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Sorry I haven’t been active like at all but I’ve just been going through it. I was hospitalized last month and I have recovered yet. I’m hoping this isn’t how I felt all the time. I don’t have much recollection on how I felt before I was hospitalized. I want to just cut all the fat out of my body. I want to be skinny for once. And I’ll do that. I’ll starve until I’m skinny I’ll sleep all day if I have to. My brother does it so why should they have a problem if I do.
guys I NEED new moots 😭 plsplsls is anyone active on March '24 plsolslsslets be moots I'm begging I miss the old days sm , I'm ftm, almost 17 and I NEEEEED new ed moots😭 someone to talk to ab stuff like this and other things toooo, no nsfw.
pls reach out <//3
i don’t want my bf to leave me but ik it would help me lose sm weight
somebody traumatise me so badly to the point that i cant eat anymore
I need a new aproach to all this.
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My steps to after binge self-care
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1. Stay calm. Don't spiral. You've got this; binges happen. Breathe in and out.
2. Go light a candle or some incense, turn on your essential oil diffuser. If fragrances aren't your thing, open a window to get some fresh air in.
3. Grab your water bottle and lay down on your back for a bit. Rehydrate yourself. Clear your mind.
4. Step in the shower or take a nice, long bath. Use your favorite shampoo and body wash. When you get out, do some skin care and brush your hair and teeth.
5. Put on clothes you feel comfortable in. It may be a hoodie or a crop top you feel skinny in; put something that'll make you feel safe.
6. Do some chores that don't require too much attention like folding laundry or washing the dishes. Now's the time to think. What made you binge? Reflect on what to do in the future. Maybe your next fast should be shorter. Maybe your omad plan is lacking nutrients. Maybe you should switch to a higher calorie limit for a bit. None of these changes are shameful; they'll only help you reach your gw quicker.
7. Do a fun activity. Some shopping, coloring, video games or reading… don't fall down the meansp0 hole! You deserve kindness. You deserve indulgence. St4rving is hard both for the body and the mind, it's not healthy, or normal. It's ok to make these mistakes sometimes; you'll only come out of it stronger.
Even though my flavor of Ed is the starve /binge cycle. Every time i eat i feel like I'm faking my Ed.
Food Diary
Breakfast - 460
Coffee (Cream & Sugar)
Vanilla yogurt w/ strawberries, blueberries & chocolate chips
Lunch - 510
General TSO
Vegetable Fried Rice
Snacks - 360
Ritz Crackers
Raspberry Crisp Bar
Total : 1275
CW: 136.6lbs(-.4), BMI : 21.4
I’ve been like 105-110 pounds for so long since I’ve been basically recovered, but now that I’m back at this I’m so excited to finally break 100 again, imagining a two digit weight is so motivating to me
I have such a habit of giving up on relapses really quickly cuz I just wanna be happy, and like I don’t really blame myself for that, but my life is so awful right now and this is basically the only thing I can control
I’d rather be miserable on my own terms than on anyone else’s
can't wait to use school as an excuse to starve 💭
Does it hurt not being skinny?
postaram się zjesc dzisiaj tylko obiad
Guess what game I’m playing;
Gaslight ED~ Gatekeep Recovery
Gaslight Recovery~ Gatekeep ED!!!
Changing my tumblr name cos I’ve had enough and this is as close as I can get to a reinvention 💅✨WITHOUT CUTTING MY HAIR
I love the term “spread thin”
But make it “sprinkled thin”~ it’s cuter 💕
I am the British stereotype
I am the ED stereotype
I am the girl stereotype
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I bloody LOVE tea 🫖💅
I might be an attention whore but it’s not cos I’m a Leo rising ♌️ 👀
I’m sorry but
50kg is the definition of skinny-fat
I am 50kg
I am skinny fat 👀💀