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don’t blame me // illicit affairs - taylor swift

Don't blame me, love made me crazy.

Anyways, my history teacher was talking to us about the Treaty of Versailles and to introduce us he asked if any of us were swifties and played 'Don't blame me' by Taylor Swift.

So basically, the best lesson of my life.

i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again. the great war is THE ship song

Viva sua vida do jeito que ache certo.🍂⏳don't cry anymore baby

God: hey i didn't ask to be born so now im your problem

Humans: *creates the idea of god*

Humans: *has problems*

Humans: god! How could you do this to me?!

Taylor Swift during her reputation set of the eras tour

If ship not canon, then why is one warm colors and other cool colors...

don't blame me | tris & four - divergent

Taylor Swift's ‘Don’t Blame Me’ has surpassed 1 BILLION streams on Spotify.

It is her 10th song to achieve this!

This is my song

"Don't Blame Me" is now Taylor's most streamed song from 'reputation' on Spotify, surpassing "Look What You Made Me Do"

(September 3, 2024)

Pairing: Mattheo Riddle x reader ( 1k )

Enemies with benefits, get's smutty later.

It's a misty memory, like swirl of silvery glow when you first saw Mattheo, he was nervous and perhaps that was the first and last time you saw him like that, his shy eyes, his nervous steps, his lips perched in a thin line. He was like any other eleven year old, but then something changed the very next moment.

‘ Slytherin ’ the hat roared, barely even brushing his hair and his lazy mouth curved in a smirk that was forever plastered on his face. His jaw hardened, eyes sharpened, brows arched, everything almost changed except the dark glint of that night and the smile that you had engraved forever in your memory.

People chose soulmates, picked lovers but that night, Mattheo Riddle decided one thing, he's going to hate you so much. You were unaware of his intentions until the next day you found a dead spider in your rucksack. If there were any doubt left, then it became crystal clear when he dropped mandrakes crushed roots in your cauldron, eyes locked with you and by the time you could react, the cauldron bursted into thousand orbs.

All grey became white and black when you spent a month worth in detention with sadist Professor Snape, who made you clean every cauldron with bare hand, made you stock all those sticky vile ingredients in glassy jars.

“ Having fun y/n ? ” Mattheo snarled, Draco on his shoulder and Pancy chewing a gum while she checked you out lazily.

You said nothing, you had no energy to, sweat trickled down your forehead, feeling your hands dirty and uniform ragged, you turned away, hurrying to your dorm.

You decided one thing that night, you were going to hate Mattheo Riddle so much.

_

The potency of Professor's words didn't quite leave you when you stumbled dreamily in the room of requirments, eyes red with insomnia and stomach lurching with only coffee contents you had the luxury of.

“ You look like shit.” Mattheo didn't look up form his textbook, her hands scripting away the ancient text like it was a David Bowie song.

“ Thankyou.” you said, sitting down and opening the potion essay you were due on, Snape was going to kill you.

“ wait—” you jerked you head at his direction, within seconds you shot a hex, flying at him.

He was quick too, like waiting to be noticed by you, ducking the hex away with a swish of his wand.

“ Good morning to you too.” he joked, you were in no mood for jokes. After what his friends and ofcourse him too, did to Hannah.

“ Fuck off. ” you shot another and another, feeling anger boil inside you. He's so selfish, he's so bratty, he's so blemished, he's so—

“ Stupe—”

“ Expelliarmus! ’’ you screamed, beating him and his wand aflew away, a small sound followed with your breath leveling.

It was victory, you had won at last, but then your eyes met with him, he was staring too hard, not blinking, as he was too still, like he was made up of marble.

The stillness broke when he took a step, you blinked and when you opened your eyes again, all the world dropped dead.

Your back hit the wall with thud, your bones crackling with ache, like swindling out of reality, his arms pinning your shoulder back, breath warm on your skin, tingling.

“ wha—”

“ Shhh.” and you were quiet, it was hard not to, his mouth was too close, he was so close and then he looked up, that glint still there, that smile too— before his lips crashed with yours, setting fireworks off.

You have kissed, you knew how it felt, but this wasn't just kiss, it was shearing, it was breaking, it was trembling and all that gone, it was burning, twisting and coiling like snake inside you, this kiss was the one you could fall asleep and wake up to, painful, sinful, sweet and spicy, it was everything at once.

But that's not excuse, you kissed him back, as hungrily as he kissed you, you were pathetic, he kissed you and you what ?! Just gave in !

“ you...you..” you fumbled between words, lip trembling and you dared not look him in the eyes.

“ No.” Mattheo said, he shaked his hand, groaning inside but then his thumb came up, pressing at the corner of your mouth.

And oh, you felt your insides tighten at the sensation, you hated him, you hated yourself.

“ No ? ” you words came shaky and dazed but you didn't care, was it just a dream ? Did you ever thought about kissing Mattheo ? Was it always there in your subconscious mind ? He bullied you all your life and—

All thoughts melted when his mouth connected with yours again, it was better than the last time, like his mouth knew yours all his life. While the first one was like there's no time, this is it, like storm, this was slow and sweet, like pouring rain, like there were lifetimes waiting for you and him.

And then you found yourself fighting his tongue, his hands were hesitant, resting at the either sides of your face, you had yours thrown up, pressed on the wall, knuckles scrapping against the wood.

And Mattheo was loud, who could have tell that for a boy who walked like feather, all graceful swagger and hard jaw. Merlin, he kissed so good. His body was sending heat waves, like a furnace, his warmth radiated inside your body and each sound that he made low in his chest was enough to release the tension building inside you.

He pulled away, breathing hard but that wasn't the hardest thing about him. You tore your gaze away from his trousers, tenting at his middle, his desire in proof.

“ I...” He sighed, covering his face, flushed and red and that would the second time you saw Mattheo like that.

“ Come here tommorow, same time.” he said, not bothering to look back at you, stumbling footsteps that echoed after him, shy eyes and swollen beaming lips, having a smear of your lip gloss.

Everything was grey, again.

I SEE THE VISION

The CW, is killing me

But I, I must confess

I still believe, still believe

If they won`t be canon I´ll lose my mind

Let them be gaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

oh how will this fandom grieve

the first 3 taylor swift songs you see will describe your 2024

Don't Blame Me | JJK

Pairing: Ongoing CEO!Jeon Jungkook x Female Reader

Genre: Neighbours to lovers AU, Neighbours AU, Single Dad AU. Angstttt, Smutttt, Fluff

Warnings: shower sex, cum inflation kinda, Jungkooks massive, riding, making out naked, age gap, mentions of cheating

Synopsis: Jungkook is known for his good looks and is often described by your friends as "daddy material." Funny enough, he actually was a daddy.

The daddy of the baby girl you babysit every Saturday.

Working as a nanny for the world's grumpiest single dad should have been easy, but you can't keep your eyes off him. He's handsome, a little arrogant, with broad shoulders and strong tattooed arms. And when he decides he can't keep his hands off of you. Who are you to resist?

Word count: 8k

A/n: It felt so good to finally get back to writing Angst, and I'm really proud of how this story turned out. I can't wait for you all to read it and experience the rollercoaster of emotions that comes with it. And the ending will definitely leave you in shock!

As Jungkook lowers you onto his length, you can't help but whimper, feeling sensations you've never experienced before. His dick reaching places you didn't know existed. The pleasure is so intense that you can't help but moan loudly, letting him know just how much you are enjoying this moment.

Wrapping your legs around his waist, and pulling him even closer to you, you feel his hot breath on your neck as he plants soft kisses against it. Your whole body is on fire as he continues to grind into you, feeling his balls press against your ass and each movement sending waves of pleasure.

"This is wrong, Mr. Jeon," You voice your concern, but he interrupts you with a whisper, "Call me Jungkook-" As he thrusts inside of you, "-Just Jungkook when im with you".

You moan his name, your arms instinctively wrapping around his neck.

"What if So-hee wakes up?" You can't help but feel a sense of panic, looking towards the door where his baby-daughter is sleeping. "Don't worry, you know she sleeps like a rock." Jungkook chuckles and reassures you.

As you begin to relax a little, you feel the muscles of his body pressing against yours. You become highly aware of his strong hands moving to your hips, and you feel him encouraging you to start grinding on him even more. "Come on Y/n, I know you can do better than this" It's a feeling that is both exhilarating and intense, and you can't help but lose yourself in the moment as you move to the rhythm of your bodies.

"Jungkook-" you groan out, head resting on his broad shoulder.

The sensation of his fingers tracing the curve of your spine only adds to the intensity of the moment, and you feel yourself becoming more and more lost in the experience as if time has slowed down and all that exists is the connection between you and him.

He can feel your pussy clench with anticipation of what's to come. Every touch from him seems to set off fireworks in your body, and you can't help but feel like you are floating on a cloud.

The way he touches you is driving you carzy and soon enough hes rubbing your clit, making you come closer and closer to your own orgasm. "Fuck-"

The warmth of his touch and the sound of his breath in your ear add to the already intense sex-scene, making you feel hotter than ever.

