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So Puki. What you're saying. Is that Sim covers of songs. Are the true judge of quality.

Puki give us an unpopular music opinion

This is more a fact you have to accept rather than an opinion but lyrics don't matter in music. Vocals matter though, the rhythmic, tonal and melodic contents of a voice does, as an instrument, but the writing in a song doesn't make a song better or worse. If you judge a song off of its musical merits (not emotional merit) and you mention the lyrics making a bad song better, you're wrong.

I was gonna scroll past. Cause I thought "lol yep that's me". But then I thought about who I'm in therapy because of. And who she needs therapy because of. And what person might have caused him to need therapy.

This isn't a lol, move on statement . This is a cycle told through generations of trauma. Not as often do people need therapy for a reason other than other people. There are absolutely real and valid exceptions, but other people is a big factor on our mental health.

Humans are social creatures. If we are undersocialized, poorly socialized, or abused by our society, we become broken and hurt creatures.

I'm sorry if you are a broken and hurt creature like I am. I know it hurts. The best you can hope for is healing and making sure not to hurt anyone else. Break this cycle.

One of my therapist once told me “people go to therapy to learn how to deal with people that need therapy”

This is true.

the suffering never ends

windows 10 is garbage so every time i boot up the computer i have to run command prompt and enter

net.exe stop “Windows Search”

so that the shitty goddamned search/cortana feature that i never fucking use stops running in the background taking up all my fucking disk space

And healing is so fucking hard because you find out every thought, every habit, every fear, and every personality trait is just another trauma response. What am I? What is actually me and not my trauma?

I want you all to know that healing is fucking hard. And it sucks. But it's worth it. It's so worth it. Your struggles while healing are SO valid. And your attempts to heal are still impressive and amazing.

Keep trying. Keep fighting. Keep going.

C-PTSD (especially child abuse victims) culture is when others say a bad event changes people, you can’t help but think about how there was never anything to change from. You never knew yourself before your trauma. Trauma didn’t just change who you were, it shaped who you became from day one; it hurts, but the only thing you can do is grieve the person you never got to be because of it.

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I'm not finding it on discord. Could you give us an invite link?

Do you have any resources for finding plural communities?

on Discord, we find most of our plural servers through Multiplicity Database. And I'm pretty sure the link for that is on Disboard.

there's also r/plural on Reddit, and a few other plural subreddits

other than that, I'm not really sure, sorry!

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"the trauma made you kind" fuck that. no. i am kind because i cannot allow anyone to go through what i did. i am soft because i chose to be.

I just wanna be scary

alternative clothing stores that aren’t dollskill or kill star (PLUS SIZE FRIENDLY)

Trash Queen (great plus size clothes AND cool accessories)

Sourpuss Clothes (great plus size dresses)

Rebels Market (not super plus size friendly, but do have sizes up to 2XL, great accessories and shoes though)

Tragic Beautiful (sizes up to 4XL, beware some Killstar stuff is sold on there)

Unique Vintage (many many plus size options, perfect for 50s inspired goth/punk looks)

Unif Clothing (not super plus size friendly but they do have L and XL, great shoes and accessories though)

Angry Young and Poor (punk-ish clothes, good plus size options)

Yesstyle (terrible/nonexistent plus size options but amazing Korean/Japanese beauty products and amazing lolita wigs)

BlackMeoww (clothes up to 3XL, great accessories)

Punk Rave (plus size options vary)

Disturbia (British company with sizes going up to American size 16, i think?)

Berserk (Australian company. decent plus size options, as well as accessories and beauty products)

Creepy Co (horror/creepy themed shirts and buttons with a good diversity of sizes)

Kreepsville 666 (sizes usually go up to 3X, and great accessories)

Gloomth (incredible gothic/lolita/weirdgirl fashion that runs up to 5XL, but I bet you can ask Taeden (owner) to custom make to your sizes. I have 3 gloomth dresses that I wear ALL THE TIME. totally worth their price.)

Kinky Angel (yes this is intended to be ~sexy kinky clothes~ but we all know that aesthetic intersects with alt/goth aesthetic a LOT. sizes go up to 4X)

Devil Inspired  (the clothes aren’t plus size friendly but the accessories and shoes are so delicious it’s worth a look)

Atomic Cherry (good plus size options!)

