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not even my mother views me as a priority maybe i am just a stupid little girl.
maybe i am a people pleaser i long to be loved by all and fear being hated however i never seem to get what i want.
that girl was in pain i went to who i thought could help ease it but they denied me they claimed that her peril could only be resolved if they sought the assistance themselves she could have died that day.
writers dating readers non-readers
i know that writers love the idea of dating a reader because having someone read what they write sounds beautiful and romantic, but i raise you this:
a writer dating a non-reader. the writer writing love letter upon love letter and them still. getting. read. their partner reading what they write because they love them - not because they love to read.
a pure and devoted kind of love.
without Him i am told that i am nothing perhaps being nothing would not be so bad.
unfixable i told him i was so i sat there and i told him that i was broken in an irreparable way for years i had avoided it but it was true something inside of me has been ruined and no amount of love could ever fix that he mourned the girl i could not be i know not how i deserved such love as someone so unworthy of it.
it was never my fault i hate to admit it but their mistreatment of me has nothing to do with who i am nor what i do it is not about me however this resolves nothing while i may not be the cause i must suffer through the symptoms.
i want nothing but beauty to spill onto this page yet i cannot. i am no brilliant writer i am merely a girl.
high marks are a whole other hunger.
tired eyes with a screaming mind.
no one believes
in a sickness
that they cannot see.
i offer my heart to the universe.
i feel jealous and not the good kind. maybe somewhere within myself there is a void i have not yet seen or touched but i hope i see it soon. i want to sit with it and improve my life more instead of letting it consume me the same way it consumes others.
I am not the best person, someone will always, ALWAYS, be better than me. And that is fine. Still enjoy the world for what it is, and be grateful that the universe allowed YOU (ME, US) exist. i think that's some dope magic right there.
Since this is the platform where I’ve shared most of my stuff this year I really hope you guys like it. Posting has been sparse because this took up a lot of my time. But I think the effort was worth it to be able to share this personal animated end project. Be warned for feelings though.
Loki x gender neutral Reader
Summary : What if Loki was jealous?
Actually, it depends on the circumstances
It depends if you have a crush on someone, or if you have already someone with whom you are romantically involved
On one hand, he would hide the fact that something in him broke
It shattered like glass. It seems that he had even heard it while the poor shreds of his pride and dignity fell inside his ribcage
Then, he would hide his anger behind an awkward fake smile
Yet, even the beautiful smile on his face would disappear while you are longing for the eyes of the man you were hoping all day long.
He would watch you describe him as a big hero or a great woman. Depending on where your heart goes
"Longing after a ghost aren't we?" he would snap at you with a mean smile
"I know I'm ridiculous, but have you seen..." you started but Loki was always cutting you.
He didn't want to hear the poetry displayed by your lips for someone who wasn't him
And his guts were tightening inside his belly. That was turning him mad to suffer as much as he was doing.
Alcohol was a soothing medicine and banquets a place where he was giving up all common sense. Like any of Thor's little puppies.
"Brother, are you sure you're good" asked once the blond-haired man
Loki glared at him and answered nothing
On Thor's second attempt to bring his beloved brother to reason, he faced Loki's silent tears.
And whatever was hurting his beloved brother, Thor was here to crush it.
But Loki couldn't say to his brother that you were the cause of it. Because Thor isn't exactly a model in the field of tact and delicacy.
Finally, it was when Loki was starting to avoid you that you became a little bit worried about the God of Mischief who had always been until now a confidant.
On the other hand, you were romantically involved with someone
Which means that Loki was always watching how you and your boyfriend/girlfriend/potatoe (potatoes have no gender, so...) lived as a couple.
He was all day long assisting to every of your displays of love
Even the most muted ones
The slightest kiss you give and receive
He would be the one to steal your breath and got you to have shivers of passion when he would leave his lips on yours
Strange... Your boyfriend/girlfriend/potatoe NEVER had any of approval from Loki.
Let me say it twice. NEVER. In whatever it could have been.
"Of all the possibilities you had, I don't understand why you bother yourself with such an incredibly insignificant, irrelevant, ignorant donkey, Y/N."
That led to a clash between you.
It didn't happen often. More likely very rarely.
You considered him as the most loyal person you have met along your life. And then he was criticizing towards someone he never tried to know.
It made you sad but you didn't intend to apologize towards him. It was his fault.
Of course, few days after, he came to you. He was all sad, like a rejected puppy.
You hardly admitted you missed him.
Ultimately, you gave him a hug.
You made a little remark on the fact that his arms were completely locked on your back and your hips.
You wouldn't escape him that easily.
Of course, Loki would apologize for it. But he didn't mean it. Having you back in his arms was the most reassuring thing in the whole universe. Even if he wasn't fully aware of that.
