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The constant battle in my head

between

wanting to die so I could stop bothering everyone

and

not wanting to die because then why did i put them through all of my sh*t

I'm so pathetic I wanna throw up

I want all of these thoughts to end

Omg! Twinning!!!!

Might just fucking end it (or try to, again). I don't have anyone to stay alive for anymore and they clearly didn't need me to begin with. I'm such an idiot to think I could ever be wanted, I'm completely alone again, there's nothing for me here

Tf do you mean I'm "not in control"?? I just told myself that I'd cut my thighs tomorrow because I did my arms today and now I'm too tired. That's being in full control if you ask me 😤