Update: Lunch. .

Update: lunch. 🍽️   ⊹ ᨘ໑.

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TW: I do not glorify any mental illnesses/disorders. This is my journey, please do not follow anything I do. If you’re a minor, don’t interact, please. I won’t feel comfortable. I am pro recovery but not yet ready for that step.

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I skipped breakfast and did some cardio, I felt very lightheaded and dizzy so, I haven’t done much: Some stairs and a lot of walking. I’ve burnt 330 calories in total. I feel nauseous after eating so much, even if I ate very slowly.

LUNCH~ 220-255°calories

-two pieces of cottage cheese, not measured but not more than four bites. Very good.

-cherry tomatoes

-one rice cake (extra low calorie version)

water drank until now: 1.5 L

🩰  ּ   ﹗ ˖  ་ 💭 !! I tried calculating them accurately but, I’m still pretty much training my eye at the moment. The food description wasn’t so clear, especially the cheese since it was very fresh and organic. The only thing with a clear description was the rice cake, 35 calories each.

     ༘      ྀ Update + struggles༣

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TW: I do not glorify any mental illnesses/disorders. This is my journey, please do not follow anything I do. If you’re a minor, don’t interact, please. I won’t feel comfortable. I am pro recovery but not yet ready for that step.

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VENT! ⋆ ࣪. . ` YOU DON’T HAVE TO READ!: My mom is forcing me to eat. They are eating pasta with tomato sauce and tuna, (popular pasta in Italy, I am living in Italy). I just cannot. I had a strong panic attack and now I’m struggling not to cry (I’m very sensitive when it comes to food, rehab made me hate food even more). I asked her if I could take it slowly and have just some tuna and a rice cake.

TW: I will have to pûk€ everything. I hate eating and then doing that. I prefer not eating at all. I feel so unlady like when I force myself to puke. ʚ(T T)ɞ I am so motivated nothing can stand in my way anyway, no matter the situation. If I have to do it, I will.

BRIGHT SIDE › ◟⊹ ˚˖

- for the sake of my optimism and motivation I will add a good side. I’ve worked out after lunch, burning 500 calories at least. woohoo 🥳 (trying not to have another meltdown LMAO).

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(:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) edit from the foture: Tried pǔking everything but I couldn’t. Just a little 🗣️🗣️

Good morning empty stomach, welcome thinness! 𖥔 ࣪ ˖ 🤍🦌🩰

｀、ヽ｀ヽ｀、ヽ ｀、ヽ｀、ヽ｀ヽ｀、ヽ ｀、ヽ｀

TW: this is my own personal blog. I am not glorifying anything. Please don’t copy my behaviour. If you are a minor, please do not interact with me in any way, I won’t be comfortable with it.

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I woke up at 6 am today, no alarm, but naturally. I don’t feel 100% rested, yet I feel alive and energetic. I am bout to do my skincare and workout. It’s crazy how fasting makes me more productive and energetic than anything else. Is it just me? Anyway. I am already seeing results! My wrists are getting thinner again. I am getting more and more excited about this journey, I don’t even feel hunger because of my motivation! 🏋🏼‍♀️

Background story since this is my first post: I was sent into a rehab and forced to gain weight. I gained it just to escape that hospital. I was skinny when I entered. At home (After 8 months) I weighed myself and I was devastated….. My antidepressants also made me gain weight so I stopped taking them and I am already losing weight like it’s nothing.

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Doing this for the little girl who got body shamed by everyone.