Personal Note - Tumblr Posts

“Thank you.” I know I don’t say it a lot to you, but I just want you to know that I am so thankful to have someone like you in my life. I know it has been hard trying to understand a person like me, with many thoughts and imagination inside my head that are often mixed with the reality that sometimes I get really confused about what is real and what is not. I always have my own thoughts to think about, and my own problem to solve, but it feels good to know that there is always somebody who stays even at times when I am at my worst or even when I show the worst part of myself. I know we don’t always get in sync, and you know how easy it is for me to get tired. Sometimes I am a good girl who are easily pleased, sometimes I am a moody and messy girl who can’t be messed up with. I know it has never been easy trying to keep up with me, but you always try even at times when I don’t ask or need you to. So thank you for always. Thank you for doing things even more than I expect from you. 

things I want...

We all want a lot of things in life, and I just realize how much things I want in life. I want to understand everything that confuses me. I want to stop wondering why and just know all reasons why things happen the way they happen. I want to have answers to every questions that I have been asking. I want to make my dreams come true. I want to learn new things that will inspire me to become a better person. I want to achieve something that I never thought I could achieve before. I want to see all the good things that I have never seen before, and to feel all the good feelings that I have never felt before. I want to know how it feels like to look at somebody and just know that I have found the right one at the right time. I want to have stories that my future self will proudly tell. 

I have been asking these silly random questions to myself...

How do you know when you have found the right one?

Is it when you know that you are old enough to be committed to someone? Is it when you realize that you have been in a long term relationship with someone? Is it when you think you know someone very well and decide that you still want to be with them? Or is it when your family think you already find the right person and start asking about your plans to settle down? Is it when you just meet someone and suddenly want to spend the rest of your life with them?

Do you guys ever wonder how people know that they have found the right one? Because I still wonder how people do that. I wonder how our parents ever did that. I never ask mine how they did that, I guess I will never ask because it is just impossible to ask silly question like that to my parents without being asked questions back, like “why do you ask such question?” or “have you found yours?”. That scenario inside my head is already awkward enough, and I don’t think I can handle the level of awkwardness if that ever happens, so I simply will not make that happen by asking that question to them.

I guess time is the answer. I hope we all figure out the answer someday somehow. Whatever makes you wonder right now, time will tell (or your parents will tell without being asked). xD

Reblogging for this:

 It is a system, an institution that cannot be blamed on individuals. As a white person, I am not responsible for racism, but I can perpetuate racism. This is the key, to stop people from perpetuating words and behavior that promote inequality.

Because yes.  I am not responsible for the system I grew up in.  I am responsible for continuing to support the system after I grow up.  This applies to me whether I am male or female.  It applies because as a male who experiences privilege and some injustices granted by this system I at some point decide if the system reflects the values I have as a person.  It applies because as a female who experiences injustices and some privileges granted by this system I at some point decide if the system reflects the values I have as a person.  I was never thrilled at feminism as described to me in University, the quintessential feminism 101, because it seemed to me that the blame belonged to the individual and the responsibility belonged to the system.  I believe the blame belongs to the system and the responsibility belongs to the individual. 

  P.S. If all the men in your life act like misogynistic asshats pick a new type of man.

tell a self proclaimed male feminist that he cant be a feminist and watch him turn in to the biggest misogynist abusive shit within 0.2 seconds. happens 100% of the time.

Personal note (just keep scrolling)

Is it ok to get sad, when I mention to a friend that I am having a freak-out and/or that I am sad, and she keeps texting about herself, completely annoying my statement?

Yes.

Is it okay for me to get angry and tell her, how she should treat me, and how she should be responsing?

No.