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This is me in every single english class
do NOT talk to me i am busy having unrealistic gay daydreams
I think my favorite thing at the moment is that despite the fact i cannot sleep all i can think about is how much i want to do my hair find somone to help me with make up because i have no clue how to do that find a long flowy gown and put on my tiara. I just really want to feel pretty des9the fact it is 1:30 in the morning. Who am i kidding i want to feel pretty all the time i just dont have the cloths or skills to do it in a meaningful way. One thing i love is that even as i get older im holding onto my favorite childhood things in different ways.
I used to love to be in charge of how we would play pretend . Now i offten volunteer for my local drama groups acting as what evers need as well as often being the stage manager or assistant stage manager. I get to be part of puting the stories i love together making them work and flow. Actors make a show good actors make a good show good tech make a great show. I get to see so much through my little window and see how we got there
Dressing up now is more than just fabric wrapped around me or one of my younger cousins who are figiting as i help them tuck the fabric do it doesnt fall out now its me looking at my cloths what i have around my room an dsaying what will make me feel good. What will make me feel happy. Sometimes its even me looking at a stack of fabric i have near by and saying yes i can make something permanent and that will make me happy out of that. I can buy or ask for little peices if jewelry that arnt costume jewelry thats actully what i imagined when i was a child. Heck now i have a tiara because hell yeah i love being uber femine i like wearing my tiara with my leather jacket and a sundress it makes me feel like me.
When i draw and paint now its not just inside someone else's imagination its feom mine. There are no wrong ways of drawing it if i want to picture medusa as he most hideous thing i can imagine like the myth so be it, if i want to draw her how modern media often still portrays her as i can do that to.
Reading now is the same as what it used to be but i have found new worlds; worlds of my own creation . That no one else has seen before. Its a little selfish of me sometimes holding so many worlds and not sharing them. But then i rember i am working to either thriugh d&d or writing im sharing thousands of the thoughts i have every day
My point is you can do things you loved as a child even as you get older.
i will never be a morning person, for the moon and i are much too in love
She was a dreamer, in night and day.
Imagining and daydreaming once the sun would rise and play.
And when the day was done she would close her eyes and bid her real world goodbye for the day.
Dreams so vivid she could swear it was real, because of all she could feel.
She could do anything she wished, like fly in the air without any cares.
Forming relationships between the characters and residents of her mind.
Though when it came her time to wake she couldn’t say goodbye, for it was too late.
She’d remember these dreams all too well, and as she wished for it to be real her eyes would start to well up with tears.
It was a vicious cycle of missing those who weren’t real.
She dreamed and dreamed.
And I have a secret.
That girl is me.
a poem for the weeping piano and the waining moon
the piano sung the first key
inviting the moon to join in harmony
and together they created a beautiful song
with wonder in all alchemy
spectators of the song ran to tell
stories of the magic created
between the weeping piano
and the waining moon
they say the song healed all those who were sick
and cheered the low
oh how the childen rejoiced
and the dancers sprung with bliss
the poets went to write
about the beauty abound that night
and both the art and the artists
will always be mused
by the duet between the weeping piano
and the waning moon
are you a peach or cherry person ? ice coffee or ice tea ? sleeping in or waking up early ? lipstick or lipgloss person ? daydreamer or planner ?
i don’t want a job i want to read good books and drink good coffee and get kissed on the neck
i think daydreaming is a fundamental piece of me.
I think it’s been built in from the very start. As a young girl I recall dressing as hermione on primary school casual clothes day… or spending hours finding the right desktop background.
I remember dancing in a costume along with barbie… or drawing my favourite characters and naming my stuffed animals after them. And when I was young I was so in awe of the movie shark boy and lava girl (when this movie was new), that I’d go outside to my swing-set, and swing for hours with the late afternoon sun burning through my eyelids… and I’d daydream that on the other side of them it was the glow from lava girl’s world.
Forever I’ve inserted myself into the worlds of the fiction I love. And now as an adult, I still do this. Every day I’ve got a playlist on picturing myself in other worlds and times and as someone different.
And this makes me wonder.
I love daydreaming. It’s my happy place and I miss dreaming of things I’m not fixated on anymore. But why am I always trying to be somewhere else? Why am I always trying to be someone else? I’ve had years to be happy with who I am and what I’ve got, but does me still being a daydreamer undermine this?
I haven’t got an answer to any of these questions. But I think I’ll always in some way be a daydreamer…
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This chapter tackles subjects that can be sensitive to some readers, please do not interact if you are uncomfortable.
⚠️ Warning : depiction of depressive behavior and obsessive thoughts.
Read at your own risk. - Beaucoup d’amour, Poppy.
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❀ Pansy n°5 = Reality ? No, thanks…
When life feels too bland, one’s mind can do wonders to escape it.
It may seem unreal or fake to some people, but for some minds the easiest way to cope with a negative or stressful emotional state is to dive into one’s subconscious and imagination. The reason why is pretty simple. You are free to control everything and everyone in your own head. You are able to picture and make up every landscape, every environment with anyone you would want to be with.
You are free to give yourself a dream life while escaping the difficult truth of reality.
This “ability” can be considered a skill available to anyone willing to expand and develop their imagination. Personally, I have always considered myself to be quite creative and full of imagination, so being able to increase my capability of imagining things has been awfully thrilling through the years. My mind has always been triggered by music. Easily imagining or making up epic battles on action like songs, dance routines on classical music or simply fake scenarios on chill lofi beats.
I have so many different fake lives, it’s concerning… :/
But it is such a cathartic experience to insert yourself in your favorite universes, with your favorite characters. What’s even better is when you are so into your mind that you can feel things. With time, it happens to me more and more.
Sometimes the smell of freshly baked bread, but mostly the feeling of a warm embrace or lips softly brushing against one another…
That might be why I often have lucid dreams or why I believe in shifting. But those are pansies for another time.
Nevertheless, this dream-like ability can become dangerous to a certain extent. In fact, when the fake scenarios become an obsession, when day-dreaming becomes a daily occurrence, all in all, when all of it becomes too important… Then it becomes a problem. Then it is unhealthy.
Why does this amazing experience have to be so toxic ?
It is a way to cope, to feel good, to relieve stress - for once without the use of anything illegal 👀- but sadly it also disinterests you from reality. Some people can end up resenting even more their real life.
Come to think of it, that’s how addictions work, no ?
I am no one to tell you what to do if you relate to what I’m writing, neither am I judging anyone. Too often do I feel detached from reality because of my will to live in fantasies. It is something I want to work on - most of my pansies are about myself, my thoughts and based on my will to evolve.
So once again, I am no one to judge.
I am someone so obsessed with daydreaming that, when I am feeling down, it literally plagues my days. I only think about when I’ll have alone time to listen to music and continue the scenario where I left off. Or when I’ll be able to read self-insert fanfictions to drown even more in this shameful obsession of the unreal.
All of it fueled by the fear of reality and the tiredness of living.
Too often do I think I would like to eternally dream.
And that’s because I am conscious it has become this unhealthy obsession that I want to work on. I know that on the one hand, I like to make up scenarios because I would like to experience other environments/universes with other people. But on the other hand, I realized it is also because I can be whoever I want to be.
So lately - being in a good mindset - I am on a quest to better myself, to let myself discover who I am, who I want to be and most importantly to let myself take time to heal.
I know this won't be easy, that I won’t drastically stop to escape reality. But now I also know that to make this creative ability healthy, I have to try and find or even make a dream out of reality.
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