When Does It Stop - Tumblr Posts
Healing in a nutshell
Consistently trying to resolve completely contradictory feelings and convincing myself amid my confusion and misery that it's ok to feel this way.
Good days are bad too
Last night’s text. He goes from not messaging me for months to baiting me almost daily. Thus far I have not responded.
Darkness Engulfs Me...
I am drowning. I seem to be drowning in everything from work, to school, to bills, to my home life and I can’t seem to be able to break through the surface. These past few weeks I have been feeling this way more and more and I just don’t know what to do. I spent the day de-cluttering my digital life and still have a ways to go and right now my personal can not be any more spare than it is. I feel like I am either in constant pain, can’t breathe, or am just a ball of mess. My mom says that it is probably some sort of depression but every time I mention possibly seeking outside help because this has been happening off and on the last few years she basically tells me to suck it up and that I am being over dramatic. I think that I am going to try and ride it out for now because I know that I have some money coming in and that is going to help with my bills and that a part of this is really just me having issues with my self-confidence, but if it persists I am going to have to take the leap and talk to someone because it is getting really bad. I am losing control of everything and it really isn’t good.
