I Hope It Can Make You All Feel Good Too - Tumblr Posts
I think my favorite thing at the moment is that despite the fact i cannot sleep all i can think about is how much i want to do my hair find somone to help me with make up because i have no clue how to do that find a long flowy gown and put on my tiara. I just really want to feel pretty des9the fact it is 1:30 in the morning. Who am i kidding i want to feel pretty all the time i just dont have the cloths or skills to do it in a meaningful way. One thing i love is that even as i get older im holding onto my favorite childhood things in different ways.
I used to love to be in charge of how we would play pretend . Now i offten volunteer for my local drama groups acting as what evers need as well as often being the stage manager or assistant stage manager. I get to be part of puting the stories i love together making them work and flow. Actors make a show good actors make a good show good tech make a great show. I get to see so much through my little window and see how we got there
Dressing up now is more than just fabric wrapped around me or one of my younger cousins who are figiting as i help them tuck the fabric do it doesnt fall out now its me looking at my cloths what i have around my room an dsaying what will make me feel good. What will make me feel happy. Sometimes its even me looking at a stack of fabric i have near by and saying yes i can make something permanent and that will make me happy out of that. I can buy or ask for little peices if jewelry that arnt costume jewelry thats actully what i imagined when i was a child. Heck now i have a tiara because hell yeah i love being uber femine i like wearing my tiara with my leather jacket and a sundress it makes me feel like me.
When i draw and paint now its not just inside someone else's imagination its feom mine. There are no wrong ways of drawing it if i want to picture medusa as he most hideous thing i can imagine like the myth so be it, if i want to draw her how modern media often still portrays her as i can do that to.
Reading now is the same as what it used to be but i have found new worlds; worlds of my own creation . That no one else has seen before. Its a little selfish of me sometimes holding so many worlds and not sharing them. But then i rember i am working to either thriugh d&d or writing im sharing thousands of the thoughts i have every day
My point is you can do things you loved as a child even as you get older.