Obligatory Intro Post

Obligatory intro post

Well hello there, welcome to my blog!

I'm Jav, but I go by Moony online. So you may use whichever. I go by he/him or they/them, so you may still use whichever.

I'm a 25 y/o latino ambiamorous panromantic demisexual demiboy. But I just say I'm a random guy, cause it's faster XD.

This blog is just a recolection of some of my thoughts about life, post about things I do and things I enjoy on this chaotic little corner of the internet. All in all, I may be screaming into the void, but I don't think the void minds it much.

Some of the things I enjoy are D&D, videogames (For now it's a lot of Final Fantasy XIV and Destiny 2), crochet or knitting things, plushies, fantasy and magic stories, quite a few tv shows and anime, and a million other little unassuming things.

Anyway, you're welcome to stay, have a cup of whatever you enjoy (I'll have coffee, for both our sakes) and chat with me if anything I say sparks some curiosity of yours.

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The thing about being pan...

It's that it's not so easy to realize you're pan. I'm sure other bi or pan people might also feel as such, but I'll speak from my perspective. I grew up just.. liking people? Loving their different aesthetics and styles. Loving the different personalities and how they interact with each other. Loving how they can get so excited about small thing. And loving to figure out how everyone is so different from each other. I can only say so in retrospective, obviously. Back then, I just.. liked my friends and liked seeing people from afar. Not really knowing what any of those feelings meant. Sweet, light feelings, but not quite knowing how to categorize them. But.. I went with the narrative of "I do like girls and I just would like to look like those boys." That's what was normal, after all. But even then, around 11 or 12 y/o I knew I was lying to myself.

Eventually, I fugured I did like other boys. But that I did like other girls. And that I did like people, whether or not they were boys or girls. I could've said I was bi, and it wouldn't be wrong.

But there's something about being pansexual that just feels right!

So, I'm a boy.. kinda.

I used to not think much about it. I'm a boy.

I was born a boy, I grew up a boy, so I've been a boy. But.. there are days where I don't.. boy. I boy most days and when I'm tired, I default to boy. And I don't mind being a boy, I'm fine with it. But there are days I don't wanna boy. I wanna.. be me. Not boy me, just.

Just me. I like my days when I put on jeans and an unassuming t-shirt, add on a cool jacket and just go about my day. But now that I've had more freedom to explore things.. I find myself wanting to just not boy sometimes. Sometimes, I wanna paint my nails or try on make-up. Why not? Thinking back, I've always wanted to try different clothes, jackets on the women section of the mall or shirts with cute colorful styles. I wanna try on dresses, see how they make me feel. I wanna try on different shoes and try different crop tops.. I wanna let my hair grow long, 'till I can maybe put it up in a messy bun from time to time. So yeah, I'm a boy. Except when I'm just... not.

Huh. Guess I'm ungrateful now XD.

oh your pronouns are he/they?

well that’s mathematically incorrect becuase you can still simplify the fraction since both sides have “he”

making your pronouns technically 1/ty