Finally, as the moment comes to an end, Jungkooks cum finding home in your wet heat, you both sigh out in union, and you just hope your neighbor's didn't hear.

-

“You slept with him?” Jihyo almost chokes on her coffee when you mention sleeping with your next-door neighbour Jeon Jungkook. It was random but not surprising. You've had a thing for the almost 5 years older man for a while now, and that was not before you started babysitting his baby, it happened after.

You remember the night clearly. The stars were out, and the air was chilly. You and Jungkook had been chatting on the porch, and before you knew it, one thing led to another, and you were both on his couch.

Despite your guilt, you couldn't stop thinking about the sex. It was like a switch had been flipped, and now you wanted it again.

"It's not like he's married or anything" you mumble, quickly glancing away when Jihyo gives you a look of disapproval.

"The man has a whole ass 6 month old baby" she argues, taking a sip of her drink and crossing her arms "its just as bad."

Pouting you correct her "So-Hee is 7 months old and I started babysitting her before I even knew what he looked like"

"The point is," she starts, taking a deep breath before continuing, "I thought you were really looking for something serious, like a long-term relationship. You know, a boyfriend." You can tell she's concerned for you. "Remember Namjoon? You were really into him just a couple of weeks ago. What happened there?"

You shrug your shoulders, sinking deeper into your seat. "But Jungkook is different," you say, trying to explain. "He's mature and responsible, especially considering he's a father." Your friend rolls her eyes. "Yeah, he's a dad. How is that ever going to work? You're not just dating him, you're acting like a mother figure to his kid too. Are you ready for that kind of commitment?”

Jihyo's question made you realize that becoming a mother was not something you had planned for. You were only 22 years old and not ready for the responsibility that comes with motherhood.

So-hee was an adorable child, but you knew that taking care of her was not a task you were capable of handling at the moment.

"You're right, I don't know, I just thought…" you trail off, trying to find the right words to express your feelings. You understand that one night stands are not the best way to build a lasting connection, but sometimes you just want to let loose and have fun.

“I get it, I've had my fair share of one night stands too, but you gotta keep it realistic, what would you do if suddenly he wanted something more serious, something more than just sex huh?” Jihyo pondered. She raises a valid point, and you can't help but wonder how you would react if the guy suddenly wanted to take things to the next level. Would you be ready for a committed relationship, or would you be content with keeping things casual?

After a brief moment of silence, Jihyo turns to you with a warm smile. "I'm glad we got that out of the way," she says, playfully wiggling her eyebrows. "So, let's get to the Juicy part..." a mischievous glint in her eye. "You never did answer my question earlier. How big is it?" You both dissolve into laughter.

-

"22?!“ Taehyung exclaims in surprise as he and Jungkook drink beer in his apartment, catching up. "So what?" Jungkook responds. "You've had your fair share of younger girls in the past." He brings up the incident where Taehyung had sex with a 21-year-old girl in the bathroom at their company's 10-year anniversary. Taehyung rolls his eyes and huffs, "At least she was mature."

"But Y/n is mature too," Jungkook counters, "and she can take care of So-Hee just fine."

Taehyung thinks about it for a moment before replying, "I mean, she's a girl isn't that in her instincts or some shit?" Jungkook facepalms himself as he raises a brow at his friend. "If that were the case Sana would still be here, but she fucked up"

Noticing the sudden tension in the air, Taehyung clears his throat and speaks up. "Listen, Jungkook, I'm glad you're enjoying your time with her, but have you thought about the future? You'll have to settle down eventually and start a family."

"Y/n is in college now, maybe she's not the right person for you to settle down with." Taehyung's words lingered in the air as Jungkook thought about them.

He understood that his parents were disappointed after his divorce from Sana, but he also knew it was important to put himself first. He couldn't help but think about you, though. You were always on his mind, and he couldn't help but picture a future with you by his side.

As he weighed his options, he thought about what Taehyung had said. Maybe it was time for him to start thinking more logically about his future. Could he see himself settling down with you? What kind of life would you have together?

“I still have a few years until it’s too late to get married, I'm barely 27,” Jungkook argues, chugging his beer as he leans back on the couch, looking outside the window.

“You're supposed to take over the company next year, the people, the media, and your parents expect you to be happily married by then,” Taehyung tries to explain. He wasn't pleased with the way things were handled in the business world, but that's just the way they were.

Jungkook takes another swig of his beer, pondering Taehyung's words. He had never been one to follow society's expectations, but the thought of disappointing his parents and potentially losing sales for the company weighed heavily on him.

“I couldn't give two shits if the media hated me or not,” Jungkook growls out in disapproval. “It's not about the media, it's about the future of the company,” Taehyung counters.

The two friends sit in silence for a few moments, contemplating their next move. Jungkook knew he had to make a decision soon, but he wasn't sure if he was ready to settle down just yet. Maybe he could find a compromise, or perhaps he needed more time to think it over. Whatever the case may be, he knew that the future of the company was in his hands, and he couldn't afford to make a mistake.

-

Jungkook walked briskly around the apartment, his car keys jingling in his hand. He paused when he reached the fridge, opened it, and peered inside. "The fridge is full, make sure to eat whenever So-hee eats," he reminded you. "You know she gets sad when she has to eat alone." You nodded in agreement, cradling So-hee in your arms. She was fast asleep, her little chest rising and falling with each breath.

"I know, I know. Don't even worry about it. You know So-hee is in good hands with me," you said with a reassuring smile. Jungkook let out a sigh of relief. "I'll be back as soon as possible," he promised.

"Sorry again for the sudden call, but the meeting is-" he started to explain, but you cut him off. "I get it, Jungkook. Don't worry," You watched as he made his way to the door and stepped outside.

You sat down on the couch, holding So-hee close to you. You couldn't help but feel a little nervous about taking care of her all by yourself.

Jungkook's father, the CEO of a large company, often held practice meetings for his son to attend. This was one of those meetings, Jungkook entered the room to find a group of unfamiliar men seated at the large table. His father immediately addressed Jungkook's tardiness with a curt remark of "You're late."

The purpose of these meetings was to prepare Jungkook to take over the company, and his father had much to teach him before passing down the responsibility. Jungkook's father believed in preparing him well in advance so that he would be fully equipped to handle the challenges that come with running a this company.

Jungkook's irritation was obvious in his voice, "You know I have to take care of So-hee, why would you call me into a meeting this late?"

He had always been more of a 'live in the moment' kind of guy, and with the added responsibility of being a new father, he cherished every moment he spent with his baby girl. His father, on the other hand, was a workaholic who never seemed to have time for anything else. It was an ongoing source of tension between them, and Jungkook couldn't help but roll his eyes at his dad's response, "Rule number one, son, work comes first.”

"And rule number two," Jungkook's father begins, his eyes scanning the table. "It is important to always show respect and courtesy when entering a meeting room. This means making a proper bow and greeting everyone with a hello. This not only shows your professionalism but also your appreciation for the time and effort that everyone has put into attending the meeting."

Jungkook couldn't help but feel frustrated as he watched his father lead yet another tedious meeting about sales and marketing. He had already read all the materials that were being discussed that morning, and he wasn't sure how much longer he could keep up with the monotony of it all.

As he tried to stay focused, he couldn't help but think about the conversation he had had with his father earlier that day.

Jungkook had expressed his desire to have more creative control over the company's projects, but his father had reminded him that he was still working under the company's name.

"Once you're CEO, you can do whatever you want," he had said. "But for now, we need to work together."

After his father's words, Jungkook couldn't shake the feeling that he was being held back creatively. He knew he had a lot of ideas that could take the company to the next level.

As the meeting dragged on and on, he couldn't help but daydream about what he would do to you once he was home, and So-hee probably fast asleep.

He would take his time with you, savoring every moment and making sure that you feel completely at ease. He would run his hands all over your body, caressing every inch of you and sending shivers down your spine. He would whisper sweet nothings into your ear, telling you how much he wants you and how beautiful you are.

Before he even thinks about fucking you, he would make sure that you feel completely satisfied. He would focus all of his attention on your pleasure, teasing you and making you moan with pleasure. He might start by kissing you slowly, or he might take you in his mouth and make you come undone with his tongue.

He would take you in his arms and guide you to the shower, where he would wash you with tender care before fucking you under the warm water. Or, he might take you to his balcony and fuck you under the stars.

When he finally enters you, he would do so slowly and carefully, making sure that you felt every inch of him.

Wherever he chooses to take you, it would be an unforgettable experience. He would take care of you the way you deserve, making you feel good, cherished, and completely satisfied.

It was a warm night inside the apartment, with Jungkook having turned the heat up to ensure that So-hee would fall asleep comfortably. You were sitting with her, watching a show playing in the background, and noticed her toy in her hand, which you carefully took away so she wouldn't accidentally put it in her mouth.

