Me On My Death Bed But I Remember How Deku Mightve Be Putting All The Blame Onto Himself After Seeing

me on my death bed but i remember how deku mightve be putting all the blame onto himself after seeing bakugos dead body thinking things like "if only i got here sooner" and continously self depricating even though it was not his fault at all 💔

i had a friend admit she stalked my old tumblr account before.. i'm not ok 😭😭 idk i dont feel good about people who are close to me/irl friends stalking my socials bc i have personal accounts for a reason u can go stalk those but to stalk these ones where its just me talking to the internet and only the internet? lowkey made me uncomfortable when she said that but i guess i can kind of let it go even though i rlly dont wanna bc we were going through some stuff and she wanted to check whether i was saying stuff on tumblr about her since im rlly active on here (nothing came out of my mouth) ... sorry for the lil rant its js smth that i wanted to get off my chest bc i hate people crossing my boundaries like that 😭

i vividly remember exactly how i thought of it too. just one random night. wouldn't it be cool if i basically made a religion by mixing other ones to make it fit my idea of what i want heaven to be like, all inside my head. and i did it. now we're here ..

i had a really good daydream once when i was like 10 years old and i've been trapped in that daydream since then

everytime i think about drawing one of my paras and try, it never ends up being how imagine them in my head . like seriously 😭 i'm good at drawing but i think it's just because my perception of my paras are too .. extreme.😅

Maladaptive daydreaming is a behavior where a person spends an excessive amount of time daydreaming, often becoming immersed in their imagination.

also i'm kind of scared to tell some friends because ik they'll just be like "isn't that normal" like NO 😭😭 NO ITS NOT 😭😭😭 ITS SLOWLY CONSUMING ME BIT BY BIT AND I CAN'T GO A SINGLE DAY WITHOUT FEELING LIKE I'M WASTING AWAY MY LIFE 😭😭😭😭 SO NO IT'S NOT NORMAL 😭😭😭😭😭

Its so hard to talk about maladaptive daydreaming because it's so embarrassing 😭 like yeah.. I'm addicted to fucking daydreaming and my life genuinly revolves around little fantasies in my head