Actually Maladaptive - Tumblr Posts
"My child is fine-"
Your child is so lonely and emotionally numb that they cope by living in a dream world to the point where they are terrified of living in reality itself
I'm not daydreaming; I'm... maladaptive daydreaming....
I'm not daydreaming; I'm... maladaptive daydreaming....
My childhood is such a vibe, idk if it's positive or negative
sitting in My elementary school bathroom playing with the puddles of tapwater next to the sinks because I don't wanna go to class, it's boring
smelling the pine tree in the school yard because it smells really good and I don't wanna talk to people, they're boring
sitting on the bench in the back of the yard in the cold autumn wind staring off into space, because I don't wanna socialise, I don't know how to
realising I don't like any of my classmates, that I don't wanna talk to them and just wanna be alone
playing with the fake lawn in the yard because I have nothing else to do
standing just 6 feet away from The Friend Group I'm trying to be included in, just feeling more alone because they're all talking about something I know nothing about and I don't get the occasion to ask because they never shut up
falling in love with anyone who becomes My friend as a kid because I'm not used to being liked
not being bullied per se, just being alone and vibing
being a gifted kid, good at everything, until one day being good requires Effort, and I'm unable to provide enough to impress My parents
crying over 80/100 grades because it's Not Good Enough for My parents, eventually reaching burnout
being told by My mother that My special interests aren't okay and that I should get new interests so people would like Me
being told I'm lazy because I procrastinate and have no motivation to do anything ever unless I'm having a manic episode or hyperfixating on the task
realising the friendships I've managed to build are waning for whatever reason, watching My friends drift away, just letting it happen because I'm not attached to them anymore
living in My daydreams because real life is boring and people suck
yeah same but now that im thinking about it i think i'd feel honoured if someone told me i popped up in their daydream ... 🫣
fellow maladaptive daydreamers, do you also feel really guilty and gross when your daydreams involve real people? like even if you can’t help it