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Journal 1 - 4/14/2021

Today is a cold day in my small city of Colorado although it is technically supposed to be Spring now. Colorado really do be bipolar with the weather (it was 80 degrees just the other day). I feel blessed by the cold weather, it reminds me to take care of myself by staying inside when I am not doing well.

Recently I have been fighting to get through a cold that hit me like a truck. I have been working towards getting healthier and fit. I don't know if maybe my body just can't handle the newer, healthier food and the amount of exercise I am trying to achieve but it seems like every time I attempt to push myself and have a really heavy workout I seem to wake up the next day feeling absolutely awful. This is the second time I've had a cold this month and both have started up right after a hearty night of working out at the gym.

On Monday I was able to sleep throughout the day to get my strength back and I'm starting to feel better today. I don't know, maybe I'm dumb, but I'm going to the gym once more tonight to see what happens. I won't do a lot but just to have a little more exercise in the day to get me back on my feet. If I wake up in the morning with another sore throat then I know there's something really funky going on with me.

Today's Tarot Card:

I used my Fairy Deck illustrated by Howard David Johnson and pulled 3 of Summer. The card features three fairies dancing and having a good time in a stream with bushes of red flowers and summer trees surrounding them. The card reads: 'News worth celebrating! Announcements such as weddings, graduations, or births. Friends you cherish.' So maybe my worrying about my health is all in vain or there may be simple answers to my ailments that I may be overlooking. Hope all will go well.

Journal 3 - 5/14-19/2021

I've been a little hectic inside my mind and it's been seeping into my daily activities. The few days that I took to myself has brought me a little more understanding about what has been going on around me. It started when I had this crazy dream about taking a journey and at the end I was given red roses and other plants that seemed unreal. There was one that looked like a small tree with purple blossoms but the white/ grey trunk had the face of a wizard-looking man carved into it.

A day after this I had pulled a Tarot Card from my Fairy Deck which was of the major arcana; 18 The Moon which. It read: "Powerful intuitive epiphanies. Letting go of worry and fear. Understanding the truth of a situation." I found that this card spoke to me by helping me realize that my dreams are telling me something big and powerful that may come into my life and that I must be wary of unfortunate events that may be brought on by poor decision making.

I have been through an awful depression this entire week and I have just found myself climbing out of it feeling hardly alive. I hope that by tomorrow I will be able to get on with my daily activities despite work and the people around me that bring negativity...

I wanted to talk about this phenomenon but I’ve been having trouble focusing. Sorry to keep this short~ I hope to come back with more interesting topics for my next journal when I’m feeling a little better.

Status Update: I do have some good content planned in the next few weeks, I'm just struggling to find the time to sit down and do it without having a mental breakdown. I've been really tight on money and my coworkers seem to hate me no matter what I do. I'm just kinda floating right now. I'll be leaving for a two week vacation at the end of the month luckily so I hope it'll be enough to get me back on my feet again.

Never would I ever wish anything bad on anyone, but the way things are going at work… makes me want to lose hope and quit everything. I know full and well that it is never the answer to the problem and something needs to be done. It just takes one step forward and no matter how hard the wind wants to push you back, you stand your ground to keep putting one foot ahead. (I wrote this while at work, thought I would add something for a little more context. I'm alright guys!)

Journal 4 - 6/20/2021

Card Pull of the Day:

(Fairy Tarot Card Deck by Doreen Virtue) Major Arcana 3 - The Empress. This card reads, "Time to take action! The power of creativity. Success that allows for life of luxury."

I feel like after this past couple of weeks that I am finally getting back on my feet again. I haven't been late for work for a few days (which is surprising). Lately I've been feeling a little "reawakened" and it's like being able to see things in a different light than what I'm used to. Something's changed and it feels like for the better.

I've recently picked up a second job that I will be doing on one of my days off from my normal job. Something to help me on along in saving money for a new place to live. I'm hoping to move in by the end of August. It's a little more expensive but honestly it's better than where I currently live. Lately my dreams have been a little unnerving and I suspect it's from stress. I'm waiting patiently for my vacation here in a week and a half. So many experiences I'm going to encounter ^_^.

