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Mirror

When I look into the mirror,

I see a girl looking back at me-

Who is she?

Not me.

I dont recognise her eyes, her nose, her lips.

I dont recognise the face that is reflected in the glass.

Not me- I know- but,

Who am I?

How do I know she isn't me,

Why don't I feel like her face fits.

How will I know when I am truly me?

How do I realise, who I'm meant to be?

He or she?

Not now, nor then, have I ever known,

Will I ever?

Know who I am going to be?

"But what if I'm faking it?" doesn't cross my mind.

Instead:

What if I'm misdiagnosing? What if I'm psychotic? What if it's just my anxiety? Would I feel the same if I felt safe to be myself?

Who am I when I'm alone? I'm never alone.

I'm one of 17 now. I'm the host. Who am I if not the faces of every other alter?

I changed my pfp. Do you like it, guys? :3

What is love (non specific) even supposed to feel like?

ladies, gentlemen and everything in between my questioning ass needs some help! specifically from my trans peeps, ftm if you will (bc maybe i am) but everyone's welcome to share:

how did y'all realize it? did something trigger it or was it a long term process? did anything help you realize it, like something that just made you go "oh damn"?

experiences, advice, stories - everything's appreciated♡ (just be nice please i'm confused as hell)

Is it a perfectly cisgender thing to think about what name you would choose if you were a trans girl

guys,can someone help me,i literally have no idea what gender i am. i feel happy when reffered to as a boy,and called by he/him pronouns,and wouldn't mind living as a boy,but i also really like being a girl,and happy when called feminine compliments,and being called she/her,and dressing femininely,and being called a girl. would this be bigender/non-binary? sorry if this sounds weird!

i know I’m not someone who shares my sexuality on here but I need help.

I really need some supportive comments and some help.

Please follow me and do help me.

I really need help because I've been struggling and I feel like I should seek out now.

Warning: this is kind of a let out but a rant so please help me and don’t be rude.

And I'm still new to tumblr so I'm sorry for my post history.

I'm trying my best here I can't try much and I'm trying.

I'm a kpop fan page on here so please help me.

I can’t tell if im a lesbian or bi.

I can’t seem to help staring at girls nowadays and I keep brushing off my feelings.

Today I saw this girl and she's so cute.

I so badly wanted to say hello but I was scared. In my mind, I wanted to badly be her friend. Like so badly. I kept looking at her until one point someone called my name and since I wasn't paying attention, they touched me so when they did, I got scared. My heart jumped out my chest so I snapped out of the thoughts quickly. But looking at her is just a dream like I wanted to so badly say hi but I couldn't. I had no time.

I don't feel any interest in men. I was walking around men lately and I didn't find anything interesting as I used to when I was younger. Nowadays when a guy would talk to me, I would get excited but I wouldn't find myself to date him. I was nervous but no butterflies in my stomach.

I've been wanting to kiss my friend ever since we first met ( a week ago ) and now I'm just like, every time we talk, I just always thought of kissing her.

I sometimes feel bad and deal with negative thoughts with this whole thing and sexuality because I can't tell if this is real or just a lie.

I feel like I'm still straight or I'm lying.

I really wish I could be together with a man but now I can't and I feel bad because I feel like I shouldn't be this way. I really wish I could be with men as what my family are expecting but now I can't.

Sometimes I'll be like "men <3" as I used to do when I was growing up and younger (In reality still but not anymore now?) but now I'm like "girls so pretty" , "I wanna be her partner"

I can't tell if im a lesbian who's experiencing comphet (which is valid) or a bisexual struggling.

I just wanna be with a girl but at the same time I'm scared.

+ I would always stare at a girl's butt or her upper part and then look away so she or anybody doesn't notice.

One time I stared at her for about an hour at her upper part.

I dont know what was there satisfying. But I dont know how to explain my facial expressions when it happened.

I would make a face like my eyes widening and then my mouth opening, then I would be like "oh my god.. her .. ahhh" under my breath in this whispering voice or like mouthing (covering my mouth though or something) then be focused on it.

Or look at her butt and be like "oh wow, that's.." like I can't help but stare there.

When I spoke to her, my fingers weakened and she understood that I was nervous.

When she hugged me I immediately panicked (in my mind) because I was so close to her upper body.

