Thinking - Tumblr Posts - Page 3
We all have standards until it comes to fictional characters.
Counseling is not about being a being a victim. It is about breaking the victim mindset.
I want to share my writing with someone who cares for my madness.
I want the music so loud that I can't even think. And nothing can get that loud.
I want to be seen for who I am, not for the traits that happen to make some of me up.
What if the reason why creative people are attracted or plagued by darkness is because our universe dawned in it?
Does no one understand the intimacy of sharing your writing? That there are parts of me in my writing that I might not be aware of.
Megkérdezted, hogy lehet, hogy én boldog és energikus vagyok, mikor mindenki más totál ki van.
Tudod, elgondolkodtattál... Nem tudtam, hogy már önkéntelenül is ezt mutatom a világnak a valóság helyett. Úgy néz ki, már annyira mindennapivá vált, hogy észre sem veszem
When I'm ready to explain to someone why I can't do a certain thing because of my mental illness but then I remember how it ended up the last time I did
Someone: hey wanna hang out tonight?
Me: sorry but I have important stuff to do tonight
Me:
When I talk to someone and they seem understanding and I try to see how much more understanding they can be so I can "open up" a little more
When I decide to keep on opening up to them but it turned out they aren't actually that "understanding" like everyone else
When I just accept it because I knew from the begging it would end up like that
Me later that night overthinking it and feeling pathetic for making the same mistakes over and over again because I don't know how to learn from them
When I'm broke of money and my best friend pays for my meal
When I run out of cigarettes in social event
Me:*jokes about mental illness/depression/suicide...*
Someone: you shouldn't joke about these things, some people are actually suffering from them!!!
Me:
Me buying new books as soon as I get paid even though I haven't read all the books I bought the last time and the time before that and the time before that...
Friends: Hey wanna hang out tonight?
Me:*when I just left my workplace where I have been the last 15h with annoying people that I don't like at all and I don't have energy for socializing anymore*
I love to sleep, but I actually hate it... you know?
I'm always sleepy when I shouldn't, and I'm wide awake when I'm in my bed. I don't have to deal with problems when I'm sleeping, but if I sleep too much, I'll have more problems. And I always wake up TIRED. Like, b**ch I've been tired the WHOLE DAY and I SLEEP AND... WOKE UP TIRED... AGAIN...? give me a break...