╰┈➤ esoteric paracosmist , entp 5w4 , mitski enthusiast, manwha/ga/hua consumer, a british (i know.. 😕) bengali-italian maladaptive daydreamer with adhd. i like poetry and my 4 year long paracosm. // side account : @ilubeau
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Godlike-enigma - BANI ! - Tumblr Blog
lil jonghyuk sketch i made whilst binging thewizardliz's videos 🤘🏼🤘🏼 hes my babygirl
me on my death bed but i remember how deku mightve be putting all the blame onto himself after seeing bakugos dead body thinking things like "if only i got here sooner" and continously self depricating even though it was not his fault at all 💔
i miss my old paracosms and the feelings that came with them
dohmain eckthpanthion ☝🏽🦷
i had a friend admit she stalked my old tumblr account before.. i'm not ok 😭😭 idk i dont feel good about people who are close to me/irl friends stalking my socials bc i have personal accounts for a reason u can go stalk those but to stalk these ones where its just me talking to the internet and only the internet? lowkey made me uncomfortable when she said that but i guess i can kind of let it go even though i rlly dont wanna bc we were going through some stuff and she wanted to check whether i was saying stuff on tumblr about her since im rlly active on here (nothing came out of my mouth) ... sorry for the lil rant its js smth that i wanted to get off my chest bc i hate people crossing my boundaries like that 😭
THIS IS SOOOOO REAL especially since i have a 4 year old paracosm with the most complex lore the human brain probably can't comprehend & sometimes when i tell people about it i js wish i could let them borrow my brain so they already know the story before i unleash my next idea so they can js be like WOOOO YEAH 😕
yknow what would be really nice? if there was someone who was like. as invested in my paracosm's story as I was. bc then whenever something exciting happens I could just go up to them like "hey look!!! look at this idea that popped into my head!! look look look!!" and I wouldn't need to explain every tiny detail that makes the idea so exciting bc. they already know the details
i think i'm already starting to feel the symptoms of not feeling attracted to irl people 😭 like not in an aroace way bc i still do feel attracted to people sometimes but i dont think i can get into a relationship and love someone more than i love my paracosm and my paras
is it even possible to feel the same kind of love in real life that you feel in your paracosm? i swear i love nobody more than my paras, and i'm scared i'll never experience love in real life because of this
yeah same but now that im thinking about it i think i'd feel honoured if someone told me i popped up in their daydream ... 🫣
fellow maladaptive daydreamers, do you also feel really guilty and gross when your daydreams involve real people? like even if you can’t help it
is it weird that'd i genuinely think i would fuck my parame if i had the chance ? shes so fine
do u guys ever just think about your old paracosms and js start to miss them a lil bit 😭 like i was such a different person during that period of time
i vividly remember exactly how i thought of it too. just one random night. wouldn't it be cool if i basically made a religion by mixing other ones to make it fit my idea of what i want heaven to be like, all inside my head. and i did it. now we're here ..
i had a really good daydream once when i was like 10 years old and i've been trapped in that daydream since then
maladaptive daydreaming fucking sucks cause i got this whole series written in my head with complex characters and lore but the only problem is that the main character is spider-man and if i actually act on it then disney will fuck my butthole
Maladaptive daydreaming is a behavior where a person spends an excessive amount of time daydreaming, often becoming immersed in their imagination.
also i'm kind of scared to tell some friends because ik they'll just be like "isn't that normal" like NO 😭😭 NO ITS NOT 😭😭😭 ITS SLOWLY CONSUMING ME BIT BY BIT AND I CAN'T GO A SINGLE DAY WITHOUT FEELING LIKE I'M WASTING AWAY MY LIFE 😭😭😭😭 SO NO IT'S NOT NORMAL 😭😭😭😭😭
Its so hard to talk about maladaptive daydreaming because it's so embarrassing 😭 like yeah.. I'm addicted to fucking daydreaming and my life genuinly revolves around little fantasies in my head
everytime i think about drawing one of my paras and try, it never ends up being how imagine them in my head . like seriously 😭 i'm good at drawing but i think it's just because my perception of my paras are too .. extreme.😅
do u ever just look at one of your paras and just think. damn. you're just like me. except i'm the more flawed version of you
i recommend this doc to people that ask me about my paracosm most of the time because it's so good. i genuinely use it to identify terms i forget sometimes
💭🔮✨ THE ULTIMATE DAYDREAMER’S GUIDE ✨🔮💭
💭 What is it?
This is a guide both for those in the Daydreaming Community, or want to learn more about it. It is meant to be an archive of all things relating to MaDD & ID, and is curated/run/owned by yours truly!
💭 Can I link this on my blog/post/etc?
Yes!! The whole reason this doc was made was so that it can be passed around as a general resource, so you are more than welcome to link it anywhere you want. Obviously everything in the doc is also fair game, all of it was made by & for the community, after all.
💭 Can we give suggestions?
Suggestions are highly encouraged & appreciated! I am only one person running this doc, after all, and will not be able to uncover/document everything without some help. You can send me stuff through DMs, my ask box, or discord if you have it. Basically if you have a way to reach me, you can send a suggestion lol I'm not picky.
💭 Links
Playlist: A compilation of songs about daydreaming, whether directly or just based on vibes. Currently only on Spotify.