In Control Clothing (plus size kawaii clothes)

NastyGem (no clothes but reasonably priced alt accessories)

Also Threadless has good dark tees!

Also Etsy has amazing alt-clothing vendors that do custom sizes and cater to plus size people!

Also let me know if you’ve heard bad things about any of these websites, I will reblog with corrections! Feel free to add any you know of as well!

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A quick and dirty DID reference

A very special person to us is trying his hardest to understand us and how we relate to each other. Sometimes it is so hard to explain with words so I decided to make these visual aids for him and anyone else who might be going through the same.

Imagine it like a cone, the white being the highest point of awareness and the black being the lowest. Some of us stay higher and some lower. Sometimes we move freely between the areas but sometimes we can’t control it.

We are not always fully in a certain area, sometimes we are between. Occasionally we do something we think of as merging or blurring. We kind of fade into each other and become something between, taking on attributes of both. This often leaves us feeling like we aren’t completely sure who we are.

We all have different relationships with each other. Some of us get along great and hang out a lot, some of us don’t get along. Some of us don’t like socializing at all and avoid people. The relationships can be platonic, romantic, volatile, or like family, it all depends. 

I am the nervous part of my system.

- Gideon

In today's episode of My Life is Weird:

I just came out as aromantic to both my boyfriends. Over the pulycule group chat.

They haven't responded yet. We'll see where this goes.

- Gideon

Time to update our system count!

Fuck.

We're the Abstracted Prophet System!

System moots

Hey my dash is like so dead and I really wanna make some system mutuals/friends so rb this if > Your a system > You have DID/OSDD > Your 15+ > You have other mental illnesses > You have autism/ADHD > Your fictive heavy > Your not fictive heavy

I just found out that a child being happy means the universe is doing a good job.

This kind of perspective makes children seem much more sweet.

But it makes my childhood just that much worse in comparison.

Don't question me - Gideon

i’m putting together a little list of the short creative writing i’ve written for tumblr. so far i’ve got: april fool’s door saga, Don’t Touch The Pink Stuff, clown meat deli dream, tupperware dream, grinch x tony the tiger fic, scuba horror story, cabin in the words horror story, atheist afterlife, Arcady the Vampire, and my tip jar if you enjoy my writing and want more. am i forgetting anything?

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Recognizing Abuse Masterlist

Signs that you’re living in abuse:

Behavioral patterns of living in abuse

Was I abused? Checklist

Not knowing you are a victim

Signs your family is abusive

Making excuses for your abusive parents

Experience of living in secrecy

What they taught you was abuse

Emotional experiences of living in abuse

Shame and guilt: how abused children feel

What makes parents abusers (actions)

Have I been manipulated into believing abuse was my fault? Checklist

Am I being held hostage by abusers? Checklist

You are not allowed to mention the past

Why you still love abusive parents

Parental behaviour that isn’t normal

Shit parents aren’t supposed to say to you

Experience of “not belonging anywhere”

Red flags for abusive parents

Healthy vs Abusive Chores

Was my childhood abusive or just had some bad parts?

Rules always change (unpredictable environment is abusive)

Breakdown of abusive parent’s behaviour:

“This is my house” rule

Start living in the real life!

Why all the children aren’t abused equally in an abusive home

Common abuser hypocrisies

Do your parents want you to be happy or look happy?

Why do they try to convince you that you’re worthless

Why do they pretend you’re a burden? Controlling behaviour

Why your abusers are not good people

Abusive parents are keeping you in false hope they’ll change

Are your parents preventing you from succeeding?

