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Does this fanfiction make sense? Hold water? Not an ounce! Does that mean I’m going to stop writing it? Not an ounce! I’m a moron with a keyboard and half an idea and that’s your problem now. God couldn’t stop me and neither could my dad, and now I’m on your screen with another thousand words of whatever the fuck this is. Bon appetite bitch!
Do you guys know about Hanahaki Disease?
Yeah... just having... some thoughts about that...
daydream bloopers are so much fun. love imagining silly little non-canonical scenes. gimme that free serotonin
I KNOW RIGHT?????
Like Ken is going to have it first and for the longest time before anyone confesses, but he’s a hardy boy, he can take it, but it hurts to have to choke on his own love around them. To have to hide how doe-eyed he gets around them. To disappear into bathrooms and quietly cough up thick, blood-covered petals of pink, red, and yellow while hoping that they don’t notice. But he’s a good boy, he can take it, he can wait for them.
Barbie reacts the worse, she picks up chain smoking, hoping to choke of the flowers in her lungs, but it does nothing. The flowers are awful, revealing how attached she is to these fuckers. The blue and red isn’t shocking, but when small yellow petals join the mix she’s close to collapsing from how weak and soft and loving she’s become. She’s wants so so so so badly to confess and have the air in her lungs come back, to stop the spewing of bloody flowers, but she can’t handle the possibility of rejection if not from Ken then from Midge, If not from Midge then from Alan, and lord have mercy if all three abandon her, reject her without a second thought.
Midge hides it the best, she’s the best at easing the flowers out of her throat, at lying about why she won’t be able to go out with her friends on days where the flair up is just terrible. The only person she can’t hide it from is her mother who rubs her back as she sobs quietly over the bathroom sink, as she begs for any solution to this. If she could just trick her body into believing her feelings for them are a lie, but her mother just kisses her forehead, the top of her head, and holds her close. Midge wants so badly to tell the truth about her feelings, to let them know how much she loves them, but what if they don’t believe her? What if they reject her outright because they think she’s lying and it’ll all hurt even more.
Alan, the moment it happens, is hospitalized. He’s a sickly boy, the disease could kill him simply from the stress and he hates himself for letting this disease come into his life. He hates himself even more when he vomits up red, blue, and pink petals into his lap, so bloody and clumped together that he gags at how horrible he is, trapping them to him like this. Ken would accept his feelings out of pity, Midge would lie to him about how she feels about him to ease him, and Barbie, Barbara would degrade him, call him all sorts of names, and reject him. So even if the other two quelled their own flowers, Barbie’s own pink petals would eventually kill him. God, maybe he deserved to die?
Do you guys know about Hanahaki Disease?
Yeah… just having… some thoughts about that…
the impulse to make Alan’s dad hot so when he abuses Alan and his mom/wife, the fictional audience in my head is violently conflicted and people who are just like ✨he’s my problematic fav✨ and 😍i can fix him😍.
Oh my god, I think about this so much!
Here’s some of the hot fandom discourse™️:
The Sherwood Family Episodes (so much abuse and implied triggering themes)
Barbie’s WHOLE ARC (just... so many triggering themes)
Midge’s Parent’s Age Gap (so many accounts would call Midge’s dad a ‘groomer’ despite them meeting while Midge’s mom was a struggling sophomore in college)
Barbie’s Mom vs. Midge’s Mom vs. Alan’s Dad: THE WORST PARENT AWARDS
Millicent... just Millicent would garner so much discourse
‘Alan’s dad is so fucking hot😍😍😍😍😍😍’ ‘He is LITERALLY ABUSIVE’ discourse
‘The polycule is unhealthy and is a poor representation of polyamorous relationships’ discourse
AND SO MANY MORE TOPICS!!
if your daydreams were a tv show what would the twitter discourse be about ? i think mine would be about how much trauma dumping there is and too much violence and/or triggering themes 😭
I was recently reading about how when you read fiction, your brain processes the information the same way it processes a memory. So later, when you think of topics addressed in the book, you may feel like you relate to those topics, even though you've never actually experienced that. So if you read a book about a country you've never been to, and then that country is brought up in a conversation later, you may feel like you have information to add and additional insight, but really you just read a book about someone traveling through that country.
Something else I'd like to mention, i don't remember what this is called, but when consuming media, you automatically associate with the characters (which is why people frequently take on personality traits or mannerisms etc from their favorite characters, consciously or unconsciously.) Sometimes, near the end of a story, you learn a character is different from you. That may make you more sympathetic to people like them, because as the story goes, you grow more attached and feel as if they are an extension of you.