I just.. it's getting too much.

I don't know what I am..

Lesbian experiencing comphet or a bisexual with a lean ???

I feel like a bi with a leaning but this attraction is something else.

I just wanna touch her. No one understands me. So I need help with this if you don’t mind ?

Anybody who's bi or lesbian, please reply.

I can't explain properly but I tried.

Please leave a comment and help me out.

I'm lost.

I hate saying this but y'all i need a bit of help here (anyone who's lgbtq)

I'm gonna share my experiences a bit (not top much just a little) & worries so peacefully talk to me nicely.

I'm gonna do my labels journey separately so enjoy reading.

Again I'm not gonna show or say too much.

me trying out the lesbian label (I've tried this out for 2 weeks now?) + experiences

my journey in 2 weeks w the lesbian label !

signs of my attraction w the label 🏷 .

🦢 : when i would watch the film of lgbtq people on Netflix (a few months back) for the first ever time and I would always focus on the female characters.

And I would always think "do i like her romantically? Or in a nice way?"

🦢 : i would play this game (the new one) called splatoon 2 & 3 and I would always have a crush on the female characters. I remember when I was playing the solo mode and every time I would win, I would see her do a certain pose (I'm not trying to be sexual with the character when saying this, I'm just trying to express my feelings of her), she had her body out and I would always stare at it and feel flustered. Have a huge tightening in my chest and my heart heavy.

🦢 : i remember during the game, i would see the octo boy and think “wow he is so cute”. now when i was younger (like 2 - 3 years back), i would always think “i wish he was real. I would like be his friend” and developed feelings (NOT a sexual or a romantic one, a platonic one that's strong like as a friend). I used to have a crush on him but I dont anymore now. I'm just attracted as a friend. (Lesbians have crushes on unattainable men like fictional characters and all but mine isn't a fictional character but a game one)

🦢 : I started identifying with the lesbian label more when I had strong feelings for the female character. Every time I would go on solo mode story playing as her, I instantly stare at her body and think, “shes so cute i love her” but at the same/at the time (still now), i never had a crush on the male characters anymore nor not as much. Like I found both inkling & octos cute (male ones) but I wouldn't feel like dating them (as like any human would do with irl people)

🦢 : I would always make those sounds (like the exciting ones) when I would see her make a little face when she gets a win (her smile is so cute I cant) and I would be like “FUCK STOP BEING SO CUTE ITS KILLING ME” and instant blushing constantly.

🦢 : I remember when I would find the saiki k character cute but I didn't have anything with him. I was mainly focusing on kokomi and teruhashi.

🦢 : I think this one is the biggest lesbian sign from me is looking. at. girls. Just their body, their part (their upper) or just their ass. Like I would always walk past and when I see a pretty girl (this happened YESTERDAY when walking to a store) and I looked at her quickly since her lovely perfume walked past, and went, “huuhooo” (whistle sound ik but it was a silent one).

She noticed me smiling but God.

Her perfume.

Just why. Are you. So cute.

And a bonus: 🦢 I nearly kissed my female best friend when she liked the same things as me. I literally hugged her when crying and almost kissed her when she had to go (yesterday ofc different girl)

(Splatoon 2 & 3 is a good game so please check it out and the anime saiki k !)

so this is my journey identifying as it.

And I still do.

Someone fr help me please

What are the signs someone is a lesbian

I need help please

How do you tell the difference between romantic and deep platonic feelings? Trying to figure stuff out.

Quoigender and wanting to cry from confusion and searching :,D

Bc like

I’m this most of the time (And it’s what I and all my friends call me by)

But I’m also sometimes feeling like 

But just a little tiny bit? 

And I’m also sometimes like

So I’m really confused if I’m this:

Or this: 

Or this: 

Or this.

And frankly I’m kinda losing my mind over it so I’m gonna try in vain to get some sleep and avoid this *collapses*

AYYY BRUDDERS ITS PRIDE OF THE MONTH TIME!!!!! >:D

(Sorry I’m busy rewatching the Fundy Maid stream lol XD) (It’s hilarious if any of you wanna watch it go ahead (swear warning))

Anyways uh

So Hi everyone! I’m Quail ^-^

Doing the 30 days of pride challenge :>

Anyways! 