She gave a small giggle when you asked her if she liked the show, and it was clear that she found it entertaining. You loved spending time with her and taking care of her - she was just the cutest and most adorable thing! However, you realized that it was 5 minutes past her bedtime and quickly moved her to her crib, where she soon fell asleep.

Just a few minutes after you put So-hee to bed, Jungkook arrived home. His hair was in disarray, and he looked stressed as he collapsed onto the couch. You walked over to him and placed a careful hand on his shoulder, asking if everything was okay. When he looked up, he was shocked to see you still there. "Shit, y/n, I thought you left already," he said in surprise. You smiled and reassured him that you were still there and asked if he was okay. It was clear that he had a lot on his mind.

“Go home, you must be tired” Jungkook says as he stands up and walks to the kitchen to get himself a glass of water. You smile, but you can't help but notice the exhaustion in his eyes.

“Tell me what's wrong, Jungkook,” you say, using his name for the first time since you two had sex. Looking deep into your eyes, Jungkook lets out a heavy sigh. “I'm supposed to take over my dad's company by next year, and everything is just a mess,” he confesses, his hand gripping the counter tightly. “There's so much pressure on me, and I don't know if I can handle it all.”

“It's okay, Jungkook,” you reassure him. “You don't have to handle everything alone. I'm sure that there's a lot of people to help and who can work through this with you together.”

Jungkook seems to relax a bit at your words, his shoulders easing down from their tense position. “I just need to go to the gym now and work out my anger,” he says, walking towards his room. You follow him, feeling a sense of protectiveness towards him.

“It's past 11 pm, Jungkook. You should go to sleep,” you suggest, hoping to get him to rest. But he shakes his head, pulling off his shirt and throwing it carelessly on the bed.

As you gaze at his perfectly sculpted body, you can't help but appreciate the countless hours and intense dedication he must have put into his fitness routine and it's clear that he takes great pride in his appearance. You find yourself almost entranced by his physical and the way he moves.

When he notices you're still in the room, Jungkook locks eyes with you, licking his lips. The room seems to get hotter as you both stare at each other in silence, the tension intense. As you try to find something to say, Jungkook takes a step towards you and places his hand on your waist, pulling you closer to him. You can feel his breath on your face as he leans in to kiss you, his lips soft against yours.

He presses you against the bedroom wall, the cool surface sending shivers down your spine and you're caught off guard by the intensity of his kiss, but you find yourself responding eagerly. As you kiss, you feel his hands start to explore your body, sending waves of pleasure through you. The kiss seems to last forever, until finally, Jungkook pulls back, his eyes dark with desire.

It wasn't long before you found yourself making the same mistake Jihyo had warned you about. The two of you found yourselves eagerly making out in his huge, luxurious bathroom. The windows and mirrors fogged up as he slowly undressed you, teasingly running his hands over every inch of your body. "Youre so fucking perfect".

He took his time exploring every inch of you, and it wasn't long before he was thrusting into you at an inhuman speed.

"Fuck, fuck" Jungkook groans, his hand coming up to slap and then squeeze one of your tits.

As he continued to thrust into you, you felt a wave of pleasure wash over you, causing you to moan uncontrollably. You couldn't help but feel the intensity of the moment as his balls slapped against you with each forceful thrust.

"Oh my- Mr. Jeon, Jungkook-"

You closed your eyes and lost yourself in the sensation, feeling his body pressed against yours and his hot breath on your lips.

The feeling of being completely full by him was overwhelming, and you knew you never wanted this moment to end.

By the time he was finished, there were purple and blue marks all over your neck, and your mascara was almost completely ruined.

"This was-" he spoke up after catching his breath, running a hand through his messy hair.

"This was probably the best sex I've ever had".

As you smile and make your way over to him, both of you still naked, you trace his chest with your fingers. The intimacy of the moment is apparent, as you both bask in the afterglow of your recent escapades.

You can't help but let out a giggle as his hand grabs your ass, jiggling it slightly.

He smiles back at you, his eyes filled with a warmth that fills your heart. "I don't know what I'm gonna do with you," he says playfully, his voice thick with desire.

-

As you walk into the large building where Jihyo works, she greets you by singing “You're late again”. You tease her, passing her the bag of homemade kimbap, saying “Be grateful I'm even bringing you lunch”. She takes a whiff of the delicious food and says happily, “You know I love you bestie”.

"Right, I'm gonna leave now, I have a bath waiting for me at home" you wink at her.

She groans and jokes, "God, you and your stupid online classes."

You both laugh at her comment, reminiscing back to your high school days when you used to go to school together every day.

Jihyo has always been your stronger side, she used to defend you from the bullies at school and even buy you lunch when your mom forgot to make some. She was the sister you never had.

You have always admired her strength and bravery, even when you were younger. She never backed down from a fight, whether it was standing up to a classmate who was teasing someone or speaking up against an unfair teacher.

Jihyo's kindness was something that you looked up to. She always had a kind word or gesture you when you needed it, and never hesitated to lend a helping hand when you moved into your first apartment.

The bond that you share with Jihyo is something special. You have countless memories of the two of you spending time together, from playing games to having heart-to-heart conversations.

Jihyo will always hold a special place in your heart, and you are grateful for her presence in your life-

"Oh shit sorry"

Stumbling backwards as you walk out of Jihyo's office, you apologize for your clumsiness. Looking up, you can't believe your eyes when you see a familiar face, someone you didn't expect to see today, and he looks just as surprised as you are.

"Jungkook?" you say in disbelief. "Y/n?" he responds. The two of you stare at each other, unsure of what to say next.

After a moment of silence, Jungkook breaks the awkwardness. "What are you doing here?" he asks, raising his eyebrows. You take a deep breath before answering. "I was bringing lunch to a friend." You look around, taking in the busy surroundings.

"What about you?"

"I work here. This is my dad's company," Jungkook responds, waving off his assistant who was trying to get his attention.

As you both exchange a surprised look, you can't help but think how weird this moment is. You let out an awkward laugh, trying to break the tension, while his assistant keeps pestering him about the meeting he has in just 5 minutes. "I said not now," he snaps, clearly irritated.

“Jeon Jungkook!” An angry voice was heard from behind you two, and as you turn around, you see what looks like an older version of Jungkook. He seems to be in a bad mood and expresses his disapproval at Jungkook's tardiness for the meeting, yet again. "Jungkook, you're late, again."

You notice that the two share a visual resemblance, especially in the shape of their faces and the way their eyes crinkle when they're mad.

“Who's this?” Jungkook's dad inquires, looking towards you with a stern expression. Feeling slightly intimidated, you bow and introduce yourself, “I'm l/n y/n, nice to meet you sir-”. As you look up, you notice that his expression doesn't soften, and he seems to be in a hurry.

Shaking his head, Jungkook's dad turns to walk off, leaving the two of you behind. You feel a bit awkward and unsure of what to do next, but Jungkook reassures you, “Don't worry, he's always like that. I should get going, though. Don't want to keep the others waiting.” You nod in agreement, and as you wave goodbye, Jungkooks face already hardens again, back in his 'ongoing-CEO' mood.

-

“So son, tell me, who was that girl” Jungkook's dad asks him as they both sit in his office, alone.

Jungkook hesitates for a moment before responding. “She's just my neighbour. You know, the one who takes care of So-Hee on Saturdays when Mrs. Chuu doesn't have time.” He looks down at his hands, fidgeting with his fingers but Jungkook's dad can sense that something is off.

“Listen, son. I know we haven't spent much time together, but I want you to know that I care about you and your happiness. If there's anything you want to talk about, I'm here to listen.” Jungkook looks up at his dad, surprised by his sudden change in tone. "I don't like her"

Sitting in front of his father's desk, feeling a mix of frustration and disbelief. He had just confided in his dad about not liking you, and his dad's response only made him feel worse. "So you're just hooking up?" his dad asked, as if he didn't care about Jungkook's feelings at all. The younger man clenched his jaw and poked the inside of his cheek with his tongue, trying to control his emotions.

"Why are you suddenly so interested in my love life?" Jungkook finally asked, feeling like his dad had never shown much concern about him before. "You've never cared about me in the first place, so why do you care now?" His frustration was palpable, and he slammed his hand down on his desk.

His dad stood up and crossed his arms, a serious expression on his face. "I need you to get married before you take over the company," he explained. "And I can already tell you, I don't approve of her." Jungkook felt a wave of anger wash over him. He didn't want to get married just because it was expected of him. He wanted to find someone he truly loved and who loved him back. He knew it wouldn't be easy, but he was willing to wait.

As they continued to argue, Jungkook tried to explain his feelings to his dad, but it seemed like they were speaking different languages. Finally, he stood up and walked out of the room, feeling like he needed some space to clear his head.

Witout a thought, he dials your number, leaving the big office building in stress. He feels the weight of the world on his shoulders as he drives towards your place. The traffic seems to be moving slwer than usual, adding to his anxiety.