Abusive parents pretending “it wasn’t that bad”

Double Bind (why every choice you make ends wrong)

Incorporating trauma in raising children

Abusers will not allow you to call them out on abuse

Signs your parents are narcissistic:

Stuff delusional narcissists say

Shit narcissistis parents say

Recognizing emotional immaturity of narcissistic parents

Examples of narcissistic behaviours

Being punished for growing up by narcissistic parents

What children of narcissists go thru

Signs you’ve been thru sexual abuse:

CSA (Childhood Sexual Abuse) Symptoms

Signs you might have endured CSA

Was I sexually abused by adults as a child? Checklist

Signs of abusive friendship/relationship:

How to tell if a friend is not a friend

Am I in an abusive relationship/friendship? Checklist

Manufacturing insecurities

Red flags for abusers

Have I been thru social abuse? Checklist

You can recognize abusers by how they make you feel

How abusive childhood teaches you to stay in abusive relationships

Recognizing abusive friendship

Signs you’re struggling with trauma

Trauma processing information

Experiences of traumatized children

Signs you’re recovering from long term abuse

Things abuse survivors think/say

Thoughts of victims of child abuse

Your brain on trauma

How long term childhood abuse develops into complex trauma (comic)

Ups and downs of trauma

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Dismantling the Lies of Abusive Parents Masterlist

Resources

Giving you food and clothing is the bare minimum

You don’t owe gratitude for food and clothes you needed as a child

You had the right for basic resources

Parents shaming you for costing money is ironic and stupid

What it means when they say ‘This is MY house’

My house = my rules is blackmail

Children don’t owe absolute obedience for being fed and sheltered

Physical abuse

You are allowed to refuse any touch, not only violence

If they ‘don’t know they’re hurting you’, why do they ignore or punish you when you protest?

Hitting children is irrational and doesn’t work

You cannot ‘provoke’ your parents to abuse you if they’re not abusive

Why do parents actually hit, manipulate and traumatize children

Blatant Lies

Care, nurture and affection do not make you weak

They’re lying when they say it ‘wasn’t that bad’‘

You wouldn’t have grown up spoiled if not for abuse

You got too affected by it’ is a lie

Your parents are not ‘just too emotionally immature’ to understand abuse

‘You’re not living in the real world!’ is nonsense

You’re not worthless, a burden, ungrateful, or stupid, and your parents know that.

Constant undermining of your accomplishments is abuse

Not being allowed to talk about the past is symptom of abuse

Parents who want you to be happy vs look happy

You are not abusive for resisting abuse

When they claim ‘they didn’t mean it’, it’s still abuse

Your parents are responsible for their own actions regardless of how badly they try to shift blame on you

Psychological abuse

Blind Obedience is not required in a healthy upbringing

Disgust is a weapon abusive parents use on their kids

If they say they love you, but walk all over your feelings, they don’t 

Parents don’t have the right to enter your room to scream at you

Parents insisting for you to be ‘tough’ are doing it to hide the trauma

Even if a kid acts like ‘they can take it’, it’s still abuse

Pretending abuse is discipline will leave children permanently scarred

It’s inhumane to control and shame children’s reactions to abuse

Why don’t you already know this? vs Teaching you necessary skills

Acting like they’ll change is escape sabotage

Parents are responsible for protecting children from harm

References to how healthy parenting looks like

Not being allowed to be angry with your parents is psychological abuse

If parents want you to act way you did when you were little, they’re dangerous

Threats about how hard your life will be later on, are bad for you

Lack of continuity and ever-changing rules will cause anxiety

Forced obedience will lead you to abusive relationships

Parents acting like you’re a ‘bad’ is a shame tactic to control you

There’s healthy and abusive ways to give children chores

Revisioning the past and insisting you remember it wrong is gaslighting

If your parents make you suicidal, they’re abusive

Parents threatening ‘they could be worse’ is abuse

Always assuming the worst intentions for your actions is wrong

Keeping children hostage in abuse is torture

If this hits home, also read Recognizing Abuse Masterlist

We have both a five and a Karl Heisenberg fictive. When I tell you the LOOK of "Did you really say that?" on Karl's face would kill a lesser man. - Gideon

My canon for Heisenberg is that he's taller than Ethan, but this fits too fucking well 😂

we had our student wellness seminar today and there was a brief session about how to be more focused and excel at studies. So I took down a few points and I hope this helps<3

Effective and consistent study helps you to show what you know and avoid excessive test stress.

Identify 1 topic per week to teach someone else. Keep sessions under 40 minutes and include a few minutes for review.

Create practice tests with true/false, fill in and multiple–choice questions covering each lecture or text chapter.