(image from mainenglish.com)

 I don’t really know my pronouns rn I’m trying to figure them out, but right now I’m okay with anything, but He and They are coolio if you want to use those, but if you’d rather call me she thats fine

As far as labels go, I’m choosing between:

Demiboy,

Genderfluid, 

Or just Nonbinary. :>

Who knows? 

But all I know is 

I want to try wearing a binder

When I said to myself that I am a woman and can never change that it made me cry so uh not doing that again (I was hoping I was maybe faking it so I tried referring to myself with just she/her and saying things like that and I hated it,  but I just wanted to maybe see if I was comfortable with it so I could not go through with telling my mom who has already expressed that same statement of me now and always being a lady and then wouldn’t have to deal with all the craziness of friends leaving me after I someday come out and I’m scared-)

When some close friends referred to me with They/Them it felt weird but not bad? And when a person accidentally called me sir I didn’t want to correct them because it gave me this huge rush of happiness that made me want to do the happy flappy hands? 

anyway :b

In terms of my sexuality, I’m either Demisexual, Greysexual or ace, 

and I might be Demiromantic, but I’m not sure ,:> 

I would rather be friends with someone and see how the relationship goes from there; if the feelings change, great! If they don’t, that’s great too :b 

With people, I’d rather date girls or nonbinary people, but I’d be open to a guy :>

So... Ye! For now, the labels I’m going with are: 

Genderqueer

Greysexual DemiOmniromantic

All pronouns

Happy pride month, everyone! Let’s make it the gayest month the cishets have ever seen >:3

How do you tell the difference between romantic and like aesthetic attraction or just the want for closeness. I think I might be aroace but…

Ive gotten nervous and giddy about people’s pretty smiles but with the one I dated it wore off entirely.

Ive had happy melty warm feelings about friends too.

Every feeling I had about my partner while in a romantic relationship felt no stronger then the hyperfixations I’ve had on characters in media.

I regularly imagine myself in romantic relationships with people but if I do too realistically I feel rlly uncomfy about it but mainly because I feel like it’s hard to make connections with anyone.

watching certain romantic shows n stuff I feel like I want what they have but at the end of the day it’s the intimacy I feel like I really want.

Basically I don’t know what I’m feeling and wanted to tell this out into the void and maybe delete. Who knows.

dear cishet people or parents who like to make the argument that kids shouldn’t explore gender or sexuality because “those are adult decisions”

you don’t gain the knowledge of the universe on your 18th birthday. you’re not a completely different person than you were the day before. kids and teenagers are people. they’re not just bumbling with idiocy and ignorance through life waiting for the I’ve been on this earth for about 6,570 days! moment where according to you, “they’re allowed to make that decision for themselves.” you all sound like dictators for one, and it’s damn embarrassing for two

Can't tell whether or not I am touch starved or bisexual making me a confused little a Ducky.

oops-

time for another gender crisis✨✨

𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞

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is it possible to be an alterhuman without knowing what animal you are?

is it possible to be an alterhuman without knowing what animal you spiritually identify with?

is it possible to be an alterhuman without knowing if you are one or not?

is it possible to be an alterhuman without knowing if it's just feels like a strong desire to not be human?

is it possible to be an alterhuman without knowing if what i am experiencing is shifts or just me trying to unconsciously convince myself i am one?

is it possible to be an alterhuman without knowing if you're faking or not?

is it possible to be an alterhuman without knowing ANYTHING ABOUT MYSELF AT ALL??! 😭😭

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(heyheyhey for my lauvers out there yk what song this is frommm 😌)

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what if my entire personality is actually a carefully constructed facade to make other people like me and to disguise the fact that I don't actually know who I am.

if I stripped away all the walls, all the artificial things that I think make me up,

what would be left?

what would happen if I stopped living for other people and started living for myself?

is there even a person in there or just a gaping void with nothing left in it?

wouldn't that be fucked up?

do I even know myself?

do I even have a real personality anymore?

*stands on my pedestal before the masses of followers*

Hello, all. It’s been a while since I’ve made one of my famous text posts, but I’m back with an announcement! I have been questioning being transfem for months, and as the final phase of that questioning I will be identifying as transfem on Tumblr to see if it feels right. I’ve never said my name before, but on Tumblr it will now be Amber. I will be changing my pronouns to she/her.

Still cis tho.