“Jungkook? What's wrong? Did something happen to So-hee?” You ask worriedly as you answer the call. Of course, that's what you'd think about first, So-hee. “No, I-um, can I come over?” he asked, getting into his Mercedes and putting his phone on speaker as he drove.

“Uhm, sure, what's wrong?” You ponder, cleaning your kitchen on the other side of the phone. You wonder what could be bothering him. You last saw him 2 hours ago in his company building and he looked just fine.

The phone call ends abruptly, but not before he confesses, "I just, I need you." You stare at your phone, trying to process what just happened. It doesn't take long for him to arrive; just over 10 minutes, and he's already walking into the lobby the building.

You can hear the elevator ding as he steps out and walks towards your door. The doorbell rings, and you know it's him. You wait a few seconds before opening the door, but he doesn't waste any time. He immediately cages you between his arms, and you feel your heart racing. "Jungkook, what -" You begin to speak, but he interrupts you with a kiss.

Lightly pushing him away you stop him, "Is that all I am to you? A stress release?" You ask, voice filled with emotion. He pauses, unsure of how to respond. "A quick fuck?" You ponder.

The truth is, he doesn't know what you are to him. He's been trying to figure it out for days now, but it's always been so complicated.

"Y/n listen, I thought that maybe-”.

You let out a deep breath, trying to remain calm. "You thought wrong," you interrupted him. "Get the fuck out and don't contact me again unless it's about So-hee," you said, your voice firm and unwavering.

He looked at you, his eyes wide with surprise and hurt. "But Y/n-," he started to say, but you didn't want to hear it. You slammed the door shut in his face, feeling a mix of anger and sadness. As you leaned against the door, you couldn't help but think about all the intimate times you had shared with him. But those memories were tainted now, and you knew you couldn't go back to the way things were before.

-

“I don't wanna say it but I told you so,” Taehyung sighs as he comes over to comfort Jungkook that night. “You've been chasing after this girl for weeks, but have you stopped to consider what she really wants? She's a 22-year-old woman, not a little girl. Maybe she's looking for something more than just a quick hookup with her older next-door neighbor.” Jungkook gives his best friend a glare at the mention of "older".

"Maybe you've misread the signals," Taehyung suggests. "But don't worry, you can fix this, right? Instead of just apologizing, why not take her out on a proper date and get to know her. Show her that you're more than just a fling."

"Speaking of So-hee, she should be getting hungry right about now," At the mention of So-hee, Jungkook perks up, only to be interrupted by a loud cry from her room. "Maybe I should go check on her," he says, standing up to go. "But thanks for the advice, Taehyung. I'll try to make things right with my her tomorrow."

Jungkook scoops up his 7-month-old daughter and holds her close, his voice soft as he asks if she's hungry. She babbles in the background as he makes his way to the kitchen, cradling her in his strong arms.

As he prepares her bottle, he reflects on the events of the day and his mistakes. He knows he needs to make things right, so he turns to his daughter, asking for her help in winning over the person he wronged. "Daddy messed up today," he confides in her, "but I'm going to apologize tomorrow morning. And you, my little bunny," he says, gently stroking her hair and squeezing her cheeks, "you're going to be my secret weapon. Together, we're going to make things right and show her how much we care.”

-

It was a beautiful morning, just as the sun was rising, when you were suddenly jolted awake by the sound of your doorbell. As you slowly made your way to the door, you could hear faint whispers and giggles coming from the other side. "Be quiet bunny, we wanna surprise her, don't we?" you could hear Jungkook whisper to his daughter.

When you finally opened the door, you were greeted with big smiles from both Jungkook and So-hee, who was practically bouncing with excitement. In Jungkook's unoccupied hand, he held a basketball-sized container filled with delicious-looking cookies. "Hey," you spoke up, trying to hide your surprise at the unexpected visit.

"We came to apologize," Jungkook said with a warm smile, and you couldn't help but feel your heart soften a little. "We? I don't remember So-hee doing me wrong," you said, trying to maintain a tough exterior despite the softness in your heart.

Jungkook chuckled, "Well, it's not just So-hee who wanted to apologize. I wanted to as well. I didn't mean to cause any trouble yesterday." As he spoke, he handed you the container of cookies, "Please accept this as our apology."

You couldn't help but smile at the gesture and the thoughtfulness of the two of them. As you took the cookies, you felt a sense of warmth and gratitude wash over you. "Thank you, I appreciate it," you said, feeling the tension between the three of you ease up a little.

“Do you uh-” you stutter, “want to come in?, I’m sure I still have some food in my fridge” you say with a shy smile, opening the door wider to let Jungkook and So-hee in. Once you've helped her take her little coat off, he turns to you. “I'm really sorry, you know, I was just stressed and-”.

“It's all forgotten, Jungkook” you reassure him kindly, leading him to sit down at the breakfast table while you prepare some food. “What's been going on with you lately?” You ask him, sensing there's something more to be said. “I had a really bad talk with my dad yesterday,” he confesses, and you nod sympathetically, encouraging him to open up.

“He really wants me to get married by the end of this year, but I just don't feel ready for that kind of commitment, especially after what happened with my first marriage to So-hees mother” he explains with a sigh. “I want to make sure I'm truly in love with someone before I take that step, you know?” he adds thoughtfully.

You listen attentively, "I don't know what to say, Jungkook, I'm sorry." He shakes his head and explains, "You don't understand. My parents has always been very family-oriented, and we want to keep the business close. It's a lot of pressure.",

He continues, "I thought Sana was the one, you know? The love of my life. But then she cheated and ruined everything." He sighs, looking down at the ground. You hand him a cup of coffee and try to reassure him. "Jungkook, that's not your fault. What she did was horrible. And the fact that you recovered so fast is incredible."

He looks up at you, his big doe eyes shimmering with emotion. "I'm sure you'll find the right one one day," you offer a small smile. "Don't we all?"

Jungkook seems to be lost in thought as he gazes back at you. You wonder what he's thinking, but decide not to ponder.

'If only you knew that you were my one.'

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something exciting will happen tomorrow… are you ready for it? 🤭🤭

𝖉𝖔𝖓'𝖙 𝖇𝖑𝖆𝖒𝖊 𝖒𝖊 🗝️ m.list✨

IN WHICH theo is the lead singer of the band cursed legacy and also the one who you hate most in the world. easy enough right? things only get complicated when theo puts out a rude song about you, the band starts to rise to fame and one single accident might ruin everything they worked for so hard. eventually theo is forced to ask for your help, but you wouldn’t be you if you would say yes without a very important rule: theo can’t play his most famous song: the one he wrote about you.

pairing: theo nott x fem!reader

content: rockstar!au, no magic!au, enemies to lovers, fluff, angst, a bit social media, so it’s modern as well

warnings: angsty, sad at times, language, fighting, cursing, mentions of sex, rude teenage boys, mentions of a loved one dying (there will be chapter specified warnings)

note: super excited for this!!

-> let me know if i should add you to the taglist!!

𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞: 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐬 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞

➻ you and theo stopped being friends a long time ago. now there’s only hate between the two of you, tempting theo to write a song

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐧𝐞: 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐤𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐞

➻ amused isn’t the word you would use to describe your reaction to theo‘s song. while everyone else is sure it is the best one he has written yet

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐰𝐨: 𝐬𝐡𝐞'𝐬 𝐠𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐨 𝐟𝐚𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞

➻ as a result of absolute stupidity, theo has to ask you for a favour

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞: 𝐦𝐲 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞

➻ maybe the friendship that existed a long time ago isn’t as broken as you had thought. maybe you might be able to fix it

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐫: 𝐢'𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐤𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐲

➻ theo knows he got everything wrong. he would do anything to make you stay. but is a song really enough?

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐢𝐯𝐞: 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐳𝐲

➻ the competition is on. but is theo ready to risk everything to win?

𝐞𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞: 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞

➻ happy ever after???

authors note: for easy access anything (chapters, requests or other thoughts) regarding the series will be published under the hashtags #lizzyscursedlegacyseries and #lizzysdontblamemeseries

everyone is welcome to ask questions/ suggest things in my requests!

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐢𝐯𝐞: 𝐢 𝐨𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐧 𝐢𝐯𝐲, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐢'𝐦 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐝𝐚𝐢𝐬𝐲

pairing: theo nott x fem!reader

summary: theo and you seem to be a pretty good match, until things go out of control

warnings: underage drinking, cursing, trauma (bad relationship with parents), sexual references, depression, fighting, mention of death

note: this is absolutely the most gut wrenching chapter so far! get ready lmao!! and for the people still wondering who leo is: you will find out in this chapter!!

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theo walked you both through a forest, taking weird paths that he claimed to be shortcuts. you giggled anytime he almost fell over a branch and he laughed deeply and almost lovingly as you stumbled against him a few times, because it was already dark.

at the party he walked you around, introducing you to foreign people and it made you heart flutter, that he did not introduce you with your name alone.

"curtis" he said when a blonde and tall boy entered his field of vision "this is my friend, y/n"

"hi, theo's friend y/n" curtis greeted and you smiled up at his tall figure.

