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Cleaned my room instead of eating and now I feel motivated and inspired to be better this month! Just keeping busy and distracted is the key y’all! 😌✨

Had a really nice and productive day. Not eating really makes me target other areas of my life that I can fix 😌✨

Buying this scale right now. I’ve been using one that only tells me my weight, and this review sold me immediately 😭

My coworker asked me how much I weigh and I was about to freak out but then she said I look really small and guessed that I weigh 110 (which is crazy because I definitely don’t look like I weigh that little) and then I had to lie and say

“oh I honestly have no idea how much I weigh.”

As if my psycho ass didn’t weigh myself twice today.

Went in to work to get my check and they asked what I was doing today

I said I was gonna go grocery shopping, and my coworker said, “what?! You’re actually gonna eat?!”

First of all, rude. Second, yes. I’m gonna eat pickles, cucumbers and 50 cal salad & I need to restock my diet coke bitch 🫠

I think the universe is on my side guys.

Last night I drank wine and my drunk ass decided to order food (which would have totaled 800 cals !!!!!)

But I fell asleep before it got here and I woke up to find it outside ripped apart by the neighborhood cats

So I got saved from the calories and fed some kitties!

And I woke up one pound lighter 😇✨

Honestly sometimes I get irritated when people call me skinny or small. Like obviously I’m flattered and I feel less gross looking, but i know it’s a lie.

Like if you could see me under these baggy clothes I’m hiding in you’d see stomach rolls. So no, I’m not skinny.

Stop spreading misinformation 🙄

✨Lunch✨

~ 30 cals total ~

On my period and I still went down a pound, hell yeah! 😇

Lunch

~ 60 cals ~

Dinner 😇✨

🍓Lunch 🍋

I went to the drugstore on my break at work to buy the super low cal soup they usually have for lunch but they were out so I spent 15 mins panicking and reading labels and everything was too high calorie &

I felt like people were watching me read all the labels so I got overwhelmed &

Now this is my lunch &

I’m honestly pretty happy with it 😇

Just hit my first goal weight! I’m 130 pounds exactly! 😇

I started June at 139.1.

Hoping to be 125 by the end of June ✨

I fear I may have gotten too excited about reaching my first goal weight, because I drank alcohol after 4 days of sobriety and now I’m ordering chips 😭

Whenever I have to log that I gained in my calorie counting app I always feel like it’s mad at me. 🥲

OMFG I’m so annoyed that I always wanna find an excuse to drink alcohol. It’s so calorie dense and I know it and I’ve been doing so good lately and now I can feel myself just fucking up all my progress.

Like when I don’t drink, it’s not only easy to lose weight, but it’s FUN. I feel happier, hotter, and better.

So WHY am I here tonight getting sloshed knowing full well ima wake up tomorrow fatter and more depressed?!

Finally broke below 130! I’m 129.5 pounds!!!

I’m trying to remember not to celebrate reaching goal weights by eating or drinking alcohol this time.

The goal weight is the reward!

I repeat:

The goal weight is the reward!!

Jesus, I definitely shouldn’t have run two miles in this heat on an empty stomach. Literally started to pass out in the middle of the street just now 💀

FRIENDLY REMINDER:

Weight loss is weird and fluctuates all the time.

If you restrict super low or fast all day and wake up the next day maintaining or even gaining, don’t worry!

Stay consistent!

There are a lot of other factors that go into the number on the scale.

I promise if you keep a low calorie intake, you WILL lose weight. Just keep it up angels! 🫡🥰😇❤️

Having a bestfriend who also has an ed is hard man. Like I want her to eat and be happy but it’s hard not to trigger her.

We went out to eat and ordered the same thing and the waitress asked me if I wanted four spring rolls or three so I said three. Bestie said four.

Then she kept commenting that I ordered three and now I made her look fat (she’s way thinner than me) so I had to say oh I just couldn’t afford four right now, moneys tight.

She said that she probably wouldn’t eat all four anyway.

I tried telling her that she should eat all four and that she’s probably hungrier than me but then I just felt bad because if someone told me to eat all my food I know I wouldn’t want to.

It’s even worse cause I’ve always been the girl who eats everything x10.

So now when I ask for less she gets super suspicious. She calls me out every time. And then she says she feels like she’s being fat for eating more than me which hurts my feelings but also makes me feel guilty.

Ugh. I want HER to be healthy and happy but I just can’t afford to be yet 😭