Journal 5 - 7/20/2021

Personal Updates and More

I am going to be really honest and say that I didn't think I would ever get over 100 followers! Thank you all so much for following! It really means a lot to me especially with what I have been going through for the past few months. You are all super fun and I love being able to feel welcome in such a compassionate community of witches and solitary practitioners alike. The energies that I feel when I'm here make me so inspired and motivated to keep learning more in all areas of magick, self care practices, and meditation. I admit I still have a long journey ahead of me but it's all going to make sense in the end.

A few updates: I didn't know that I would get so many requests for my free 3-card tarot readings! It's so wonderful! I'm a little backed up and have to put aside some time after work to complete them one at a time. I use a large amount of energy focusing on these readings and like to keep things detailed and worth while. I know that this process is very time consuming, but I love trying my best to read and interpret the cards to the best of my ability and I feel like the questioner deserves a legitimate response.

I also may be starting a new job soon! Somewhere where I won't be so stressed out and can finally be happy doing what I love doing. The hours won't be so hard on me either.

Moving has been quite a pain in such a short amount of time and I think the main thing I'm having trouble with getting past is finding where everything can go and try not to get bit by any spiders that may now be lurking around my boxes... I tried reaching for some face toner after washing my face and there was a giant, hairy spider hiding in the corner of my bathroom drawer... Not something I wanted to go to bed to...

Anyway, that's really all for now! Once again, if any of you are waiting on a tarot reading please be patient! The spirits and the cards will reveal what they want to reveal and sometimes it takes me quite a while to interpret them decently. Again, if you want a tarot reading please be very specific about your situation and share with me some personal attributes like your star signs and elementals. It's hard for me to get a read specifically for you if you just ask a question. This is the internet and unfortunately I have no way of really speaking face to face to get to know any of you. Thank you so much for your guys' time!

Thank you all you beautiful creatures on here!

RaveMey

Thank you guys so much for helping me reach 300 followers!!! I don’t think I’ve ever had this many followers in any social media I’ve ever had. I’m so overjoyed it’s so hard to contain 🤩🥳

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Journal 6 - 7/27/2021

I think in the next couple of months I'm finally going to be seeing some change in my behaviour and hopefully very positive change in my work life. A manager I worked with who made me feel like I didn't have the potential to do anything with my life and who had been dating a coworker (which everyone knows is not allowed) for nearly 4 years has finally been fired from his position and I'm hoping that the coworker will follow after him. They both made working absolute hell for me and my other coworkers who had luck in finding different jobs. They have even stated to my boss the exact reason they decided to leave and because my boss is a paranoid, pigheaded, stubborn, and selfish person he straight up told them that they didn't know what they were talking about and that leaving was a mistake while laughing at their decision to leave.

Unfortunately I was never the one who reported on him, but for a long time he believed that I was the one who called ethics and would harass me about it when he got me alone anywhere at work.

I don't want to go too far into it but now that all that stuff is over, I feel like I'm going to be having a much better time working and I pray that the new manager that's picked will be someone with higher expectations and has trust in their employees. I only worked in this position for a year and four months now but just working under that specific manager made me want to completely give up on anything that I believed in. I'm still hoping I will be getting this different job though, as it does pay more and I believe that they are much better on their employees, I feel like starting over and just want a fresh start. Make new friends, have better people to work with and no more scum bags.

That's all for now on updates in my personal life. I really just wanted to get that off of my chest because now I feel like I'll actually have the energy to get back into things I love without feeling like absolute trash after working all day long to please absolutely nobody. I'll be back later tonight~ Now is time for some errands and chores. (And maybe an energy drink to get me going *wink* - - *whispers * my fiancé doesn’t want me to drink them but I want to soooo)

Journal 7 - 8/17/2021

So although I have been sick for the last few days, I'm starting to come back slowly. I don't need to stay in bed all day anymore luckily and I'm back on my feet. My coughing still needs to be worked on so I'm hoping the Robitussin takes care of that officially. Today's my last day off from work and I hope to get some stuff planned and taken care of today despite my exhaustion still. (I know I should still rest but my mind is awake and I cannot take another day of doing nothing... it actually annoys the heck out of me.)