"is your band playing tonight?" you asked and curtis nodded proudly.

"i'm the keyboarder" he explained "you will love it, i promise"

you normally hated boys with too big of an ego (maybe because of theo), but curtis was actually lovely and seemed like he meant it in a nice way. he reminded you of enzo and you instantely liked him.

"get your lady something to drink, theo" curtis patted the dark haired boys shoulder before he turned back to you "zero manners, huh?"

you giggled and curtis promised to come back and talk to you after the gig. theo walked you to a small table filled to the brim with different kinds of alcohol.

"what do you want?" he asked and you raised your brows as your eyes glided along the table.

you would rather not drink any alcohol, but there was nothing without it. also, you didn't want to explain why, so you just pointed to the bottle of sparkling wine and watched how theo filled a glass for you.

he took a bottle of beer for himself and walked you back into the crowd so you could listen to curtis and his band.

you had to admit that they were really good, but (and you did not say that to theo or curtis when he came to talk to you later) nothing in comparison to cursed legacy.

you sipped your sparkling wine as theo walked you around the party and talked so some of his friends. there were a few you found pretty funny, boys that reminded you of blaise and draco, as they were dancing weirdly across the dance floor.

and curtis' girlfriend was like a carbon copy of april. she joined you as you watched the boys and couldn't hold your laughter at their ridiculous dancing.

"friends like that keep your soul young" lily had said as she sat down next to you. "i'm lily" she added as she noticed your surprised expression "curtis’ girlfriend"

"y/n" you smiled "theo told half the people here to call me pixie, but don't listen to him, he's an idiot. and i know, i have the exact same friends on the other side of the town"

"so a few meters from here?" lily joked and you joined in on her laughter.

"something like that"

"are you theo's girlfriend?" she followed your eyes that were watching him as he was talking to curtis and another boy you hadn't been introducted to yet.

"no" you shook your head. theo turned his head and smiled at you, before he waved for you to come and join the conversation.

"they way he looks at you tells a different story" said lily as she followed you through the crowd.

you shook your head laughing. lily stepped next to curtis, who threw an arm around her body and you stepped next to theo, who, to your surprise, did the same.

later, theo and you started walking back home. you had said goodbye to the people you had met tonight, while theo had to promise both curtis and lily that he would bring you around more often. lily was so drunk that she almost cried as you told her that you were leaving, which made you like her even more.

you loved people that didn't get aggressive or angry when they got drunk, but rather emotional or funny.

"are you sure this is the right way?" you mumbled as you followed theo through the forest, your hand in his as he took paths that looked like they were not supposed to be walked on.

"trust me, baby" theo laughed and the nickname made your heart flutter. you were glad that he couldn't see your face.

to your surprise you came out of the forest right in front of your houses. the moon was shining down on the street, making it easier to see his beautiful face.

"so much music tonight and we didn't even dance"

"you're right" you smiled "what do we do now?"

"i have something on here" theo said as he took out his phone. "it's a song that was supposed to be on the album, but i scrapped last minute"

"oh" you said surprised "what is it about?"

"you"

you laughed unsurely "so pixie dream girl or daddy issues part two?"

"no" theo said quickly as he shook his head "it's not like that, it's not mean"

"why did you scrap it?"

"because leo was helping me to decide which songs were good enough for an album and i didn't want him to see this one"

you smiled up at him, before you finally nodded. "play it"

he set down the phone and pressed play, before he took your hand in his, one hand on your hip. the song was soft and gentle and you could hear the guitar and dracos keyboard.

"how did you record the guitar if leo didn't know about it?" you wondered.

"i played it myself" theo shrugged and you smiled as you heard his voice. "i wrote the song when you started hanging out with cormac and we stopped spending as much time"

i know a place it's somewhere i go when i need to remember your face we get married in our heads something to do while we try to recall how we met

he twirled you around on the street, moving you away and then back close to his chest again.

the bridge was definitely your favorite part of the song, as you softly hummed along.

there was something 'bout you that now i can't remember it's the same damn thing that made my heart surrender and i miss you on a train, i miss you in the morning i never know what to think about

you didn't want him to know, but you cried a bit. the song was so incredibly beautiful that it made your head hurt. right before the song was over, theo started singing along, supporting the theo from months ago.

about you about you do you think i have forgotten about you? (don't let go)

he hugged you close to his body while you both swayed to the last few tunes of the song.

"that's how you felt? all while i was still there?" you asked him once he had pushed the phone into the back pocket of his trousers.

"it felt like you were worlds away" theo muttered "you were so obsessed with cormac that all i could do was write a song about how you were slipping away"

"i was sixteen and in love" you argued.

"i know" theo smiled "i was too"

you looked up at him in surprise and a bit of hope in your eyes. "and what about now?" you asked

"now i'm seventeen" he shrugged.

"and in love?" you asked carefully.

"deeply" his hands wandered to hold your hip, as you stepped closer to his body. your hands went to his neck. he drew you closer and slowly connected your lips. his lips were soft and warm and they felt like home in a place that hadn't felt like a home in a long time.

he brushed some of your hair out of your face as he deepened the kiss, softly pushing his tongue through your lips. you smiled at that.

as you broke the kiss, he softly leaned his forehead against yours.

"do you want to come inside?" you asked as you pointed to your house.

theo smiled as he nodded. you took your key out of your bag and opened the door. to your surprise, you could hear someone move through the house.

it was well past midnight, so you shrieked in surprise when your mum turned on the light. she screamed at the same time as you did.

you wondered what she was doing up here. normally she wouldn't come out of bed or up here in general. she would spend most days in bed, curled up under leo's bedsheets.

"y/n!" she screamed and you noticed the tears on her cheeks.

"mum" you muttered as you looked back at theo, who was still standing in the entryway, unsure what to do.

"where have you been?" she screamed. "you're soaked!" theo's and your eyes went down your body simultaneously. you were completely dry.

"i'm not, mum" you shook your head "maybe you should go back to bed" you tried to grab her arm but she moved away from your hold.

"i told you not to go out in the rain"

"mum, i didn't, really"

"where have you been all night?" she screamed and winced. "i have been sick with worry! you've been gone for hours, y/n!"

"mum, i-"

"i don't want to hear another word!" she grabbed your hand and pulled you closer. "leo, sweetheart is that you?" she only seemed to notice theo, now that you were not standing in front of him anymore.

you and him exchanged a look. "no, mum" you softly said "that is theo" you turned your head back at him "maybe you should better go"

he nodded at your suggestion.

"leo, sweetheart" your mum called as she saw him moving. theo froze. "where are you going?" you held her in place as she tried to move closer to him.

"go, home, theo" you said "i'll call you"

"where's leo?" the calm in her voice was suddenly gone and she was screaming again. theo turned around alarmed.

"go, i'll call you" you repeated. "you shouldn't have called him" your mother screamed "why did you call him?" she sank down on the ground sobbing and screaming as she held her arms close to her chest. you sat down beside her.

you looked up and saw the sad look on theo's face. "please, go, theo"

he left and closed the front door behind him.

your mother calmed down quickly and you were able to bring her back down to bed. she fell asleep as soon as her head hit the pillow and you watched her for a few minutes as you wiped your cheeks to get rid of your tears.

you shared the color of her eyes and hair, the way she used to walk down the street and the sound of laughter, that you hadn't heard since that night a year ago.

you kissed her head softly, before you got up and left the room. "goodnight, mum" you mumbled before you closed the door.

then you walked up to your room. the curtain of your window was open and you saw theo sitting at his window on the other side. you saw him scribble something down on his blog, before he pressed it against the window.

is she always like this?

you shrugged, before you took your own blog and wrote an answer.

not always, but sometimes she freaks out and thinks it's that night again

what is she doing normally? it's the first time i saw her in a year

you weren't sure what to answer. you didn't want to lie to him, but the truth embarassed you.

she stays here

she doesn't leave the house?

no

you could see the same look of pity in theo's eyes as you always saw in april's. she was the only one who really knew how bad your mother had gotten.

i'm sorry you had to see that, you wrote

theo shook his head, he held his hand against the window, as if to touch yours, i'm here

you held your hand against the glass too, as you smiled at his gesture. i know

you sat there for longer than you should have, only going to bed as soon as you couldn't keep your eyes open and were almost falling asleep on the desk.

✦•〰〰〰〰〰★🎸☆⋆｡𖦹°‧★〰〰〰〰〰〰•✦

sunday was warm and thick and theo came to pick you up. all of you, the rest of the guys and april, went to the lake behind the garage to go swimming.

the sun was relentless but you were so happy that you did not mind.

april and enzo had arrived hand in hand, kissing each other all over their faces, before they announced that they were finally dating. you were more than just happy for them and exchanged conspiritorial looks with theo as they mentioned how they had spend their night.

none of your friends knew about your and theo's adventure from the night before, or the times you had spent in each others embrace. you were glad that they had stopped asking questions about the way you acted after the last time.

you hadn't been sure if you would have been able to lie, but your friends kept their mouths shut, silently smiling and fully accepting the new normal.

theo had send you the demo of about you and you had spent any free minute listening to it. this was your song, the song that was truly about you and you couldn't love it more.

and for now, everything that had happened between you just belonged to the two of you.

theo walked into the garage to get a few more beers as he ran into mattheo, who came back from the toilet.

