Overthinking - Tumblr Posts
i am losing my mind for it shall never be quieted.
tired eyes with a screaming mind.
Reality #gemmacorrell #cartoon #introvert #overthinking (at Mehrshahr)
Vox (and valentino) has some serious explaining to do because wtf is this 😭
Alles dreht sich weiter nur du stehst still.
Sometimes I’m getting completely lost in my adhd dreamworld. A better world where I am accepting myself as the person I am. Here i can be free. I can love without the fear of doing anything wrong. I can discuss with people without thinking about it months later. I can say stuff that comes to my head and people aren’t mad or confused because I forgot to make a whole sentence. It’s not, that people always like that, it’s more, that I am overthinking situations because bad thinkings kick more dopamine. I can just eat when I am hungry without making 1000 of other things instead. I can jump around and just make stuff that make me happy. I can feel truly love without questioning myself in one second and creat a drama in my head in the other. Without having anxiety. Without overthinking. Without involuntary planing every step I take in my head.
Sometimes I’m just so tired of being mindful in every second. But I know I have to go one and maybe one day it will be better. Maybe I am just healing right now.
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Sorry if my english isn’t correct.
But do you really understand me?
My Morning thoughts
Stressing about an exam next week bc I had to study for one tmrw (I have two exams tmrw sobsob) so I didnt stud for the one next week which is an oral one. And I know I shouldnt stress so mich bc I can just retake it soon after should I fail but god damn I just wanna hang out with Jeanist and Edge and do silly things :/
Imagine living your life without overthinking and your crippling depression and anxiety?
Yeah me neither nice to meet you now plz pass the knife
I’m not used to feel. So when I do, I feel things so deeply that I don’t know how to express it. It doesn’t matter if my feelings are “good or bad”, it’s so intense in my chest that I choke on it.
When I'm ready to explain to someone why I can't do a certain thing because of my mental illness but then I remember how it ended up the last time I did
When I talk to someone and they seem understanding and I try to see how much more understanding they can be so I can "open up" a little more
When I decide to keep on opening up to them but it turned out they aren't actually that "understanding" like everyone else
When I just accept it because I knew from the begging it would end up like that
Me later that night overthinking it and feeling pathetic for making the same mistakes over and over again because I don't know how to learn from them
When I'm broke of money and my best friend pays for my meal
When I run out of cigarettes in social event
Me:*jokes about mental illness/depression/suicide...*
Someone: you shouldn't joke about these things, some people are actually suffering from them!!!
Me:
Me buying new books as soon as I get paid even though I haven't read all the books I bought the last time and the time before that and the time before that...
Friends: Hey wanna hang out tonight?
Me:*when I just left my workplace where I have been the last 15h with annoying people that I don't like at all and I don't have energy for socializing anymore*
I love to sleep, but I actually hate it... you know?
I'm always sleepy when I shouldn't, and I'm wide awake when I'm in my bed. I don't have to deal with problems when I'm sleeping, but if I sleep too much, I'll have more problems. And I always wake up TIRED. Like, b**ch I've been tired the WHOLE DAY and I SLEEP AND... WOKE UP TIRED... AGAIN...? give me a break...