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Happy Pride Month Everyone!
Im trying to get back into a better mood, taking baby steps into being happy with myself again Decided to do a lil doodle for this month I still to this day question my gender and sexuality. But after a while of just being on a long continuous journey of discovering who I am (Which Im still on), I’ve become comfortable with these. I feel like they represent me the best. I can only wish the same for all of you. Not matter how long the journey is. There will be a path/paths for yah. And when you’re ready. Shine like star baby. Be proud of yourself. Love yourself. Cause I’ll defiantly be.
Oh boi! Happy Pride Everyone! 💗🧡💛💚💙💜
= Decided to do a lil doodle of my sona with my flags
Kinda funny to see Niji not so colorful for this 🤣 = I hope everyone enjoys this month in general. And just love/be proud of themselves. Even if you havent fully found yourself yet💕
Obligatory intro post
Well hello there, welcome to my blog!
I'm Jav, but I go by Moony online. So you may use whichever. I go by he/him or they/them, so you may still use whichever.
I'm a 25 y/o latino ambiamorous panromantic demisexual demiboy. But I just say I'm a random guy, cause it's faster XD.
This blog is just a recolection of some of my thoughts about life, post about things I do and things I enjoy on this chaotic little corner of the internet. All in all, I may be screaming into the void, but I don't think the void minds it much.
Some of the things I enjoy are D&D, videogames (For now it's a lot of Final Fantasy XIV and Destiny 2), crochet or knitting things, plushies, fantasy and magic stories, quite a few tv shows and anime, and a million other little unassuming things.
Anyway, you're welcome to stay, have a cup of whatever you enjoy (I'll have coffee, for both our sakes) and chat with me if anything I say sparks some curiosity of yours.
The thing about being pan...
It's that it's not so easy to realize you're pan. I'm sure other bi or pan people might also feel as such, but I'll speak from my perspective. I grew up just.. liking people? Loving their different aesthetics and styles. Loving the different personalities and how they interact with each other. Loving how they can get so excited about small thing. And loving to figure out how everyone is so different from each other. I can only say so in retrospective, obviously. Back then, I just.. liked my friends and liked seeing people from afar. Not really knowing what any of those feelings meant. Sweet, light feelings, but not quite knowing how to categorize them. But.. I went with the narrative of "I do like girls and I just would like to look like those boys." That's what was normal, after all. But even then, around 11 or 12 y/o I knew I was lying to myself.
Eventually, I fugured I did like other boys. But that I did like other girls. And that I did like people, whether or not they were boys or girls. I could've said I was bi, and it wouldn't be wrong.
But there's something about being pansexual that just feels right!
I do hate "normal"
I've always hated expectations. The norm. It's always about what other people want you to do, want you to be.
I can understand that there's a need for "normal" in society. Biologically, our brains just group up similar concepts together to better manage all of it. So it intrinsically dislikes what goes out of the norm, what's different.
But it sucks especially when you're what's different. Or don't do what people expect of you, don't dress how they expect you to dress, don't talk or walk or act in the ways they want. If anything, I want to say that I'm never gonna be normal. There are days where I'll be more different, days where I'll be less different, but.. not normal. And if anything, people shouldn't expect you to be whatever you're not. They'll have to deal if they don't like it. But I like different. There's something quite beautiful in different. And everyone is different in a way. Not "special", just different. Unique.
And that's beautiful!