"hey, mate" he patted theo's shoulder, as the latter bend down to open the fridge.

mattheo's eyes wandered to the window that overlooked the lake. blaise and draco were standing on top of the tree that was hanging over the water, while they tried not to fall down. april and you were loudly laughing as you tried to throw each other into the water. enzo came up behind the two of you and helped to throw april inside, before he pushed you in after her. mattheo watched as your head came back up and you began laughing.

"you have to tell her" mattheo mumbled "the concert is in a few days"

"i know" theo muttered, before he took a big sip from his beer. "but she's so happy" his heart fluttered as he watched you run across the grass as draco and blaise were chasing you.

"all the more reason to tell her" mattheo nodded "maybe she doesn't mind"

"i don't know" theo shrugged "i still lied to her"

"not if you just tell her" theo nodded at his friend before he left the room. mattheo bend down to get a beer for himself, as his eyes returned back to the glass. you were in the lake again and you face lit up as your eyes fell on theo.

you held your hand in his direction, before you dragged him in to the water. mattheo could hear you giggle, followed by theo's warm laughter as he held you close to his body and dipped you down in the lake. "so, that's how it is?" mattheo mumbled smiling as he watched the two of you.

✦•〰〰〰〰〰★🎸☆⋆｡𖦹°‧★〰〰〰〰〰〰•✦

monday came fast and so did the bad weather. it had been raining since the morning and you couldn't be more glad that april and theo both had their own cars so no one had to walk.

"good morning, baby" theo greeted as soon as you sat down in his car. he turned in your direction expectingly, moving his lips. you giggled before you kissed him and he leaned back with a satisfied grin.

on your way to school you picked up draco and blaise who were talking about a switch in the atmosphere. you and theo listened to their blabbering as you exchanged looks with each other.

"this was disgusting" mattheo said as he climbed from the backseat of april's car. she had driven him and enzo to school with her. "two people in love and i have nowhere to escape"

"yeah" draco nodded "i kind of feel the same" blaise and him exchanged confused gazes, not quite realizing what they were talking about just yet.

"should we head to english?" you asked before one of them was able to further think about it.

"sure" april took your arm as she dragged enzo behind her. theo stayed close to you, but did not hold your hand.

mrs walker was on time today and she even smiled as she noticed the friendly conversation you and theo were having. "war is over, huh?" she smiled and you softly nodded.

it was the first time in months that you did not mind theo sitting so close to you. you needed his warmth, as if his and your body were magnets of opposite sides, always pulling each other close.

during class, theo was drawing hearts on your hand with his finger and you wondered when you had forgotten how soft love was.

love was back, because theo was and you had missed him terribly, even before there was that wall of fault between the two of you. you had thought that there was no way to fix what had been broken, but maybe you had been wrong.

theo had felt the same, as he had told you. and he understood you, understood the way you could not have a relationship with your father, the way you felt sad anytime your eyes fell on your mother and why you had taken down every photo of your brother and put them in a box under the bed.

"i take them out when i want to remember" you had told him "when i'm ready to feel him"

"do you think you will be able to hang them up again?" theo had asked.

"i don't know" it broke a piece of your heart that you weren't able to really tell "maybe there will just always be something broken inside of me"

"and your parents?" he had pushed a strand of hair behind your ear "are they broken too?"

"more than me" you had said "that's why i can only be broken at certain times"

theo squeezed your hand before he had to take it away to write something down. you smiled at him, before you started writing too.

suddenly your phone buzzed in the back pocket out your trousers. there were only fifteen minutes of class left, but maybe it was important, so you took it out without mrs walker noticing and opened the message that had been send from an unknown number.

hey, peanut it read and you heart stopped beating. it's dad. how are you? dave called me to tell me about the record deal for leo's band, i heard they're making great music. theo messaged me too, is he your boyfriend? he told me that you needed to talk. call me!! xoxo dad

you stared down at the message and your whole body froze. dave fraser was the guy that was eventually giving the guys the record deal? you knew it had to have been leo who contacted him. and theo had messaged your dad? a thousand questions were running through your mind, but before you got a chance to answer them, another message came in.

i'm sure everything will work out with the deal. dave is obsessed with the guys and pixie dream girl! he told me i should come and listen to them play on saturday. will you be there too? didn't theo used to call you pixie? kinda funny!

yeah, you thought, funny.

"y/n?" mrs walker called "do you know the answer to number five?"

"what?" you muttered as you looked up from the phone in your hand.

"i asked if you knew the answer to number five" mrs walker repeated, but her eyes grew wider as she noticed the tears in your eyes "are you alright?"

you shook your head before you grabbed your bag and pushed your blog inside. "can i please leave?"

"ehh" mrs walker seemed to be caught off-guard before she finally nodded. you grabbed your things and ran out of the room under the confused eyes of your friends.

"excuse me" you could hear a voice call and quickly, steps were following after you. it was theo and you just quickened your pace.

"y/n!" he called. "are you alright?" there were another few pairs of feet running over the floor.

"you can't just all leave class" you could hear mrs walker say.

"it's important" april said.

"we will write an extra essay" enzo promised and you could hear both mattheo and draco groan.

"are you nuts?" blaise said loudly, before he was scolded by mrs walker.

you walked down the steps, theo behind you and behind him april, enzo, mattheo, draco and blaise.

"where are you going?" theo asked, but you ignored him. he followed you outside into the rain, where he finally caught up with you, holding your arm so you had to freeze in your step.

the rest of your friends waited under the little roof before the doors.

"what has gotten into you?" he asked.

"what has gotten into me?" you repeated laughing "what the fuck is wrong with you, huh?"

"what are you talking about?" you both were already soaked.

"you're playing pixie dream girl on saturday?" you asked.

before he could stop himself, theo had already answered "how do you know?"

mattheo hid his face in his hands and enzo groaned audibly.

"so it's true then?" you asked "and i bet all of you knew" you looked behind theo and into the guilt-ridden faces of your friends.

"we wanted to tell you-i mean i wanted to, really"

"yeah, you did? were you waiting for the right moment? taking bets when would be the funniest time?"

"no, you don't understand"

"oh, i think i do" you shook your head as you cried "you're still punishing me for everything that happened a year ago"

"what? no, i'm not" theo almost pleaded for you to believe him.

"did he tell you everything?" you turned to the other boys "how's your next song about me called, huh? y/n's psycho mother?"

"y/n, we don't know what you're talking about" mattheo said.

"oh you don't? well, let me clear things up as long i have the chance to do so myself" you clenched your hands together, you were already shaking from the harsh cold of the rain "what did you miss? my mother has gone completely off the rails since my brother died, my dad and i haven't spoken in a year and i think i have a lot of issues too"

you could hear april cry and the rest of the boys also looked like they were absolutely distraught.

"theo was a great friend" you said bitterly "while i went to him crying, he wrote a song that he knew would hurt me and he still put it on the album. and after i told him i how i felt about it, he claimed it was supposed to help me, while he aired out my dirty laundry to everyone in this fucking town"

"daddy issues" draco muttered under his breath.

"damn right" you pointed in his direction.

"daddy issues is about y/n?" enzo asked and he looked as betrayed as you felt.

"y-yeah" theo muttered "but i did not mean to hurt her"

"that's funny, theo" you laughed sarcastically "did you also not mean to hurt me when you messaged my father?"

"you did what?" april asked angrily and was ready to step next to you, but enzo held her back before she could walk in the rain.

"i know you don't want to talk to him, but i thought-"

"thought you knew my life better than i do?" you asked angrily "the night of leo's death, my dad spent hours screaming at me. my brother had just died and he stood in front of me while he told me how everything was my fault. he was the one telling me that he didn't want to see me again" you raised your arms "but who am i to complain about that, right? at least he's paying his child support, more than he has to actually, or mum and i would live on the street now. because she doesn't leave leo's fucking bed" you screamed in the direction of your friends "she never gets up" you added.

april sobbed and you noticed that all of the others had tears in their eyes as well.

"she's a mess" you muttered "but even she thinks it's my fault. you remember theo? that night in my house, when she thought you were leo? do you know how it feels to come home and she turns on the light and there's a flicker of hope in her eyes, because just for a short second she thinks i'm her dead son? and when she notices that it's me, just me, she just goes back to bed"

"we didn't know" blaise said softly.

"because i didn't want anyone to know" you said "but theo is running around telling people whatever he feels like and all of this will probably be featured on your second album anyway, so fuck it, right?"

"i'm so sorry" theo cried and you couldn't tell what was rain and what were tears on his face.