In conclusion, we could say that Loki has a lot of suffering to handle and is very quiet about it.
Character designs based on toxic personalities as explained in this article by Travis Bradberry.
Top is “The Twisted,” bottom left is “The Dementor,” one who spreads sadness, and bottom right is “The Envious”
the feminine urge to be the only girl he talks to
Do you ever think Izuku gets jealous of the bakusquad bc they got close/became fast friends with Bakugo? Because I can’t stop thinking abt him and Bakugo talking after everything and Ixuku’s like “all it took was a quirk, huh?”
Plush Size
Marc Spector x fem! reader (Implied moon boys x fem! reader)
Summary: Missing the MK System, you decide to make a plush toy of Moon Knight for yourself, so that you have something to cuddle with when they are on missions for Khonshu. While this plush ends up being used for that particular reason, the moon boys are shocked to see that you are no longer as clingy to them as you once were. This leads them to become touch starved, resulting in them hiding the plush.
You miss them all very much. It has only been a day since they left but you miss Marc, Steven, and Jake very much.
Though they have been on missions longer than this most recent one they are currently on. Nevertheless, it’s true when they say absence makes the heart grow fonder.
As you look through Pinterest to look at sewing machine projects that you want to do. You see some pins on how to make dolls. This sparks the idea to create a doll in the form of your boyfriends’ Moon Knight persona that you could use to cuddle when they are gone. With this newfound inspiration, you get to work.
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3 Days Later…
Marc is currently fronting as he enters the key to your shared apartment. Though this mission was shorter, the desire to get home to you was what kept him going.
When he locks the front door, Marc notices the silence within the house. No tv nor music playing in the background.
Imagining the worst case scenario, Marc grabs his gun from his travel bag and begins walking around the house in preparation to fight to the death for you. He hears both Steven and Jake from the headspace, trying to reassure him that you are safe and more likely to fall asleep. Though he appreciates the reassurance from them both, Marc’s mind can’t help but wander to think the worst.
As he finally approaches the door to your shared bedroom, Marc finds you asleep on your bed. Although, instead of snuggling into his side of the bed like you normally would when he was gone, Marc is shocked to see you snuggling up with a plushie that looks nearly identical to what he looks like when he wears Khonshu’s ceremonial armor as Moon Knight. Marc smiles to himself as he returns to his regular clothes, beginning to strip to nothing but his boxers and crawls into the bed to get well earned rest.
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In the coming weeks, Marc notices how often you cuddle with the plush version of himself and is a bit restless to say the least. Though Marc is happy you have something to remind you of himself when he is away, the feeling isn’t there when he begins to notice that you sometimes even hug the mini him when you both are lounging around together in your room or living room.
Despite Marc always being a bit closed off at the start of your relationship, you helped him open up. Once feeling as if he had to wear the world on his shoulders, that feeling slowly faded away when he was around you.
No longer receiving those cuddles as often as he was once used to, Marc begins to devise a plan. One that will ensure he gets your attention.
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As you finish showering and changing into your pajamas, you exit the restroom and enter the bedroom.
When you walk to the bed, you notice that your Moon Knight plushie is no longer laying on the side where you normally sleep. In shock, you look under the bed to make sure it isn’t there. Noting it isn’t there, you move your pillows to see if they aren’t under the bed.
“Marc”! Have you seen mini you?”, you ask.
Marc comes in and says he hasn’t but agrees to help you find him (unbeknownst to you that he hid it).
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Thirty minutes of you two looking and not having any luck. Defeated, you lay on your bed a bit upset.
Marc gets into bed next to you and wraps his arms around you. He is a little shocked by the fact that you are upset about this.
Curious to understand why that is, he asks: “Why are you upset about losing the mini me”?
You answer.“Because it’s something to remind me of you when we aren’t together. Also, I figured it would be a good substitute for when you don’t want to cuddle me as I know I can be a bit too much sometimes.”
Everything begins to make sense to him. Marc goes to your closet to get something. When he comes back out, you see that he’s holding your missing plushie.
“I’m sorry I hid this from you”, he says ashamed. “I missed your cuddles and thought that mini me was taking away your attention from me. Despite what you may think, I love our cuddle sessions. It’s because of you, I feel safe enough to be vulnerable. Can you forgive me, baby?”
The moment Marc finishes, he is shocked to see you get up from the bed and grab the plushy from him. You put the plush on your bed and pull him in for a hug.
“You know you can ask me for cuddles whenever”, you say.
Marc looks at you with puppy eyes, “Can we cuddle now?”.
You take his hand and lead him both to your bed. Both of you get settled in with Marc laying his head on your chest as you run your fingers through his curls. Staying this way until sleeps takes over.