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Having my phone just randomly die on me the other morning has made me realise a few things, but one thing in particular is that I’m not sad that I lost the stuff that was on the phone, I’m sad for my past self. Evidence of her doesn’t exist anymore. Pictures, notes, period tracking. It’s all gone. And yes it affects the me today, but it also makes me sad that past me is no longer anywhere were I can reach her somewhat comfortably, and it makes me kinda upset that things she’s worked so hard to achieve is now gone.

Going Home. [I drew the first version to be open ended, but here's a happier end.]

Hypothetically what if guy died?

Yeah I'm fairly sure that putting my head on someone's chest while he's saying "shh it's okay I got you" and is hugging me in a protective way while I'm sobbing, would solve ALL my problems

YOU LITERALLY CANNOT TELL ME TOBIO DIDN’T BUY THAT FOR HIM THINKING IT WAS THE BEST PRESENT IN THE WHOLE EXISTENCE OF THE WORLD AND IS CONSTANTLY SO CHUFFED WHENEVER HE SEES THAT SHOYO USES IT.

We focus too much on brazil! Hinata's phone wallpaper of the five friends but if you zoom in a little bit to the side panel...

His phone cover literally says 'Milk' ! Like Kageyama's favourite drink!!

rewatching banana fish and realising that when Ash goes back to Cape Cod he has to deal with the memories of his dead older brother, who essentially raised him, on top of everything else. I wonder if he went into griff’s room when everyone else was gone or if he couldn’t bring himself to do it and stood at the threshold before turning and shutting the door. I wonder if he looked at the empty house and saw griff’s silhouette in the kitchen, heard his steps on the stairs. It’s not talked about enough, but Ash was grieving. He probably couldn’t sleep under the same roof he used to share with his brother, he was probably laying awake wishing he’d gotten to say goodbye properly. Of course he wouldn’t show how badly the grief was getting to him, instead he wakes up at the crack of dawn and finds a distraction in the sound of ringing gunshots and breaking glass bottles, and he misses and he misses and he shouldn’t be because he doesn’t have that luxury. He doesn’t have the luxury of grief.

nobody ever cares about me as much as i care about them.

I always wondered why I heard old people here in America say things like "I'm sorry for you" when a parent says they are expecting a girl. (not all of course but you would be surprised how many I've encountered with this mindset)

I know it is obviously rooted by misogyny just how in some other countries they say girls are "easier" than boys. They are not easier, people just decide to control them more.

They are not more difficult either, children are children, when they have tantrums is because they don't know how to properly communicate their discomfort, but parents often punish it instead of trying to communicate.

But I think I finally understand why people in some places tend to say girls are "worse"

Because they judge and blame girls and women for EVERYTHING, they put all this weight on their shoulders and watch them crack, and instead of helping they just say "why are you being so difficult?"

"Take care of your siblings" "don't be bossy" "you are too loud" "you should smile more" "be nicer" "be obedient" "what was she wearing" "she didn't have to be such a b*tch" "she's playing hard to get" "she's dramatic" "hormonal" "on her days" "get over it" "you should be flattered he looked at you" "he just touched you a bit that is not assault" "why are you so emotional" "he is nice you are just delusional" "why would you lie? He is not like that" "no one likes nagging" "you brought this upon yourself"

Please stop!

The biggest mystery in Kpop….

©Def otter

me writing the kind of rhea apollo shit in part 10 of the archer and the knight that creates fan art in my head vs my absolute inability to draw anything let alone them in desi traditionals wearing mehendi with apollo feeding her by hand.

falling

i think im falling and i dont know how to stop...i dont want to fall for him i really dont but he makes me happy but doesnt know it yet 

WHAT?! YOU GET COVID?! I THOUGHT THE PANDEMIC WAS OVER!

Hope you get well soon as possible ಥ‿ಥ

YEAH!!

I just woke up 11:20 am AND I BOUT TO THROW UP ITS GETTING TO ME GUYS

THEY MIGHT NEED TO GET THE GRAVESTONE READY NGL

it’s been goin around again and with me with a poor immune system caught it ofc.

Also Covid as turned into something like the flu or any sickness like it

it isn’t like a main pandemic anymore it’s just a flu like thing where you can still have it but it ain’t a full on pandemic.

IM DYING PEOPLE SEND HELP

holy crap I think I’m losing my voice

To love him is to hurt.

The way I ache for him is unbearable and goes through time and space.

THEYRE SO CUTIE

Edgeworth family 🥺🥺🥺🥺

(Please don’t repost)

sad boy

i’m sorry, i feel this. i can trace my non-jewish family back to the 18th century- across oceans, across continents, before colonialism “annexed” their land.

but my jewish family? there are four records total. three of them are census records. i can’t find anything pre-immigration from ukraine, and i can’t find anything from their time stateside. i don’t know anything about them besides what the census taker reported and what my moms grandmother told her.

one of the things that stings the most is that when i'm trying to do research on my family history, it's painfully easy to find records for just about any non-jewish relative. and it's so much more difficult for my jewish ones: because they immigrated, because they don't have church records, because none of the big genealogy sites have equivalent records from jewish communities for us.

and when i go on jewishgen, and i search my great-grandfather's name, listed as a researcher of my family, his wife's family, is my grandfather, may his memory be a blessing, who last logged into the site in 2004. he died over a decade later. i wonder if he also became discouraged, seeing how difficult it was to find records, even on a site devoted to preserving our history, and gave up.

i wonder how many records were destroyed along with the living people, lost with the burning, pillaging, looting of their homes and synagogues. i wonder if that's why it's so difficult, sometimes.

literally me

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