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WHY ARE SOME PEOPLE NATURALLY THIN WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER STARVATION AND NAUSEA WHILE OTHER PEOPLE ARE COMPLAINING THAT THEY HAVE A FAST METABOLISM

How abt we all just start acting like a cult so when another Youtuber does another deep dive on Ed tumblr they'll just be terrified how about we just call Ana our god and worship her and sacrifice our lifes to her just for the desire to be skinny and can we make a book abt that call the rise of the pro Ana nation

I don't wanna be a

I want to be

I will starve myself, idgaf about anyone or anything.

Skipping lunch and/or dinner feels sooo good

I can’t seem to be able to go under 48 kgs, i’m literally starving everyday… idk what to do

Metabolism days are so scary

@balletdollie i’ll answer you here because i have a problem with comments. “metabolism day” is a day where you eat more than your calorie deficit. That could be maintenance or more, just to not get ur body used to the deficit.

This was me at 46kgs omg i wanna go back

Almost worked out for an hour and I feel so tired. No one ever talks about the struggle there is to exercise when you have zero energy. Like I can’t even stand or walk properly, i’m terribly dizzy. But hey at least it means it’s working.

I love being a defiant little shit and listening to anti-ed songs while I do the exact thing it tells me not to

youre just a man 😒

im gonna fucking kill myself my best friend is moving back to jp

TW: sweetspo 🎀💕💋

You’ve been trying so hard for this and I know just how difficult it’s been but I promise it’ll be worth it okay? Just imagine a few months from now the look on peoples faces when you show up to school/ college/ work thinner with a glow up. Every bite you take delays that day more and more. Don’t give up with this no matter how badly you’re tempted to. I promise once those pounds are gone things will get so much easier 💕💕💕

only losing more from here 🙂‍↕️ running after every workout has changed the game omlll but also got a heater in my room so life changing right there 🙏🏻 and why tf do ppl try n get u to recover like NO MF I WANNA BE SKIN N BONES I DON'T WANNA LOOK HOW I USED TO LOOK. i swear mfs js wanna see u fat

ate some chipotle and i can't fucking throw it up fml. i keep trying but NOTHING. this js means i'm skipping dinner n drinking 0 cal energy drink smh

hiii my previous account got t-worded and i lost all my moots:(

my user was justprincessstuff and you might have seen some of my post like "i'd rather be skinny and depressed rather than fat and depressed" wether you used to know me or not, please do follow to be moots cus i miss you guys😭

as someone with an ed i subconsciously became so aware of other people's eating habits

i notice when they just push around their food around their plate or when they eat smaller portions than normal and wonder are they a picky eater or have an ed?

or when they go to the bathroom soon after a meal and i wonder are they throwing up or just have to use the bathroom?

and when they eat so much food in one sitting and i wonder are they just hungry and have a fast metabolism or did they binge eat?

and i feel so guilty all the time because one of the first things that always pops into my mind is that...

"i can't let them be better/thinner than me."

as much as a love visiting my sister's house, it's always so horrible because they always try to feed me😭

like i know it's their love language but goddammit it's my hate language or whatever cus i keep thinking they're trying to get me fat or something💀

no kidding they pile food onto my plate and get kinda offended if i can't finish

my sister keeps making backhanded comments about my eating habits and it's so annoying like bro it's not like i ever went "oh here comes our organic cutting board!!" everytime she enters a room🙄

im just trying to ignore her cus we'll see who's laughing when i get to my ugw...

idk why i try so hard to hide my ed at this point. i mean i still live with my family but im almost 20 and technically they can't force me into inpatient or smth.

the only thing stopping me is not wanting to further traumatise my younger siblings. they deserve a better sister than me.