Introvert Problems - Tumblr Posts
Another Day
I don't like how people think I am lazy and sleep in my room all the time. But in reality, I am hiding in my room because I hit my socializing quota hours ago and I really just can't handle another person. It's worse because there are so many really nice people around here and I like them but I'm just so drained.
My social battery is dead~
Doo do do doo
But I've only been here for like
30 minutes...
growing up is realising you no longer have "my parents aren't permitting me to *insert task*, sorry " as an excuse to avoid social situations
The introvert urge to take yourself on a solo date. Buy yourself a nice cup of coffee, a couple of good books, a nice meal and go on a drive vibing to your favourite music.
That’s actually crucial to me, if I’m not invited ahead of time and somehow manage to still go, I’ll just make up some lame ass excuse and stay home
Don’t invite me anywhere last minute I enjoy doing nothing so I need to know ahead of time if my plan to do nothing needs to be changed
My antisocial arse staying in our hotel room doing nothing while my parents go and vibe with the neighbours:
Small Victory: Spoke three sentences to a neighbour
yeah, sometimes they may see me as being cold, but in reality I'm just unspeakably sad, hurt and dealing with feelings...
and honestly, why should I say it, when they either judge or don't take me seriously and just saying "it's all in your head, snap out of it" like my feelings wouldn't be valid and with that, pushing me more into this state?
they never acknowledge or notice that.
No wonder why I always feel like I constantly have to protect myself and shut myself down. It's so damn exhausting.
I lowkey feel like no one is ever able to understand me, yet I try to understand everyone. Kinda sucks
ever had a conversation with people who tells a story about someone who have gone through almost the same situation as you were and they feel sorry for them, but they never showed compassion for you experiencing the same thing? How's that work? Do I don't matter that much and my feeling are invalid?
they say they like me, and they want me to be around, but I can see they really don't...
why do some people have to randomly attack/taunt you and try to make you, out to be the "bad guy" for no reason? Like, I haven't even said anything bad and anything at all, just let me be, jeez
yeah, sometimes I make mistakes, but they don't even recognise how badly I'm trying and trying to keep everything together in the meanwhile. I'm deeply sorry when I lose my track and screw up, but you shouldn't treat me like I'm the worst person, because of that and that I will always screw up...
sometimes I just don't wanna talk, at all
I mean...how could anyone possibly like someone like...me?
sometimes I'm having this feeling like they were just waiting for me to leave...
it's so humiliating when you gave so much from yourself, gave them endless chances, basically tried to understand why they have been treating you like shit, because your feelings were actually real and truly loved them unconditionally just it to end abruptly, because you finally found out what they have been doing behind your back the whole time...and the worst is that you was the one who HAD TO end it, because they gave you no other choice, because it could have been the same hamster wheel and you would have ended up even more broken than now..
And the feeling that they acted like they liked you, loved you and wanted to be with you when in reality they had no intention to do so is horrible. It makes you question EVERYTHING.