"sorry isn't cutting it this time, theo" your voice was a lot calmer now "you asked if i will be able to hang leo's pictures up again and the most honest answer i can give you is that i don't know if i could bare to look at his face while knowing that i killed him"

"you didn't kill him" theo argued.

"it doesn't matter to me how you see all of this, theo" you shook your head "just leave me alone, okay? but this time for real. i don't want to see you and i don't want to speak to you" you paused, before you added "because the real reason why we aren't friends anymore is that after everything that happened, you didn't even have the decency to come to leo's funeral. he was your friend, your best friend"

you send one last look in the direction of your friends, before you started to walk away.

theo called your name and you turned your head, but mattheo held him in place. you nodded at him, thankfully. april looked between enzo and theo, before she shook her head and ran after you.

she put her arm around you and let you cry into her shoulder as you both walked through the rain. away from your friends and away from theo, who you swore in that moment, had broken your heart for the last time.

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𝐞𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞: 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞

pairing: theo nott x fem!reader

summary: theo and you get your happy ever after

warnings: i don’t think there are any! let me know if that’s not true :)

note: here it is!! finally the epilogue is here! i loved writing this series so much!! please let me know what you thought of this chapter and/or the story in general!

!!!make sure to keep your eyes on the extras that are coming tomorrow (and feel free to request drabbles/ fics on future or past situtations in the don’t blame me universe, or questions you still have!! i will be thrilled to answer them!!)!!!

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note: not really happy with the outcome of this chapter, but whatever..

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"mommy?“ a voice called and your head snapped to the side. "can you give me one of those paper towels?“

you rolled your eyes smiling at his antics and nodded, before you threw one in his direction.

"mate, you know i love you, but please stop acting out your mommy kink on my girlfriend“ theo hit mattheo's shoulder.

"well, y/n is the closest thing i have to a mother right now" mattheo argued dramatically "she takes care of me when i'm sick, she cuts apple slices for me—"

"—we've been on tour for two months" theo shook his head "it's not like you're never gonna see your mum again, get a grip"

"it's alright" you smiled. "i don't mind"

mattheo nodded "see?"

“yeah, whatever” theo shook his head “just get ready, please? we start in ten”

after the concert a few months ago, cursed legacy had gotten their record deal. dave had been impressed by their show, he wanted them to play opener for the rest of the following tour leg.

as soon as the school holidays began you joined them, traveling around the country.

theo and you couldn’t be happier. everything was going great and you were ready to tackle life together.

since the concert, theo had not stopped writing songs and they were only a month away from releasing their second album, soft death.

he was always talking about how you were the muse behind most of the songs. and you had to admit that they had never had so many love songs played (or written) before.

during the tour they had made many new fans, their followers growing while were getting more and more attention. they were already playing a few songs from the new album constantly and about you was a fan favorite. your favorite was echoes of devotion, which theo had written for you. it was the second song they played every night.

“see you later” mattheo took a look to his phone, checking the time, before he pressed a sloppy kiss to your cheek and quickly walked away.

theo rolled his eyes before he turned to you and gave you a long and passionate kiss, before he too took off after mattheo to get on stage.

you collected your things, before you started walking. you already knew that it would be hard to feel normal again once you were home in a month and college would start. how could you ever live a normal life after being treated like royalty?

you took your stage pass and walked in the direction of the tents. you hadn’t seen the rest of the band in hours. the reasons were simple enough. draco and blaise had made it their personal chore to walk around the venues before every show, claiming something about a good luck charm they absolutely needed. they had asked you to accompany them on a few occasions, which you did but quickly regretted after they spent the entire time talking about their hook ups from the night before.

they had already adopted the rockstar life style.

quite the opposite of that was enzo. he spent hours in the back of the bus, or in his hotel room, talking to april on his phone. she had come to a few shows, but she couldn’t be there constantly because of work and so they had decided to face time or text in any given moment. you rarely saw the boy without his phone.

april had been scared that their relationship would not last. she had feared that enzo would quickly realize how limiting a relationship was when there were a few hundred girls basically licking the ground on which he walked.

you had told her that enzo wasn’t like that, but you could still understand why she was feeling that way and promised to keep your eye on him.

enzo had done nothing more than proof the both of you terribly wrong. most of the time he did not even look into the direction of other girls, let alone talk to them.

that the rest of the band was busy could’ve been to your and theo’s advantage, making it possible to enjoy time for only the two of you, if there hadn’t been matt, who made it his personal task to follow you around like a lost puppy.

you loved him, you really did. during the time the both of you had only grown closer, going back to the sibling like relationship you had once had, but at times you wished he was anywhere else.

especially that one time when theo and you were making out on the couch of the tour bus and mattheo came barging in and acted like he didn’t know that he had just interrupted something, before he planted himself in the middle of theo and you and started playing star wars on the tv.

"good evening!" enzo's voice roared through the microphone, after they had come out and played only angel. the crowd cheered. "the next song we're gonna play is about a very special someone. our front man's girl to be exact. he's a very smitten man, so naturally, this is a very emotional love song, feel free to hold up your flashlights.. here is echoes of devotion!"

the crowd cheered once again, while you clapped your hands, your cheeks as red as the curtain next to the stage. theo's voice was always what started the song, he looked just as cheesy as you did, even if enzo had made it a habit to say the same lines every night, you and theo were still flustered about his words.

my love, like orpheus, i'd come,

to tread through shadows, my body numb,

but truth be told, in my hearts embrace,

i fear i'd falter, lose the race.

the music only set in after that. a steady and slow beat that was always responsible for your shiver as it guarded his voice through the chorus.

for i'd turn back, just like him,

my gaze would brake, our future grim,

your fading form, in shadows deep,

my love, too strong, my soul to keep.

the song was balancing right between breaking the crowds heart and animating them to sing along. it was the perfect mix of love and heartache, often making your eyes swell with tears, when you saw theo react the same way.

the song had a special place in both of your hearts. for one part, it was comparing you and theo to your favorite myth, which theo had done knowingly. and second, it reminded you both of how hard love could be, how even loving people deeply could led to hurting them.

it was one of the first songs theo did not sing entirely on his own. the second verse was accompanied by background vocals of the rest of the boys, making it sound almost dreamy and ethereal.

like orpheus, with his lyre's song,

i'd sing to you, all night long,

but in that moment, with fate's cruel twist,

i'd choose your eyes, and lose what's missed.

the second chorus was a little different to the first one, deeper, as theo had said.

for i'd turn back just like him,

the current stronger than we swim,

i'd face the darkness, lose my way,

for one more look, i'd gladly pay

"i don't understand" theo's voice was only above a whisper, making sure no one could hear you both in the treehouse. it was far too late for both of you anyway.

"what?" you had asked, looking up from the ipod in your hand.

"orpheus, that's his name, right?" the boy brushed his hair back, revealing his forehead. he hadn't gotten a haircut in ages, exclaiming something about girls finding him more attractive that way. you had spontaneously laughed at that prediction, considering you were the only girl he talked to. but the boy was fourteen and suddenly very interested in appealing to the opposite gender.

"what about him don't you understand?" you had the same tone in your voice your mother did when she would explain something to you and your brother.

"well, why does he turn around?" theo shrugged his shoulders, as he turned, facing away from you, to continue to paint doodles on the wall of the tree house. "he could've saved her if he had been stronger, if he had loved her enough he could've made it"

"it's not about that, theo" you had mused "orpheus looked back because he loved her so much, because the only way he could've saved her was if he had loved her less. but he didn't"

"i don't know, pixie" you send him a look upon the name, which he obviously couldn't see, your annoyance bouncing off of the back of his head. "i would be able to save you" his simple statement made the air freeze between the two of you, hitting deeper than it had been meant.

"then you don't love me enough" your voice was only a faint sound, but loud enough to make theo stop in his tracks.

without him noticing the irony of the situation, he turned around to look at you, his blue eyes crashing into yours. the softness in them almost made you shudder, asking yourself if the way you were feeling about him was totally normal. you did not have much experience with boys, but theo was different anyway, he was not like them, he was yours, without any requirements.