Maladaptive daydreaming combines both of these effects, which may help explain some of why we feel a connection to our characters or why we feel as if we have had experiences we haven't had.
is it normal to sometimes have trouble separating yourself from your paras? not even the you in it, but also the other people? like you have to intentionally notice that you aren't the same person as that bitch you made up
yeah i think this is pretty common amongst madders, and probably even immersive daydreamers.
i mean, our paras really are just an extension of ourselves. they come from us, from our minds and imaginations. even if someone’s paras aren’t OC’s, when they daydream they’re still putting parts of themselves into it. so it’s completely expected and understandable that many people will feel intrinsically tied to their paras. in a way, we really are inseparable from them.
which isn’t necessarily a bad thing either. i actually think that sometimes, it can be healthier to acknowledge and accept that you and your paras are - to an extent - one in the same, as opposed to trying too hard to separate their existence from yours.
When you found a good song that triggers your daydreaming, but you're having a hard time or can't came up with a paracosm for the song
So you're just sitting there like this
Do other people starts their paras to make happy adventures with fictional characters and OCs and end up giving all of the characters (including fake you) so much trauma and bad shit that you have to make a new plot line because whenever you open the old one you starts feeling awful for the rest of the day? Because I don’t.
Sometimes it feels like the things I make up in my head are more real than my life because I spend such little time and effort with it. I get up early in the morning every day so I can read for two hours before school, throughout preparing for school and arriving I’m daydreaming. Between classes and, when I can’t focus, sometimes during them too. I come home to read and do homework with frequent zoning out breaks and every single piece of studying done is done to justify another break for music and walking in circles.
I used to think all my teddy bears were alive and just pretended to be objects because they thought the truth would freak me out and it terrified me.
I used to have little chats with them trying to reassure them that we’re friends and they can tell me anything but also I thought they hated me because I couldn’t fit all of them onto my bed and sometimes I picked favorites and sometimes my siblings would throw them around to mess with me.
I thought they were biding their time, preparing to take vengeance for years of abuse. I believed this until I was 11 and one of my teddy bears didn’t come back to me after I lost them and thought “okay, well if he was sentient we would have come back”.
…But what if he didn’t come back because they DID all hate me?
Remus is alone but he isn’t lonely- he’s an INFJ and as an only child werewolf I think he spent A LOT of time just in his own world, especially since he’s such a reader.
Wherever he’s bored or can’t focus on lessons or isn’t enjoying a conversation he’ll just go into an imaginary world and make up random shit like what if he was an author traveling the world to research for a fantasy novel he’s writing and his favorite singer is his editor.
I feel like he’d connect to the world and characters that he’s a lot more in control of over reality and get emotionally attached to it.
Like one day he skips class on his own and the other marauders ask why and he has to avoid them because he’s too embarrassed to admit that his imaginary friend got into a fight over one of the plot lines of their imaginary books and he felt too bummed about it go class.
He’d be nit-picky about all the things in his stories making sense so he’d research things about monsters he fights/potions he makes/places he visits in these hypotheticals and that’s why he’s so smart and bookworm-y.
People would catch him going off into space and when he’s drunk at parties or high in the greenhouses, when he isn’t as aware of himself and he’ll start mouthing the words he’s imagining himself/other characters saying or pulling faces in reaction to whatever he’s picturing and that’s how he gets the nickname “Loony Lupin”.
He thinks he’s alone in this habit until he notices Pandora pacing in the greenhouses (as he was about to go do) and they make fast friends talking about their own imaginary stories and ideas to each other, but not interacting at school or outside when they talk about each other on this topic and recommend books to each other that remind them of it.
I dont like this song but it’s the only one that perfectly matches my paracosm so I’ll just obsess over it for a while.
I'm so sorry, asha.
We hope everyone with a para with amnesia has an amazing one fr fr
(First submission from me lmao the others love this blog, so I was like... sure)
🍏🌟♦️ (That's probably wrong, uhhh)
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°•*⁀➷ INTRODUCING MYSELF ! ˘͈ᵕ˘͈
bani ☆ she/her ☆ entp 5w4 ☆ minor (𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗹𝘆 18+ 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝗯𝗹𝗼𝗴𝘀 𝗯𝗹𝗼𝗰𝗸 𝗺𝗲) // side blog: @ilubeau
HI GUYS !! i post daydreaming-related stuff here but it's also kind of a mix of everything, i'll also post anime related stuff, i'll never really stick to just one thing but what i CAN tell you i'll be sticking to is my centrecosm mostly (my main paracosm, i'm staying loyal to the one i've been building for the past 4 years) it's also a blanket paracosm so there's loads of subcosms inside it but at the end of the day it's linear and takes place chronologically.
i have a few paracosms here and there so that's why i call myself a paracosmist but really and all they'll never compare to my main one. ಠ_ಠ
❤︎ this is a safe place for all madders (ง'̀-'́)ง, i really wanna make friends that are passionate with opening up about their little daydreaming worlds, i'll listen to you yap about it all day long.
