my legs are toothpicks

That I need to eat something (ugh as if)

Thanx tho sis 😘🤪

Lol the way I acted like I hated the attention when I was going thru it

Now I fucking crave it

Have to have it

I can't emphasize this enough! People will even say it's a 'good thing'🫠

People always ignore/minimize starvation as a form of SH. People with ED who skip meals are just as self-destructive and deserving of concern/attention as people with depression who cut, yet people will see someone cutting and make a huge deal, then see someone starve themselves and not care. Bonus points if you're seen as fat because people will literally not gaf no matter how much you starve.

Guys im new to 3d tumblr and I need some advice ASAP.

I’ve lost loads of weight recently and my mum is starting to notice and I think she’s going to take me to get weighed at the doctors at some point. PLEASE GIVE ME ADVICE ON HOW TO WEIGH MORE AT THE DOCTORS SHE CANT KNOW HOW MUCH WEIGHT IVE LOST!! I don’t have any weights or anything I can put in my pockets so I might just stuff my pockets with stones and shit and hope that makes a difference???

i love drinking 0 cal energy drinks right when i wake up. i like the burning feeling it gives on an empty stomach

progress 🧍🏻‍♀️ i hate how my legs look when i sit tho like why tf do they expand like that 😭

I NEED MORE DIET COKE ASAP BEFORE I ACTUALLY GO INSANE

Update: lunch. 🍽️   ⊹ ᨘ໑.

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TW: I do not glorify any mental illnesses/disorders. This is my journey, please do not follow anything I do. If you’re a minor, don’t interact, please. I won’t feel comfortable. I am pro recovery but not yet ready for that step.

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I skipped breakfast and did some cardio, I felt very lightheaded and dizzy so, I haven’t done much: Some stairs and a lot of walking. I’ve burnt 330 calories in total. I feel nauseous after eating so much, even if I ate very slowly.

LUNCH~ 220-255°calories

-two pieces of cottage cheese, not measured but not more than four bites. Very good.

-cherry tomatoes

-one rice cake (extra low calorie version)

water drank until now: 1.5 L

🩰  ּ   ﹗ ˖  ་ 💭 !! I tried calculating them accurately but, I’m still pretty much training my eye at the moment. The food description wasn’t so clear, especially the cheese since it was very fresh and organic. The only thing with a clear description was the rice cake, 35 calories each.

when did food stop being just food?

Day 2.

I'm 5 feet 3 inches tall.

I like my height.

My friend who's already soo much smaller than me has started tracking c@ls and tracking her steps.

Me because my friend with a fast metabolism does this.

i binged for 3 weeks, fucking shoot me.

i want to look like them. so badly.