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not even gonna say what i ate today, the amount is embarrassing 😭
if people can pretend others like them back, i can pretend i don’t need food🩷
one of my friends told me to run up the stairs bc i need to lose some pounds. sad part is she isn’t wrong
work food (i didn’t eat the skin of chicken, there was sooo much meat my stomach hurts)
School food (no tomatoes)
and tall cafe latte (100 cal)
burned 573cal
10,409 steps
4.90 miles
going strong
any tips to reduce sweet cravings are welcome
broke fast bc my mom got subway😓
no cal burned bc i barely got out my bed and and my room is too dirty to exercise (i will clean trust🤞🏼
Aiming for 24+ hours but i’m a fat piggy so we’ll see
update (say oink)
reasons i want to lose weight (self motivation)
fit into clothing better
be more attractive (to myself and others)
be better than the ppl i hate
not let down my younger self
more space in bed
less embarrassed when i go out
people will envy me
i won’t think negatively of myself
more confidence to post pictures
become more outgoing (less shy)
have more clothing options
become the person i see myself as
to show myself and other i control my life
warrant concern
not have to suck in anymore
I'm so proud of myself today
Look at it
It's my the best day ever !
I like everything about ed really....
But feeling cold all the time ?
Please no
I can feel bad physically but not cold
Even fireplace is not helping
When your 'oversized' clothes finally are oversized!
Body check
I am proud of this so I'll share it
You can find it not so amazing and that's okay but I do
It's a big milestone for me especially when I've never weighted properly. I am happy with every progress I make
Doctor giving you smaller weight than you weight by the way you look >>>>>>
The best feeling!
My self-control through the last few months wasn't working properly but now it's my time again
I'll be skinny
I'll be, I promise
Bizarre thing about body dysmorphia is how I see bones but I still feel so bulky and fat, like the image flickers between "close but not quite at acceptable levels of thinness" to "GIANT FAT DISGUSTING COW, MOO MOO BITCH, GO EAT SOME DAMN HAY BC IT HAS NO CALORIES YOU DISGUSTING BOVINE CREATURE!!!"
What I am saying is that no matter how thin you get, it still works. BDD just be like that.
if u ever think ab food go look at urself in the mirror. works every time
Not-So-Sheeran PSA: Please do not start B/P-ing, or seek out how to do that, if you are not already engaged in that pattern of behavior.
Please. Guys. It's so bad for you.
I'm only human. Yeah, I've done it. Most of us have. Personally, however, my history is far more restriction-oriented, with any kind of B/P behavior something that's sporadic and, frankly, usually happens when I'm drunk and eat greasy crap because my prefrontal cortex -- heavily implicated in restrictive EDs, very top-down process going on there -- is dissolved and I'm in Limbic Mode.
Anyway.
This is going to sound absolutely fucking horrible, but I believe it has some truth to it, dark as it is.
Frequent purging behavior is SO BAD for your body, I'd go so far as to say that you're somehow "better off" (as if it weren't an awful fucking brain-warping disease, lmao!) with restriction and 🌟ving than with very frequent B/P behavior. (E.g., to the frequency at which it qualifies for a diagnosis of Bulimia nervosa.)
Furthermore, I would like to put forth a secondary PSA.
Some of you are probably well aware of this -- after all, this shit is a mental disorder, we do things we damn well know are irrational, and engage in behaviors we hate in ourselves and all that.
But if you are not aware -- taking laxatives does pretty much ZILCH to prevent your body from absorbing any significant amount of calories from the food that you have consumed.
It's awful for your gastrointestinal health, you can become dependent on stimulant laxatives such that you have issues if you don't take them, it causes GI discomfort, etc.
It's not worth it.
And again. THIS SHIT IS A MENTAL ILLNESS. We don't always think and act rationally here, and we all know this.
This post is not meant for anyone already doing those things, so much as for people who might have an ED that has recently developed or is incipient, and who might be considering looking for info on how to engage in these behaviors or w/e.
PSA: "Metabolism days" are not a real thing.
Scientifically, that is not how things work. Very common misconception, it's not really a thing.
HOWEVER. I would still put forth that it is a good idea to have certain days where you do eat more than usual! (You just don't have to go super high with it or anything.)
I feel it can help prevent binge behaviors to give yourself occasional leeway. (Overeating on impulse and then feeling awful is terrible for your mental health and sense of wellbeing.)
Depends on the person, ofc. This post is HARM REDUCTION advice, please do not initiate these kinds of behaviors -- severe restriction, etc. -- if you are not already actively engaged and down the rabbit hole with it.
why is destroying my body so fun?
this is exactly how i wanna look