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will never understand kids who yell at their parents because they bought them iphone 11 and not iphone 14.

because mai nokia ka keypad chala rahi hu.

like some of yall had unconditional love and support from your parents who never made you feel as if you didnt deserve anything and it shows.

kyuki mere ghar pe toh har ek cheez conditional h. marks acche nahi aaye toh bahar se accha khana deserve ni karte, naye kapde deserve ni karte, doston se baat karna deserve ni karte, abey aur toh aur "tution nahi bhejenge kyuki tum education ke layak hii nahi ho" (which is what i get to hear after asking to join a tution for the first time in my life in 11th grade).

like kabhi kabar lagta h ki aisi hii zindagi honi thi toh kyu 1st se 8th tak jee jaan lagake mehnat karke hamesha full marks laayi mai? uski appreciation kabhi di nahi, vo ab ho nahi raha toh sunne ko bhot milta h. saala uss time ye sab chodhke thoda jee hii liya hota, atleast life ka ek part toh khushi se nikalta. ab lag raha h 16 saal ki zindagi toh barbad hii kardi maine. uss time ki mehnat ab matter ni karti, par ab mehnat ho nahi rahi h.

it just...gets unbearable to watch other people living their life after a while ya know? like you look at people who are going out, having fun with their friends, doing what they love, having good relationships with their family, and just, like their problems are so much different? they may not have their life together either, but you envy them because you don't have the privilege to do the same as them, because you know you're the one to blame for the subjects you chose, the life you chose. you see them actually living, and realise that youre still stuck in a loop, waiting for your life to begin, as you have for as long as you have been alive.

a couple days back one of my friends adopted a dog and i had a breakdown over it because....ye toh mai bhi deserve karti hu na yaar. mujhe kab milega ye? kabhi milega bhi? abhi tak toh nahi mila. aur ab toh milne ke chances bhi itne kam hain kyuki dena mujhe JEE h.

you can't help but feel hopeless.

pehle lagta tha jab kuch bhi sahi nahi tha ki....koi nahi, atleast academics ho raha h. atleast acche dost hain ab bhi. atleast ek acche future ka prospect h.

and then you lose it all. nothing to comfort you. nothing to make you feel as if atleast one thing in your life is going right, because it isn't. because your life is just one huge black hole now sucking away your happiness, your sense of identity. mujhe khud nahi pata mai kon hu. ab toh dost bhi chutne lage hain.

like, outwardly yes ill work hard and get out of this, but what then? people say "it's just 2 years uske baad sab bhot easy hoga" but what they don't understand is that it's not just 2 years. ive worked hard my entire life, and im sick of the constant guilt, constant expectations, constant pressure. i dont know if i have it in myself to hold on for 2 years more.

fir agar tumhare coping mechanisms maladaptive daydreaming and internet addiction h then toh hogya bas tumhara.

i could go on for a millennia with this rant. abhi toh family trauma bhi touch nahi kiya h. but then that will just be another proof of "yes, here's another thing going wrong in your life"

like, i have to remind myself each day that i dont have anything to be shameful about, i dont have anything that i dont deserve. love shouldnt be conditional. support shouldnt be conditional. especially if love and support are from your family and if they are based on a handful of figures.

like if at this point if i go and start doing drugs and alcohol to get some relief then can my parents blame me? but i cant do that, because guilt!

when will this end? i just wanna sleep.

par sone ke liye 5 min shanti se letna padta h and mai apne khudke thoughts tolerate kar paane ki ability kho chuki hu.

If they wanted to, they would. end of discussion✨

..and so you pick your pieces up and rather become so good at understanding and attending to yourself that you realise you never needed anyone else in the first place:) you become your own home.

Nothing will ever emotionally destroy you more than the constant need to be understood by people who over and over again have proved to you that they will not understand you.

-nipuna

girlhood is a spectrum

Fr :(( … I developed the habit of hatin’ the present & glorifyin’ the past… hopin’ to change it…. :/

I had deleted atleast 4 posts like that… :))))

TODAY’S SUMMARY :

Woke up around 8:45 am

Self caring habits ( like brushin’ , bathin’ ) went around for 40 mins…..

Had dosa chutney as breakfast @ 9:30 am

Spoke to my parents for abt 30 mins & to my relative for about 15 mins….

Spent time on youtube watchin’ goofy memes kinda video & scrolled Tumblr watching desi spilled writings, memes , aesthetic images (for almost 3 hrs)…..

Planned to go to a religious place @ evening…

Ate lunch @ 1:10 pm ( rice with chicken gravy)

Scrolled Tumblr , youtube, instagram watchin’ similar content ( about 10 mins) for almost 3 hrs….

Ate fruit ( mango) @ 4:00 pm…

Plan cancelled suddenly because my relative found it difficult to go today suddenly …..

Scrolled youtube , tumblr watchin’ similar content for like 3 hrs….

