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i feel so f@t right now oh my god i need to get my act together. and i can't even pvrg€ because my best friend is over and he knows about my €D (;-;) but these past two days have been AWFUL
Day 4: greatest fears about wl
Not being able to maintain at my lw.
I’m scared that once I’ll reach where I want to be I won’t be able to maintain it and slowly start to gain it all back.
Of course I know that there are FAR more greater concerns regarding health, but I’m not too worried because my gw isn’t actually damaging for my body.
Cause I found peace in your violence 🕊️
Day 5: Main reason to lose weight
To be fully honest I don’t actually know my main reason as to why I want to lose weight, which I think is the main reason I don’t stick to it for as long as I want to.
In December I’m going to Dominica with around 25+ of family friends and I want to look the best. Also I do gymnastics and I want to look and feel comfortable when performing, when I’m empty I feel so light and feel much better then when I’m full, heavy and bloated
Day 7: Do your parents know ur losing weight, do they care
My mom knows I really want to lose weight and she knows that I sometimes skip food (she doesn’t know how often I do it though) and she hates that and just wants me to eat healthy just less sugar. But she doesn’t understand that it’s easier to just eat nothing then portion control. Also doesn’t help that she is a gummy mom and we always have fast food and sugar in the house.
My dad knows I want to but he doesn’t really know anything else and doesn’t care.
Day 8: work out routine
Tbh I don’t really have a set workout routine. I’m a competitive rhythmic gymnast and train around 20+ hours a week.
But on days that I don’t train (or even when I train) I walk a lot, do Just Dance for at least 45 minutes (but usually an hour) and also abs (I follow Chloe ting ab workouts because I really like them)
Day 9: Any negative comments ever made on your weight
I was always skinny as a kid and got called a stick (as a joke and I never took offence) As I got older I got much taller than almost everyone I knew and because of that I was “naturally” bigger because I had wider bones and needed more “muscles” to support my body. (I know that sounds like an excuse but that what I was told)
But for the last couple of years (especially these past few years) I developed a pretty bad binge and started to grow bigger. My dad would constantly “joke” about my weight saying a lottttttt of stuff about how I look. Also since I do rhythmic gymnastics (which is a sport known for long thin gymnasts) my coach made many comments on my body and depending on her mood some would be more aggressive then others.
Honestly I would never say I had a bad, it’s just those are the main negative comments I got and still get.
Day 10: Hardest thing to give up during wl
Food.
Honestly I love food Sugar, junk food, etc. And the problem is I still haven’t given it up. I need free myself of if, make it feel like a chore, like its the last necessity for survival and then everything will be perfect. I don’t want it to be in control of my life and my thoughts, I want to be, I need to be the one in control.
🎀 i will be a skinny and elegant dancer 🎀
some thinsp0 <3
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hey love!
don't eat that! you're going to regret it later. would your thinsp0 eat that? I don't think so!
i had a white chocolate latte as my omad and it was so filling, delicious, and beautiful. 💭
(i usually only drink coffee with half & half)
can't wait to use school as an excuse to starve 💭
when your thighs aren't touching anymore, and people start to tell you how skinny you are you will thank yourself for not eating that meal 🎀