Attachment Issues - Tumblr Posts
Thank you to Dad for the disorganized type of attachmentđź’‹đź’‹
Every professional psychiatrist/psychologist I’ve ever met have always assumed my attachment to my mum was too dependent and tried to treat me based on that which is why it was wild that I went to two sessions with a specialist in my disorders who immediately told me that I showed all the signs of having no attachment to anyone in my life especially my mother.
That’s a lot of learned behaviours added to exacerbate an already awful attachment style.
When you have an under-researched disorder people miss so many important things that could have helped you much sooner because they just assume the obvious.
Don’t be afraid to push back when you know they’re missing something important. It’s your brain they’re messing up.
My attachment issues are so bad
LiKe
WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN IM ALREADY ATTACHED TO PEOPLE IVE ONLY MET FOR A COUPLE DAYS???!?!?
I'm an attentionwhore :3
If I actively seek you out and talk to you all the time it means either
A. I love you in a "I dont know if I have a crush on you but ur my pookie and we do gay shit together and maybe kiss as bros[No homo]:3"
B. I love you in a "I love you but only as my chaotic sibling/child:3"
C. I will do anything for you regardless of romantic or platonic feelings. I will defend you till the day I fucking die :3
Cuz when I’m the mentally ill gf they knew they were getting I’m suddenly too much!!
They should make a "are you mad at me" that is taken neutrally and informationally every time and doesn't make everything worse when you ask it
god i need affection so bad it hurts
I want paternal attention before I start crying
Seeing my sisters dad being so nice to her is making me nauseous
When my cat refuses to cuddle me I literally want to kms
Abandonment issues go brrrr
I saw one of those posts that was like “If you like these anime characters you have daddy issues.”
Here’s my question, if you like Alucard, what brand of issues do you have?
Discuss
Lmao
Mmmh.. one of my closest friends told me they're moving the other day. Like pretty damn far away.
Oh, how I am not handling people leaving.
Right in my attachment issues.. Fucking ouch
I need more booze.
Couldn't even let them know how much I'm gonna miss them. God knows that would make me feel vonerable, weak and exposed. Can't have that.. Moron.
So all I said was "Well, that sucks.."
Pretty sure they could guess how hard I took it tho, concidering I started drinking as if my life depended on it. They were already sad about moving so they joined.. and like.. three days later [?] here we are.. Probably gonna continue tomorrow and saturday too. We're gonna go to some party, fuck knows where. After that well see how I feel..
[I really don't know what's a normal and appropriate reaction to these things.. it's not like they're dead or anything. Although it kinda feels like it right now tbh. Shit like this always me feel like it's not worth keeping people around cause it's just way too painful when they leave. Think this was just the final straw of the shit I was trying to handle rn. Sure I'll feel more at peace with it when I've processed it been drinking some more tho..]
I’m so afraid of being in love again
well well well if it isn't the feeling i've been running from
My best friend is going into Basic training soon and I don’t fucking know how I’m gonna be without him.
I literally spent half an hour crying cause as lame as it sounds he does a lot for me.
He reminds me to eat, drink water, keeps the bad thoughts at bay, validates everything good I do cause I crave validation.
I can’t text him
I can’t go to him in a panic attack
I can’t distract myself from over thinking
Besides that, my attachment issues with my friends feels like it’s crumbling cause they’re all in college, going to college, going to BT and I feel like I’m losing them even though I know they’re my family and I’ll never lose them but it just hurts cause I’m trying to get to a point where I can thrive from my art without going to college even though I know I should go to college to learn more.
I feel like I have some weird FOMO even when I’m not really missing out on anything. Maybe it’s because I don’t have a true plan while they’re all going to college or military, I’m not sure.
Where the fuck did time go….
How is he already about to go into BT…
How is it already time for my other friends to be in college…
Graduation felt like a week ago…
What the hell happened….
Take me back to my senior year…where I didn’t have to worry about losing my favorite people…
I need my mom to take me to my school at some point soon…I’m losing hope and I just want to see my teachers…I need to see my teachers…and my underclassmen friends…
I feel so alone…
"There is so much pressure between my shoulder blades I fear I may be carrying the world. Perhaps that is why with each stumble I feel like I may have just lost it all. I almost went to a masseuse just to see if they could work out the knot, but for another's hands to press against my entirety is an intimacy too grand for me. I pretend yoga takes the tension away, at least that I can do on my own."