PLEASE DO SEND QUESTIONS ABOUT MY PARACOSM(S) OR ABOUT YOURS !! i'll always reply ^-^
MY CENTRECOSM ✧
i have 60 paras (characters). yes. you heard that right. SIXTY. i have a whole pinterest board on it and i update it regularly -
https://pin.it/4Yvd42Asm
also yeah i'm a microcelebrity on pinterest idk if you've seen me around but yeah wtvr 😭😭 ALRIGHT LEMME GIVE YOU GUYS A LIL SYNOPSIS ! (i've never done one it's kinda scary)
my paracosm consists of 50 Gods, 4 archdemons, 4 archangels and God themself (God doesn't have a gender) and 5 monotheistic Gods, my paracosm has its own lore of different mythologies. greek, norse, and egyptian mythology. fiction has no limits, so i can bend it to fit my desires, i LOOOOOVE mythologies of all kinds, so i made my own lore using the names you see on the pinterest board. all of the Gods have the same power and no ones more powerful than each other except for God and Satan. the Gods are the most beautiful, ethereal, alluring individuals in heaven. Satan made it so that whenever someone who is not a God sees a God's appearance, they physically feel like they can't say anything. this is to prevent any romantic relationships. so whenever, for example, a human who is granted permission sees them, obviously, their initial reaction would be shock and the need to compliment them. right when they're about to do that, they start to feel choked up like they can't get the words out. it'll go on like that until they give up. the gods have noticed that a lot of the time when they show their selves to other people and they start reacting like that.. they start thinking its because they're ugly or something. LMFAOO, they'll be like "damn i'm THAT ugly???" and its so ironic bc they're actually trying to tell them they're more than beautiful, but they CAN'T because of Satan. he has a lot of unreasonable rules, and the Gods just put up with it because they appointed him as the leader whilst God is gone, so they kind of did to themselves... to put it in a nutshell, the Gods have never been complimented. like. ever. so 😭 its only factual that they'd feel like they're the ugliest individual alive. Satan is currently acting as the overseer of the Gods whilst God is away, so he gets to do whatever he wants to. the Gods are the main characters, the archdemons and archangels are side characters, Satan is the antagonist, and God is... mysterious. they don't pop up. ever. so the Gods just assume they don't like them. i can go on and on about this, but i feel like i'm yapping too much ... this isn't even 0000.5% of the story. sorry, guys, this is a really bad summary, but trust me, you'll find out more about it if you follow through with my posts 🙏🏽
tags i'll use (＞﹏＜) :
#𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗱 -> posts that are not daydreaming-related
#𝗯𝗮𝗻𝗶'𝘀 𝘆𝗮𝗽 𝘀𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 -> original posts
#𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗱 𝘃𝗲𝗻𝘁 -> vents about madd
#𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗯𝘆𝗯𝗮𝗻𝗶 -> art i make about my paracosm or anime and stuff
do u ever just look at one of your paras and just think. damn. you're just like me. except i'm the more flawed version of you
everytime i think about drawing one of my paras and try, it never ends up being how imagine them in my head . like seriously 😭 i'm good at drawing but i think it's just because my perception of my paras are too .. extreme.😅
do u guys ever just think about your old paracosms and js start to miss them a lil bit 😭 like i was such a different person during that period of time
i think i'm already starting to feel the symptoms of not feeling attracted to irl people 😭 like not in an aroace way bc i still do feel attracted to people sometimes but i dont think i can get into a relationship and love someone more than i love my paracosm and my paras
is it even possible to feel the same kind of love in real life that you feel in your paracosm? i swear i love nobody more than my paras, and i'm scared i'll never experience love in real life because of this
THIS IS SOOOOO REAL especially since i have a 4 year old paracosm with the most complex lore the human brain probably can't comprehend & sometimes when i tell people about it i js wish i could let them borrow my brain so they already know the story before i unleash my next idea so they can js be like WOOOO YEAH 😕
yknow what would be really nice? if there was someone who was like. as invested in my paracosm's story as I was. bc then whenever something exciting happens I could just go up to them like "hey look!!! look at this idea that popped into my head!! look look look!!" and I wouldn't need to explain every tiny detail that makes the idea so exciting bc. they already know the details