Having My Phone Just Randomly Die On Me The Other Morning Has Made Me Realise A Few Things, But One Thing

Having my phone just randomly die on me the other morning has made me realise a few things, but one thing in particular is that I’m not sad that I lost the stuff that was on the phone, I’m sad for my past self. Evidence of her doesn’t exist anymore. Pictures, notes, period tracking. It’s all gone. And yes it affects the me today, but it also makes me sad that past me is no longer anywhere were I can reach her somewhat comfortably, and it makes me kinda upset that things she’s worked so hard to achieve is now gone.

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It says "izzler" cuz it's my user

Dark Academia Miku

Someone already did my countries Miku a million times better than I ever could but I wanted to participate so here’s an aesthetic Miku instead haha

This is what I did during the pandemic after I'd lost a bunch of my friends bc of some stupid fight. I had to almost force myself to be happy. I said, "Joy!" like Starfire does in Teen Titans Go whenever something positive happened. I trained myself like a dog with positive reinforcements and words, and I'd like to say it kinda worked.

I'm pretty stinkin' happy now, even tho everything in my life might not be. I tried to focus on only the good things. I subscribed to positive news outlets, I cleared up my social media fyp's to only be abt wholesome things like small animals, cooking, crochet etc, and I focused on stuff I remembered I'd liked before. And slowly but surely I got better. It took ages and a good handful of breakdowns in between, but I'd say I'm much much happier now than I ever was before.

And after a while you just stop. You stop watering your plants. You stop watching netflix. You stop reading. You stop replying to your friends as fast as you used to. You stop buying yourself nice things. You stop putting an effort into how you look. You stop taking care of yourself like you used to. You stop sleeping. You stop eating healthy foods. You stop petting your dog. You stop socializing.

You stop with everything. You find yourself sitting in your room for hours on end, without doing a single thing. Days feel like years. And you think you can’t do it for much longer.

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I’ve been resource gathering for YEARS so now I am going to share my dragons hoard

Floorplanner. Design and furnish a house for you to use for having a consistent background in your comic or anything! Free, you need an account, easy to use, and you can save multiple houses.

Comparing Heights. Input the heights of characters to see what the different is between them. Great for keeping consistency. Free.

Magma. Draw online with friends in real time. Great for practice or hanging out. Free, paid plan available, account preferred.

Smithsonian Open Access. Loads of free images. Free.

SketchDaily. Lots of pose references, massive library, is set on a timer so you can practice quick figure drawing. Free.

SculptGL. A sculpting tool which I am yet to master, but you should be able to make whatever 3d object you like with it. free.

Pexels. Free stock images. And the search engine is actually pretty good at pulling up what you want.

Figurosity. Great pose references, diverse body types, lots of “how to draw” videos directly on the site, the models are 3d and you can rotate the angle, but you can’t make custom poses or edit body proportions. Free, account option, paid plans available.

Line of Action. More drawing references, this one also has a focus on expressions, hands/feet, animals, landscapes. Free.

Animal Photo. You pose a 3d skull model and select an animal species, and they give you a bunch of photo references for that animal at that angle. Super handy. Free.

Height Weight Chart. You ever see an OC listed as having a certain weight but then they look Wildly different than the number suggests? Well here’s a site to avoid that! It shows real people at different weights and heights to give you a better idea of what these abstract numbers all look like. Free to use.