"no, i think i do" he whispered back, realizing that the quick act of him turning around had come right after you had simply doubted his love. he knew in that moment that it would never take much for him to turn around for you.

maybe it was the quiet of the night, or teenage hormones mixing up in the air, you weren't really sure later, but theo leaned across the space between you, gently grasping your lips with his, connecting them in a featherlight kiss.

there was no sound in the little room. there were only theo and you. and only your lips were touching.

for you're the melody that guides my soul,

through tempests wild and rivers cold,

i'll brave the depths, defy the night,

to hold your hand in morning light.

so here i stand, before your eyes,

with trembling heart, and no disguise,

to say, my love, in honesty,

i'd turn for your like orpheus for eurydice.

later that night, after the concert was finished and the band was saying their goodbyes, ready to leave the stage, you were waiting for theo behind the stage.

blaise and draco came down first, each of them ruffled your hair, before they walked away to find snacks.

enzo winked at you, holding his hand up for a high-five, which you gladly accepted.

matt plastered both of your cheeks with kisses, laughing deeply as you tried to slap him away.

all of the boys (except for theo of course) had grown to be like your brothers, but enzo and matt stood out the most. enzo was like the little brother you never had, especially because of his relationship with april.

mattheo had been protective of you ever since leo had brought you with him the first time at the age of five. he had looked out for you ever since, often joining forces with leo, when he forbid you from doing something.

even if you sometimes acted annoyed at him, you knew deep down that you needed matt, just as much as you needed your organs to survive. he had been (unlike theo at certain times) a constant in your life, you had never quite managed to get rid of. matt had made it clear to you that he wouldn't leave you alone. both of you were everything that was left of leo for the other.

you could see it in the way matt acted, when he would text you the most random things or when he was lifting you off the ground after he had predicted you would miss the single stair in front of your feet.

and he could see it in your face, as you scrunched your nose when you found something disgusting or when your eyes lit up at the mention of ice cream. or sometimes, in the rare moments when his heart ached the most, when you would laugh, and immediately stop, as you both realized how much it sounded like your brother.

it was impossible for either of you to forget leo, if you had still so much left of him.

the cologne was the first thing that entered your nose and just a second after, theo rumbled down the stairs, heavy footsteps echoing over the instruments that were already being played on stage.

he was wearing a white shirt, he had gotten it himself, your name written over his heart with a cursive lilac thread. his hair was messy and a little bit sweaty. you remembered the heat of the stage lights from the night of the concert months ago and your skin burned.

his jeans were dark and loose, you had joked that he needed to wear skinny jeans, because he was in a boyband. you had to search for a picture of harry styles, for him to believe that that used to be a thing.

his face lit up when his eyes fell on you. he pecked your lips, as he threw an arm across your shoulder. another kiss to your hair following.

"my dad messaged me" you said as you walked further behind the stage.

theo perked up at that "will he meet us for dinner?"

"yeah, yeah" you rolled your eyes, uninterested in talking about the boring information. you grinned, as you halted in your step, taking his hand in yours, as you almost jumped up and down from excitement. "we will probaly see a whole lot of him in the future"

theo raised his brows, confused what you were hinting at. your smile grew bigger as you could see the realization set in on his face.

"cadence?" he asked, not quite believing it.

you quickly nodded your head, your excitement resulting in a giggle, as he threw his arms around your body, pulling you close to his chest.

theo had applied to the college months ago. your father had just texted you to tell you that he was in. the mail was only being sent out the coming week and he wanted theo to know. that's also why your father had a lot of connections in the music world and was friends with dave fraser, the guy that had given the guys the record deal. he had worked at the college for the past twenty years, it was a big one, similiar to juilliard, but stationed in england.

while theo would go there, you had applied to many schools close to his (which included, but was not limited to oxford and camebridge). the acceptance letter for camebridge had come last week and the joy on theo's face had been incomparable.

"so it's happening" theo muttered in your ear "we'll both stay"

"i'm going nowhere" you assured, as you intertwined your hands, leading theo back to the tour bus, that would start driving to it's next destination in only a few hours.

"me neither, for now we have seen enough of the world to last us for a few years to come"

"are you joining in?" matt asked when the two of you entered the bus. the rest of the boys were sitting around the table, matt sorting poker chips and enzo's phone was propped up in the middle of the table, april's laughing face on it's screen.

"hey guys!" april smiled.

"hey stranger" you giggled.

"mate, could you please grab the cookies y/n's mum send her?"

"hey, those are for me" you protested.

matt shrugged "well the bus was only for us and i'm still sharing it with you"

you sighed, before you gave theo the okay to get them.

"only two more weeks and you're coming home" april was close to screaming of excitement "it's so boring without you guys. i even began missing blaise"

"hey!" blaise protested, as he grabbed the phone and turned it in his direction, so april was able to see the offended expression on his face.

"yeah, sorry" april muttered "now turn me back"

actually, even if you enjoyed all the special treatment you were receiving on this tour, you couldn't wait to go back home. you couldn't wait for life to be a bit more normal again, even though you were sure that it wouldn't take long before the boys would have their own concerts.

you couldn't wait to watch them grow, but for now, you savored every moment, as long as they still belonged solemnly to you.

"who's gonna start?" mattheo threw the last of the chips down, looking between the rest of you for help.

"i thought you read the rules" draco exclaimed confused.

"well, no" mattheo shook his head "blaise was supposed to"

blaise shook his head repeatedly, claiming to not have been part of mattheo's scheme. the boys began fighting, pointing at each other accusingly.

theo and you exchanged a glance, before you suggested to play a few simple rounds of uno, which everyone agreed on and quickly quieted down.

now everything was finally right and if you could talk to her, you would like to tell your younger self that everything would be alright one day and that she didn't have to be as scared of the future.

a few weeks later, when you were back home, theo helped you pack your things up in your room.

the rest of the tour had gone by in a breeze, and even if all of them decided to concentrate on studying at their respective schools, the band still existed and even dave fraser promised that the career of cursed legacy was far from over. soft death had already been recorded and was coming out in two weeks.

"what's that?" theo asked as he fished a folded piece of paper out of your backpack.

"oh" you furrowed you brows. "i thought i had thrown that away" you shrugged.

"well, what's on it?"

"after i first listened to pixie dream girl, april made me write down my feelings and burn the papers. she was scared that i would do something i would regret" you send him a look.

"okay..but why do you have it if it got burned?" he pressed.

"because i wanted something to remind myself how i felt about all of this"

"am i allowed to read it?" theo asked expectingly "it probably won't be nice"

"i don't care" you shrugged "go on"

theo unfolded the paper, his breath hitching as he read the words you had written. he looked up in surprise and you smiled. "that's—" he mumbled, but couldn't find the right words, surprise and love making it hard to concentrate.

"not mean?" you helped.

theo grinned, before he folded the paper up again and put it in his pocket "i want to keep it"

you smiled and nodded.

and after all this, you stupid stupid boy, you had written that day, you are still the only one my heart wants to know.

you and theo kept your eyes on each other, not one of you daring to look away. you could see every version in him, every stage of his life was readable from his eyes. even that night was readable and you wondered if the was thinking about the same thing you were.

"what was that?" you had asked, your voice raised above the normal whisper.

"what?" theo muttered, feigning innocence. you would've almost believed you had imagined the kiss, but the lipgloss on theo's mouth was telling a different story.

"you kissed me"

"ugh, no?" theo shook his head, crossing his arms defensively.

"ugh, yes?" you outstretched your hand, pointing to his lips. "there, cherry lipgloss"

theo rubbed his mouth in a quick gesture, getting rid of the evidence "where?" he asked, fluttering his eyes.

"right there!" you insisted, fighting back a laugh at his attempt to play it cool.

theo smiled softly, his gaze meeting yours with a mixture of fondness and mischief. "okay, fine. maybe i did."

your heart raced as you struggled to find the right words. "why?"

his expression softened, and he reached out to gently tuck a strand of hair behind your ear. "because... i wanted to."

"okay" you nodded, your voice only above a whisper. "but friends don't—“

"i know" theo had interrupted you. "i'm sorry"

something had shifted between you that night in the tree house, or at least for theo it had. it was like you were the only girl that mattered, like you were the only one that mattered. something about that scared him immensely.

you waited for him to say something. to explain to you what it meant for you, for your friendship. but his eyes were as big as yours and his mind wandered twice as fast. "we are friends" he muttered finally, as if to remind himself.

you nodded, taking it as answer enough.

the years turned faster than the pages of a book, you grew older, stayed inside your rooms when it got dark outside and you and theo never spoke of the night in the treehouse again.

neither of you had known what to say so you rather said nothing.

theo's last words to you that night, replayed themselves over and over again in your mind for the years to follow, even if both of you continued being friends normally.

"i couldn't help it" he had muttered, right after both of you had climbed down the ladder and were ready to go your separate ways.

you smiled at his honesty, as you held back a giggle. you couldn't see his face in the dark, the candle in the lantern you had brought with you had burned down completely, but you had a feeling that he felt the same mix of awkwardness and simple happiness you did.

"will you do that again?" you asked, feeling brave now that he was unable to see your face in the darkness.

air escaped from his nostrils, as he stifled a laugh at your question. "i'm not sure" he said.

"okay"

the air between you was quiet and still and you turned around before you softly walked the path between both of your houses in the direction of the balcony you had climbed down a few hours ago.

the sound of his voice had you stop in your tracks.

"but if it some day comes over me, and maybe it will.." he paused, seemingly searching for the right words.

you listened to him attentively, as your heart fluttered at his implication. it was like you could almost see the colour of his eyes, even if he was standing a few meters across from you, his body standing out against the light of the lantern down the street.

he was standing, his body facing in your direction and simply knowing that he was looking at you made your tummy churn. was this what friendship was supposed to be? or was it something different? was this love? did love really feel like that or where you going crazy?

theo cleared his throat, as he raised his voice so you could hear him clearly over the distance between you "just... don't blame me"

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