Record the date you complete each assignment and take a quiz about the concepts and problems you completed.

Test yourself by writing summaries, facts, examples or diagrams without looking at notes or text.

When studying, first take an untimed practice test provided by the instructor or in chapters of the text.

Schedule time to reread chapter introductions, summaries, vocabulary lists and illustrations prior to tests.

Separate parts of the course that require memorization of facts versus analysis of concepts or problem solving.

Limit your efforts to memorize tedious facts and formulae to 25–minute periods so that you stay alert and effective.

Use sketches and diagrams to specify the process and tasks needed to complete a long–term project.

Stop interruptions by alerting others about the times you are unavailable because you are studying.

If you can’t study in total quiet, use a form of white noise such as a fan or soft music.

Get at least 7 hours of sleep to give you the mental and physical energy needed to concentrate in lectures and when reading.

Increase your ability to focus if you are upset. Take 5 minutes to write concerns or questions. Then shift into a work mode.

Give yourself a high five after a session in which you focus and learn. Recognize and reward yourself for a job well done.

Keep your eyes closed and switch scenes. Imagine a situation in which you had an academic success. Congratulate yourself for a job well done.

Increase the amount of information you remember after studying - review information within 24 to 48 hours.

yeah that was it. i found it vaguely interesting that my school is actually caring about us but anyway here you. hope this helps and hope we both get good grades :)

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Types of Protectors

Executive/Primary Protector

Oversee general/all system safety matters

Their views and decisions about system safety carry the most weight - their word is final

(Usually) in systems with several protectors - serves an organisational purpose

Tend to be more active than other protectors

Carer/Caregiver

Focus on caring for other system members and the body (emotional & physical well-being)

E.g. hygiene, body health, taking a break when needed, emotional support & care, healthy coping mechanisms

Can be caring for a group of alters, a specific alter, or everyone and anyone in system

(Carers who take care of specifically littles, for example)

Soother

Help calm down emotions when they are overwhelming (e.g. anxiety, panic)

Can either be by supporting an alter internally, getting them to use methods to calm themselves down, or, in some cases, simply the presence of a soother helps dial down emotions

Social Protector

Handle social situations that are considered unsafe by an alter or the system generally

This can be a specific event (parties, going out with friends) or something more longterm (issues between people in a social group - friends, school, work, clubs, online communities ...)

Sexual Protector

Set (sexual) boundaries when others in system find it difficult to

Make sure sexual relations/interactions remain healthy & safe

Can also sometimes take over when whoever's fronting can't handle something sexual

Avenger

Hold anger or/and hatred towards abusers and others who hurt the system

Are often unafraid of putting their foot down when need be

Perse-Protector

Fulfill both the persecutor/prosecutor and also the protector role

Aim to protect the system, which they do successfully to an extent, however sometimes they persecute out of misguidance/misunderstanding

Believe the persecution they do is in order to keep the system safe

Oftentimes, recovering persecutors are a perse-prot at some point (not always though!)

Protectors can fit several subtypes, or none at all! Every system is unique and requires unique roles and alters to fulfill them.

(This is just the ones we're aware of, and definitions can vary slightly. Feel free to add other types or definitions! :))

The train won the snowball fight.

Amtrak + Snow + People = ･ﾟﾟ･o（ｉДｉ）o･ﾟﾟ･｡

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Gaslighting creates brain fog. We learn to distrust ourselves and our intuition. Eventually we don’t even know what we want, what we need. This is why emotional abuse is called “soul murder”. Without the ability to think clearly, we lose problem solving capabilities. Our “functioning” decreases more and more over time. Then as you dissolve into a puddle of mud before the eyes of the abuser, they shame you for that! “Look at you - you’re so lazy/defective/weak.” While they were the ones that robbed you of your life force ! Take it back! TAKE IT BACK!!

Stay safe out there, guys. And make sure others are safe too.

Saw this on my Twitter feed and thought this was so important. If you, or someone you know is fighting this battle, know you are not alone. You matter, your life matters. Take it a day at a time but please keep fighting because YOU ARE IMPORTANT, more importantly you are LOVED.

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