Anyway, things have been looking up for me lately, I have a new job that I will be starting soon in September~ I'm hoping this will be a much more positive work environment and won't be completely draining all the time. I'll still be doing the same thing but the new environment has been something I've been after. There are some people in my current work environment that have a vendetta against me for no reason and I can't even reason with them because I don't know what they're mad about. It's grown into such an awful, hateful work atmosphere... And you know it's bad when even in my fever dreams, it's about my hateful coworkers... It's literally driving me to madness. It's funny because I used to get along with everyone perfectly fine, I literally don't know what happened.

Lately I've been planning some extra content, reading up on some books, studying up, trying to come up with a "curriculum" (not quite sure what to call it) for all of you. I feel like I've really been falling flat on my face lately and I apologize... Life is difficult for me right now financially and mentally. I have all these ideas and don't quite know what to do with them yet unfortunately but it'll come to me, I promise.

Stay Blessed,

RaveMey

Well… I got my test results in… tested positive for Covid… 😭😭😭

Journal 9 - 9/29/2021

It's another journal entry time!~ (You guys probably don't like them but I have an important announcement to make.)

Tarot Readings lately have been feeling very repetitive and some I feel like are straight up spam. I've made new requirements for Card Reading submissions here-> https://ravemey.tumblr.com/post/655481934013710336/free-1-card-tarot-readings

Please read through the entire post before submitting a question for Card Readings. Anything that does not meet my requirements will be deleted. I made these rules because there are just too many simple, anonymous questions and it's making it harder for me to get to the legitimate questions and situations some are wishing to be answered. Sorry for any inconvenience.

In other news, I have been slowly catching up on bills and have been in "work only and no play" mode and will most likely be like this throughout most of the month of October unfortunately. I'll try my best to post a little more and see where it takes me. I thank you all for the support and I'm so happy that my blog here has become so big (whether it means anything or not).

I also wanted to make a group chat here for devotional followers of witchcraft, but seeing that Tumblr took away group chats altogether I may have to find some way else to create a chat for everyone.(I’m considering Discord… but unfortunately, since I live under a rock, I don’t know how it works and get too confused on the platform)…

I hope you all have a wonderful end of September and I hope to celebrate Samhain with you all!

Status Update: Going on small hiatus. Been having trouble mentally and have been too exhausted to keep track of things unfortunately. If you had a time sensitive tarot reading submission please let me know and I can get a newer reading going for you in the near future. Thank you guys for your patience, just need to do a little soul searching for now and hopefully come out of this hole I’ve dug.

Been feeling like running off into the woods for a week to self reflect… just wish I had the time to go

Quick update: I wanted to post something for the upcoming full moon this week but unfortunately my internet is out due to a wind storm yesterday and won’t be fixed until Saturday. So I’m hoping to get a nice ritual started for Yule 🎄✨

Edit: postponing until Tuesday 12/28/21

Well it was bound to happen… two coworkers down sick and fiancé just getting over a ghastly cough… now I’ve got it 🤧🤒😷😭

I will be implementing this and will be sifting through all my followers. If you are not a bot and love my blog please change your profile picture and name yourself here on tumblr with a name that’s not like “sexyvixon” because those accounts will be blocked as well for obvious reasons. I will sift back through my blocked list every now and then and unblock if you do so.

If you’re a real human person still using the default tumblr avatar, consider changing it.

why should you change it?

When you guys pop up in our notifications, most seasoned tumblr users will suspect you’re a bot and block on sight.

why do we block immediately?

tumblr has a history of bots trying to infiltrate and establish a connection to a valid, existing blog in order to populate google searches. Simply liking or reblogging a post, not just adding a scam link to it, establishes this connection. Tumblr users don’t want this to happen, especially if it’s a scammy p*rn bot. So, we often block on sight.