Ate dinner ( chappathi with chicken gravy) @ 7: 15 pm…

Scrolled YouTube, Tumblr watchin’ similar content for 2 hrs….

Realised that I could not even get a person with whom I can rant

Watched tv for more than 1 hour……

Now writing this post in tumblr for about 10 mins … timings I mentioned are approximate (not accurate) & after this post is posted I’m watchin’ insta rn

If this post bored you more,then I am happy that I conveyed you the primary feelin’ I got durin’ this day in about a few mins in the most practical way……Thank You….

Worst assumption guyzz.. :)

Today I introspected myself to find the reason why does no gurl see me as a soulmate/crush/bf/lover: “OTHERS ARE MENTALLY MATURE , BUT I AM MATURELY MENTAL :/// ”

Last day in Bangalore/Bengaluru…Goin’ to miss this climate & terrace of the house here….

Hello prendzz , My name is Sai Ssanjai (no spellin’ mistake in my name :) )….…. I had not posted anythin’ here in the last 8 days as I felt like this….

I have no spark left to make myself too vocal to post frequently here… But I like makin’ new close prendzz here…. So you can ask me anythin’ about me you find curious in the ask box…. I like to respond to every ask & dm ( except those cheap & trashy spam accounts)… I belong to the gen Z generation ( born in 2006) but I don’t know any shit regardin’ gen Z slang…. I watch movies but I’m not too vocal about it…. I watch memes but I’m not too vocal about it …. I like photography but I’m not too vocal about it…. In short, I’m not too vocal about anythin’ … But, I would become too vocal when someone spends time to ask me qns here about anythin’ or I find anythin’ disturbin’ .. So tq….

I don’t need to give any lecture bcoz , only brainless scumbags will claim that discount in their own clgs & schools ( except those who got injected without their will { like via raggin’ & all those kinda stuff} , I feel sad only for them)… If anyone doesn’t know about this, in Tripura clgs & schools , a large number of students got affected & some ppl died due to HIV AIDS transmitted via intravenous drug injection …. Yaenda idhu awareness dhaane idhukku yedhhuku mature tag podra….

Transformed from Lokesh kanagaraj like hairstyle to kaadhal kondein Vinodh hairstyle guyzzz…. ://// I was angry for a day with myself …. I couldn’t see myself with my hair cut short… I feel so insecure with that haircut rn… I don’t like that hair cut always even though my family members like it…. But still I am forced to do it as I am startin’ my new academic journey…. Me when I find that original ancient group which established the fake stereotypical perspective that “ guys with their hair cut short are the real decent ones ”:

I feel irritated guyzzz:////….

I saw a similar post like this somewhere in social media guyzzz… but I couldn’t find it rn….So I made my own… This pic is just for illustration purpose…. I keep consecutive alarms with an interval of 10 mins for like 3 hours (non - stop)…. And I find none of those alarms useful for me …. :///

Nowadays, I identify myself as a trashcan prendzz…. & I watched Maharaja in a theatre [a month ago] ×͜×….. (I would talk about it later in another post) ….

How is your Sunday goin’ ??? L(0_0)?

Correct ah? @wannabemychammakchallooo ….. Nandri btw (人´ `)….

Anyone can participate in this…. :)))))

two truths and a lie tag game

@ashthenerdtheythem @shelfthe-reader

@irishskeptic @ebony-reine-vibes

@riordanverseaddict @gracefulchristiangirl

@padfoot-lupin77 @auroraofthesun1

and of course, @shuutingstar

also anyone else who wants to join!!!!

Post la konjam uppu karaikidhu laa????

( This post contains too much salt right guyzzz ???? (* *) )

GATORADE 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

Sorry I am an old school guy with respect to this aspect… (* *)

My life is like the film Premam… Just replace Mary George & Malar with Cricket & Mbbs ….…..Failin’ to convert my zone of interest into a profession is like a breakup for me …. So I stay away from them as much as possible like an ex-lover…That’s it… …. Can anybody relate to it????

DOOOOVV TAAA ….🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

There are some guys in my class whose hairstyle is indecent but teachers out here didn’t even mind it ….. My favourite hairstyle is not even indecent …. Why??? Why Dada why??? Is it wrong to be comfortable ??? Why I should be usual & cliched always in every dimension ????Kaduppaavudhu Bangalore photo va recall panra appolaam kaduppaagudhu

I know this is not a full fledged song… but still this bgm is stuck into my head ….. <(* *)

Denks (人´ `) for taggin’ me @b-l-u-e-c-l-o-u-d-s

I’m taggin’ @aes-555 @wannabemychammakchallooo @sambaridli @mortallydeafeningtyrant @shhhsiiih @epiph-annie @loosukitty @disorientedwho @whimsicalnaya @fai4ry @uneducatedaalu @finding-my-laila @encoreabj @sassybabe225 @moonstruck-enha @livelaughlovechai @andreainlove @nabihahahahaha

Interested ppl can participate in this d(* *)……..

ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)