Why Do Some People Have To Randomly Attack/taunt You And Try To Make You, Out To Be The "bad Guy" For

why do some people have to randomly attack/taunt you and try to make you, out to be the "bad guy" for no reason? Like, I haven't even said anything bad and anything at all, just let me be, jeez

they say they like me, and they want me to be around, but I can see they really don't...

yeah, sometimes I make mistakes, but they don't even recognise how badly I'm trying and trying to keep everything together in the meanwhile. I'm deeply sorry when I lose my track and screw up, but you shouldn't treat me like I'm the worst person, because of that and that I will always screw up...

I mean...how could anyone possibly like someone like...me?

It's so painful to see that people that you had happy/fun times with are slowly leaving you behind and you know there's nothing you can do, but live with the thought. Now you're left with feeling unwanted, that after a long time the place you thought, you finally belonged to, turns out that you're not really belong there.

yeah, sometimes they may see me as being cold, but in reality I'm just unspeakably sad, hurt and dealing with feelings...

and honestly, why should I say it, when they either judge or don't take me seriously and just saying "it's all in your head, snap out of it" like my feelings wouldn't be valid and with that, pushing me more into this state?

they never acknowledge or notice that.

No wonder why I always feel like I constantly have to protect myself and shut myself down. It's so damn exhausting.