I Think I Made Myself Upset Thinking About This In Detail Again - Tumblr Posts
I KNOW RIGHT?????
Like Ken is going to have it first and for the longest time before anyone confesses, but he’s a hardy boy, he can take it, but it hurts to have to choke on his own love around them. To have to hide how doe-eyed he gets around them. To disappear into bathrooms and quietly cough up thick, blood-covered petals of pink, red, and yellow while hoping that they don’t notice. But he’s a good boy, he can take it, he can wait for them.
Barbie reacts the worse, she picks up chain smoking, hoping to choke of the flowers in her lungs, but it does nothing. The flowers are awful, revealing how attached she is to these fuckers. The blue and red isn’t shocking, but when small yellow petals join the mix she’s close to collapsing from how weak and soft and loving she’s become. She’s wants so so so so badly to confess and have the air in her lungs come back, to stop the spewing of bloody flowers, but she can’t handle the possibility of rejection if not from Ken then from Midge, If not from Midge then from Alan, and lord have mercy if all three abandon her, reject her without a second thought.
Midge hides it the best, she’s the best at easing the flowers out of her throat, at lying about why she won’t be able to go out with her friends on days where the flair up is just terrible. The only person she can’t hide it from is her mother who rubs her back as she sobs quietly over the bathroom sink, as she begs for any solution to this. If she could just trick her body into believing her feelings for them are a lie, but her mother just kisses her forehead, the top of her head, and holds her close. Midge wants so badly to tell the truth about her feelings, to let them know how much she loves them, but what if they don’t believe her? What if they reject her outright because they think she’s lying and it’ll all hurt even more.
Alan, the moment it happens, is hospitalized. He’s a sickly boy, the disease could kill him simply from the stress and he hates himself for letting this disease come into his life. He hates himself even more when he vomits up red, blue, and pink petals into his lap, so bloody and clumped together that he gags at how horrible he is, trapping them to him like this. Ken would accept his feelings out of pity, Midge would lie to him about how she feels about him to ease him, and Barbie, Barbara would degrade him, call him all sorts of names, and reject him. So even if the other two quelled their own flowers, Barbie’s own pink petals would eventually kill him. God, maybe he deserved to die?
Do you guys know about Hanahaki Disease?
Yeah… just having… some thoughts about that…