So now I have to reblog stuff AND change my pfp?

Well, of course that’s up to you! I just want to explain why you may have been already blocked by an artist/blogger you may have discovered recently, and how you can avoid it in the future.

Reblogging does help creators more than likes because your reblogs will show up on the dash of those that may follow you. Plus, reblogging puts that post on your own blog, and in case the original gets deleted or edited by the OP, it’ll be on your blog like that–forever (or until you delete your blog). Nice.

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Journal 12 - 4/5/22

So I am officially moved out from one temporary home to another temporary. I'm horrendously exhausted from the amount of work but I'm done. Just have to focus on work, relax on a couple of weekends to get settled initially and think of ways to get out of this block I have going on. Today I came across a new Tarot deck and have been thinking about using it all day. The artwork is lovely and reflects my softer side, filling each card with pastels and simple but beautiful artwork.

On the other hand, this move has been affecting me mentally and I have been struggling to keep myself afloat and try to get through the day without having a breakdown. I can't help but think to myself, "This isn't a home for me... I don't come back every day to a home but someone else's livelihood..." and I can't help but feel like a nuisance. I feel trapped, I feel claustrophobic. I have a system to my chaos and I cannot unleash who I am in this place. I don't know how long I will be here nor do I know where I will end up in the future, but it's pulling me farther and farther from the things and people I love. I just want to go away for a while and do something different. Alone. By myself. No distractions. I never achieve that normalcy and I no longer expect to have it anymore. It's like I'm not allowed that luxury and it's truly frustrating.

Anyway, enough of my complaining, I will be here still, just need to get my feet back on the ground and figure out a game plan. Relax (which is difficult all in itself when it shouldn't be) and get some sleep (which is also almost impossible). This was my rant, I hope all a good day and bless those who are struggling as well. May we all have a pleasant sleep tonight.

Having quite a bit of trouble at work this week. Needing some good energy right now 😔😔

I’ve been a little busy with some things but I have some good posts I’ve been wanting to create in the last week and a half~ stay tuned

Journal 13 - 7/08/2022

This is going to be a long one, so stick with me here.

So my move in has been a success, need furniture, but I have a place to stay and that's what matters. I'm hoping that this will be a semi permanent solution for me to go back to school and grow in a better setting. The problem now is the negativity following me after finally getting out of the situation I was placed in.

I was previously in an environment with constant negative energy due to a friend going through a hard time because he was recently divorced. Me and my fiancé did our best to be there for him but he would not take our advice, made us out to be the bad guys saying that we weren't real friends, and was expecting us to put him before ourselves which caused a rift in our friendship unfortunately. We've tried to get him to seek help but he claims friends are all he needs but really he was expecting us to be his personal therapists, which isn't fair to me or my fiancé. We had no time to ourselves and whenever we did the friend would get mad that we weren't talking to him or inviting him to places that were meant for only me and my fiancé. I tried to include him in activities with other people and because he wasn't the center of attention he had a meltdown and blamed us for everything. It continued to get worse when he began posting everything to social media expecting to get a rise out of me or my fiancé even posting pictures of self harm (which I then reported).Long story short, right after we moved out due to the stress that he was putting on us, our friend then became more aggressive the more we refused to say anything about the posts and claimed that we were ignoring him and that he was going to take us to small claims court over rent money but we never signed anything for an official lease. Lastly, he stated that he was going to commit suicide due to us... THIS IS NOT OKAY.

I'm saying all this to present awareness that there are people out there that you simply cannot continuously entertain because it is detrimental to you as a person. Having someone else's crushing depression and self-injury guilt put on your shoulders every day is not okay. If you, your friend or family member are showing obvious signs of depression and increasingly negative thoughts, please call for welfare checks and refer them to the Suicide Prevention Lifeline 800-273-8255 if possible.

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