Blog Submission Form: Since the daydream community is ever changing, I thought it would be a nice idea to compile a list of MaDD & ID blogs to be featured under the "Blogs" section. This section of the doc is so that community members — new & old — have a better idea of who to follow/who is active. Entirely optional & I will only add those who ask.
it's like a ritual
me ranting to myself about the parallels and relationships between my OCs (it's 1am)
ON GODDDDDDD I HATE THIS. ive BEENN saying how its so weird when people make MADD out to be such a cool and quirky thing that everyone does , what they're probably talking is immersive daydreaming and that's nothing compared to maladaptive daydreaming... spending 30 mins daydreaming about ur lil crush with fake scenarios before bed and blah blah blah ... calling that quirky and fun MADD is so crazy bc it just shows how you've done literally no research on what you're talking about and it just makes you look stupid to people who actually suffer from it. the tiktokification about disorders like these need to be studied bro
this kind of pissed me off because some people who are responding to this is making it seem like maladaptive daydreaming is some whimsical nonsense and coming up with fake scenarios in order to sleep at night. while that can be true, MALADAPTIVE means negatively affecting to function daily.
like it is NOT normal.
no hate to OP! just to give my two cents
°•*⁀➷ INTRODUCING MYSELF ! ˘͈ᵕ˘͈
bani ☆ she/her ☆ entp 5w4 ☆ minor (𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗹𝘆 18+ 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝗯𝗹𝗼𝗴𝘀 𝗯𝗹𝗼𝗰𝗸 𝗺𝗲) // side blog: @ilubeau
HI GUYS !! i post daydreaming-related stuff here but it's also kind of a mix of everything, i'll also post anime related stuff, i'll never really stick to just one thing but what i CAN tell you i'll be sticking to is my centrecosm mostly (my main paracosm, i'm staying loyal to the one i've been building for the past 4 years) it's also a blanket paracosm so there's loads of subcosms inside it but at the end of the day it's linear and takes place chronologically.
i have a few paracosms here and there so that's why i call myself a paracosmist but really and all they'll never compare to my main one. ಠ_ಠ
❤︎ this is a safe place for all madders (ง'̀-'́)ง, i really wanna make friends that are passionate with opening up about their little daydreaming worlds, i'll listen to you yap about it all day long.
PLEASE DO SEND QUESTIONS ABOUT MY PARACOSM(S) OR ABOUT YOURS !! i'll always reply ^-^
MY CENTRECOSM ✧
i have 60 paras (characters). yes. you heard that right. SIXTY. i have a whole pinterest board on it and i update it regularly -
https://pin.it/4Yvd42Asm
also yeah i'm a microcelebrity on pinterest idk if you've seen me around but yeah wtvr 😭😭 ALRIGHT LEMME GIVE YOU GUYS A LIL SYNOPSIS ! (i've never done one it's kinda scary)
my paracosm consists of 50 Gods, 4 archdemons, 4 archangels and God themself (God doesn't have a gender) and 5 monotheistic Gods, my paracosm has its own lore of different mythologies. greek, norse, and egyptian mythology. fiction has no limits, so i can bend it to fit my desires, i LOOOOOVE mythologies of all kinds, so i made my own lore using the names you see on the pinterest board. all of the Gods have the same power and no ones more powerful than each other except for God and Satan. the Gods are the most beautiful, ethereal, alluring individuals in heaven. Satan made it so that whenever someone who is not a God sees a God's appearance, they physically feel like they can't say anything. this is to prevent any romantic relationships. so whenever, for example, a human who is granted permission sees them, obviously, their initial reaction would be shock and the need to compliment them. right when they're about to do that, they start to feel choked up like they can't get the words out. it'll go on like that until they give up. the gods have noticed that a lot of the time when they show their selves to other people and they start reacting like that.. they start thinking its because they're ugly or something. LMFAOO, they'll be like "damn i'm THAT ugly???" and its so ironic bc they're actually trying to tell them they're more than beautiful, but they CAN'T because of Satan. he has a lot of unreasonable rules, and the Gods just put up with it because they appointed him as the leader whilst God is gone, so they kind of did to themselves... to put it in a nutshell, the Gods have never been complimented. like. ever. so 😭 its only factual that they'd feel like they're the ugliest individual alive. Satan is currently acting as the overseer of the Gods whilst God is away, so he gets to do whatever he wants to. the Gods are the main characters, the archdemons and archangels are side characters, Satan is the antagonist, and God is... mysterious. they don't pop up. ever. so the Gods just assume they don't like them. i can go on and on about this, but i feel like i'm yapping too much ... this isn't even 0000.5% of the story. sorry, guys, this is a really bad summary, but trust me, you'll find out more about it if you follow through with my posts 🙏🏽
tags i'll use (＞﹏＜) :
#𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗱 -> posts that are not daydreaming-related
#𝗯𝗮𝗻𝗶'𝘀 𝘆𝗮𝗽 𝘀𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 -> original posts
#𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗱 𝘃𝗲𝗻𝘁 -> vents about madd
#𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗯𝘆𝗯𝗮𝗻𝗶 -> art i make about my paracosm or anime and stuff
ok i thought remaking a tumblr pinned post after accidentally deleting my account was hard enough but i just attempted on making a spacehey account for the past hour and i CANNOT feel my fingers. HOW DOES THIS SHT EVEN WORK 😭😭😭
i hate it whenever i seek to write my words down and postpone it. eventually, those precious words lose their urgency, and another important glimmer of mundane life is overlooked, overshadowed, forgotten
i've been blessed with innate knowledge you all wish you had. i know of things you wish you knew of. i'm plotting and scheming with every breath you take.