Bulimiii - Tumblr Posts
My little sister was sitting next to me on thanksgiving and saw how badly I was struggling to eat that she finished her food then switched our plates and she defended me when I went to the restroom to purge I just hope she doesn’t start doing what I’m doing but I’m so grateful for her anyways
Me last year vs a couple days ago I still see a lot of work needs to be done but my sister said that I looks very different then than I do now
I just feel like i dont want this bad enough bcs i just fucking binged. And i didnt even think twice before i showed the handful of crisps down my fucking throat. God i hate myself. Im such a fucking pig.
I've lost quite alot of weight and i'm quite happy, but still the fear of gaining it all back sits in the back of my mind, waiting for the day i get over my calorie limit so it can inveigh me about it, drive me to mark my thighs with scars that scream i hate myself.
It's so scary, but it is me who chose this, it is me who does this to myself, which makes it even more frightening.
My pfp will forever be my fav thinspo idc
These last couple of days have been so tough
I think i've lost my period, and ihqven't been able to poop for around 3 weeks now:/
I went to see a dermatologist because my skin has been just horrible and she basically told me i've got to eat more.I wish i didn't go because now i don't have an excuse to not eat as little as i used to.I went with my dad who is now making me eat 'for him' so i am basically being forced into recovery without even making it to my GW1:/ I'm still not sick enough. I'm not skinny enough to recover.
But i saw two of my friends i didn't see in a very long time and they both said i look smaller so that felt kind of nice :,)