Self Mutilator - Tumblr Posts

⚠️Tw/sh talk ⚠️

I want to cut so bad but also I don't want to move

I don't want to undress to find perfect place

I don't have energy to look for razors

I don't have energy to wait for cuts to stop bleeding

I don't have energy to hide those cuts

I don't have energy to cut

I just don't

I use sexual relationships as self harm because,

if I just give my body away it won't be mine anymore. I won't have to deal with it anymore.

Is it bad that I really love how my sh looks? It's so pretty, fresh and with scabs.

People who refuse to understand that cvtting for attention is valid make me so, so angry. Because i'm not talking about someone who does it because they want to hurt someone else/do it as "revenge" against someone to make them feel bad, I'm talking about someone who cvts to get attention because they know something is wrong, but they don't know what that something is and they can't articulate it.

If someone is resorting to cvtting themselves to get you to look at them and pay attention to them and you brush it off as just being dramatic and attention seeking, you're not helping. And usually, a lot of us hide our sh for a reason! Even if we've been clean for a while! I hid my scars for nearly a year because I didn't want anyone to know, but even if I didn't even if I showed someone to ask for help in the only way I knew how, that would've been valid.

TW: s/h (no pictures) block don't report!!!

I just got so angry and overwhelmed at everything and took it out on my thighs and now I feel better so Idk why everyone in my life says it's not effective?😭

I want to fake my own suicide, to see How others would react, or If they would Care