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the panic that strikes when I go to open up ao3 and the site is down
the dependency is real
Current mood:
Listening to hard rock after crying because fuck feelings I want to break shit
Wow, another year has gone by Damn Personally, it felt quick & wasnt the best on me Not really productive & stress ๐ But Im doing better now And I hope to continue that I thank the goobers who stick by my side this year You know who yah are ๐ Luv yahs ๐ Happy New Year! ๐๐๐
Welp...๐๐ง
Wasn't expecting a Sundial song to be a direct attack on me today
But here we are ๐
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โ But you DID. โ he tells her. โ You went to him, and you fucked him.โ And of all people it had to be one of her best friends -- one of the ones who looked down on what they had to begin with. He can't tell you which part of this truly hurts the most. All of it fucking stings so much worse than anything he's been told or had done to him ; and those are things that stack up tall. She claims she wasn't herself, and she's sorry. โ You feel like shit, now take just a minute and imagine what I'm feeling. What you feel right now can't fucking compare. I thought I was doing everything right. Being the good guy - looking out for you. Loving you. Everything I've done to change for the better has been because of you. And now...โ None of it feels like it was worth anything. None of it feels like it matters.
And she begs him to not leave her , she even steps forward and he steps back. โ I don't know how to do right by you. I thought I was, maybe I'm just not suited for this boyfriend bullshit...โ Thinking out loud he too feels like his whole world was just ripped away from him. That the darkness that has been just waiting for an excuse to creep back in is rearing it's head. All clouds with no silver lining as he looks at her.
โ I gave your dad some information on where I went for help. What he does with it is up to him and I hope you get the help you need, that whoever hurt you gets caught and then maybe...Maybe then I can have my Kiara back. Because who they left...I can't. I'm sorry.โ
"I told you that I needed it." She tells Rafe. "I ๐ฝ๐ธ๐ต๐ญ you." Looking up at him, she ignores his fists, ignores the anger he must be feeling. "That was my mistake, going to JJ like that. I shouldn't have, I ๐ด๐ท๐ธ๐ that. . ." Kie is trying not to raise her voice, but fuck. . .
Had she completely forgotten that he had told her he was in love with her? Yes, in her rage, in her daze she had forgotten that Rafe had admitted that, and right to her face, in front of everyone. In front of JJ. Maybe that's why he was so open to having sex with her. . .
"I wasn't myself, okay?" She was fiending for something, for anything to satiate her ๐ท๐ฎ๐ฎ๐ญ. "I'm ๐ข๐๐ก๐ก๐จ!" She shouts. "Do you not think that I don't feel like shit about cheating on you? I do." Her heart hurts, she's riddled with guilt. It shouldn't have happened, but it did.
"Rafe. . . . ๐ก๐ช๐ฏ๐ฎ." She panics when he throws his hands up and says he won't have that same mistake again. "Don't." She breathes. "Don't say that." Kie begs, taking a step forward. "๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ช๐ผ๐ฎ don't say that. . . " Fuck. Her world is crumbling. . . "Rafe! Don't leave me. . . "
Tw. Gore(?)
You know what would fix me? What would solve all my problems? What would cure my mental state?
I need to tear the skin off my face.
I can't explain it, but I often feel a HUGE urge to claw at my skin and peel it from my bones. I need to tear at my flesh until there is nothing but bone, then rip out my eyeballs and throw them away, then carve at my skull until my brain is exposed so I can tear that from it's base as well and crush it within my bare hands.
I need to bite at my arms and legs to tear off chunks of skin so I can feel the stinging pain while I drink my blood. I need to hurt in ways I get queasy even thinking about.
But sadly my weak, mortal flesh and mind prevent me from doing this. I am forced to keep living in this body, with all my flaws, failures, and anxieties. No matter what I do, I'll never be a different person and will be stuck in this same fucked up body for the rest of my pathetic life.
And I don't know why, but I really feel like peeling skin off my skull will help, at least a bit
PLEASE tell me I'm not the only one who get this urge/feeling ๐ญ๐ญ
Yeah, I'm fine
*Types "<character name> x reader" into tumblr search bar*
That profile ๐๐ผ
much to think aboutโฆ
Did I read an entire book and then cry myself to sleep?
Maybe.
"I joke around not because I don't take seriously but because I'm scared of admitting that it's real and it's serious and that we could all die. I don't want that, so I laugh and I joke but never think that I don't care, because I do. I always have."
โ Behind my jokes
Reblogging so I never forget this piece of art
our hearts only // you and inumaki have come up with a secret language.
inumaki gently tugs at your sleeve as the train doors begin to close. his index finger carefully traces a shape on the back of your palm, and though you donโt have to face him to know what he wants to say, you turn to watch him anyway.
your secret language does not consist of words or sounds.
on your skin, he outlines a distinct diamond with a circle drawn inside of it. are you tired?
as soon as he finishes, he looks up at you, glimmering silver strands falling over his eyes as the setting sun races with the train. itโs been something of a long day.
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