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you might move out and chose your own path in this life, but you never stop being an eldest daugher, you never stop being a protector.
and what if i cry?? what then?
RICK PERRY THE GENIUS YOU ARE
its so funny to me the dynamics between the supposed narrative foils of the rat grinders/bad kids, cuz you got:
kipperlily has been beefing with riz since FRESHMAN YEAR apparently??? (girl what could he even have DONE to you lmao) meanwhile riz didn't even knew she existed until this year and besides some suspicion has just been aiding kristin's presidential campaign, not even running himself.
fig is leading ruben down a winding rabbit hole of psychological torture as she manipulates him as a little goth girl he is in love with. theyve interacted as themselves maybe like once.
mary ann absolutely clocks gorgug on their first meeting, proceeding to inspire an anger in gorgug rivaled only by telemaine and his parents' sex robots, meanwhile mary ann continues to just not give a shit
ivy and fabian having the most toxic flirtatious relationship known to man (fabian has a type)
kristen recognizing in buddy "oh hey, this is what she could've been", having the most passive aggressive back and forth on the nature of religion, then getting expelled by his grandfather
meanwhile oisin and adaine seem to be the only ones who actually seem to like eachother lol
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I don't think Buddy asks Helio any questions.
Kristen asked 'Why do bad things happen to good people?' because she believed in all the good things she was taught, but noticed the strange disconnect between the world as it was and the world as it was taught to her. So she thought, surely, if I can't come up with the answer, Helio will have it. And she hates him for dodging her question.
Buddy is far more deluded than Kristen ever was. And he is far, far angrier inside as a result, even if he deliberately conceals this fact from himself to protect himself from the inevitable mental breakdown this would cause. Buddy is not as altruistic and giving and caring as Kristen is. He wouldn't question why he was betrayed or dig into a question like 'Why do bad things happen to good people?' Those aren't the answers he needs, because of course he'd be betrayed by someone outside the church, that makes perfect sense. Of course bad things happen to good people, we simply live in a fallen world.
Or, well. He used to live in a fallen world. Now he's dead here. In Helio's divine domain.
I think Buddy, as he wanders through fields of corn to the big farmhouse where Helio is chilling out, privately thinks about the fact that Kristen Applebees' horrified expression was the last thing he ever saw before a sharp pain in his throat. I think Buddy assumes Helio knows he's thinking this and apologizes for bringing thoughts like that into paradise. I think he thanks Helio for recognizing his devotion and bringing him here once he died and dutifully deceives himself about his own rising emotions at contending with the fact that he's dead now.
After all, he was raised to die. He was raised to want to die.
To want to be here with his god whenever it was he called Buddy to him. So he doesn't feel upset, no, of course not. He's just a little surprised at how sudden it was. (How completely random. How unceremonious and unfair.) He's a little bit worried how his grandparents would react to the news is all. (He cracks a joke that maybe he'll see them here shortly after they do get the news. He doesn't laugh at it.) He had his own plans for how he'd spread the good word in life, but of course, Helio had other plans. (Nothing Buddy ever wanted really mattered. He knew that, he knew the will of Helio was the real thing that mattered, and everything else was just a small list of preapproved extracurriculars in the syllabus of his life.)
He can't be upset about this.
He shouldn't be upset about this.
This is his reward.
This place and these people and this god are his reward for a life of service and devotion and walking in the light.
It's not his place to be upset about his own reward. Kristen got upset when she went to heaven, when she met Helio, and look where that got her.
Look... look where that got her.
He thinks he hates her. For looking at him like that. All the ways she looked at him. Like he was something pitiful and contemptible. Someone she needed to threaten away from her little brother. Someone she has to double and triple check if he's going to revive her when he's under magical oath to do just that or lose his connection to a divinity she threw away after being chosen.
And then. In that last moment, she looked at him and he saw grief and horror and caring. Like his death was awful and unfair and tragic.
And he thinks maybe he hates her for that. For challenging him every conversation they had and looking at him like she knew something he didn't. Like she was above him. Like killing your own god twice in life is a preferable fate to living for the promise of eternal sunlight and cornbread in death. A promise which was kept to him.
Kristen was promised to Helio, too.
And he can't unsee her face. He can't move along and focus on what truly matters (Helio, the church, spreading the word, doling out divine punishment when needed) because he's reached the end. There is nothing left. Only this bright sunny cornfield and a god who... is nice. And who cares about him, personally. He got Buddy's name wrong the first and only time they held audience.
He thinks he hates Kristen, and he hates that that hatred isn't immediately squashed out of his soul just by being here. In paradise. Where he belongs. Where every follower of Helio belongs. Where he never has to have anyone look at him the way Kristen did ever again.
I don't think Buddy Dawn asks Helio any questions. Because how do you ask the god you devoted every waking minute of your life to, 'Why do I hate it here? Why does this feel like hell?'
i'm so fucked up by buddy dawn oh my god, dying by his party members blade, kristen immediately trying everything she could to revive him, kristen who has been there herself, kristen who has died and seen the same god buddy will see, kristen didn't even hesitate to try to save him
oh my god i need them to have a very long deep conversation about religion
buddy dawn cannot raise himself from the grave.
buddy dawn is not a chosen one.
buddy dawn is a child.
buddy dawn was manipulated by organized religion through no fault of his own, most likely since he was born.
buddy dawn had his throat slit by people he probably considered good friends.
buddy dawn is kristen applebees in a different—worse—life.
buddy dawn is dead, and there’s a good fucking chance helio won’t answer his questions.
SHOUT OUT TO THE CLERICS WHO’VE DIED
WHO’S GONNA HEAL YOU FUCKERS WHEN THE CLERICS ARE DEAD?
Biggest D20 theory I'm sold on being true is that Buddy is going to come back The Good Kind of Christian after Helio directly tells him he doesn't want his followers to be the way they've been in show up till now.
Failing that, however, I think Buddy will have turned out to be in on his "murder", with the Dawns having been followers of Ankarna this whole time.
Putting aside how much I want the former to be true, the latter seems most likely. Why else would they need to lie in prayer? That could just be backstory lore to the Devil's Honey, but it seems so obviously relevant to the situation at hand. It could still possibly just be Bobby, though, with Buddy being a genuine pawn.
I Don't Want Your Money,
I Dont Want Your Crown.
See, I've Come To Burn Your Kingdom Down.
Kipperlily Copperkettle & Buddy Dawn || Dimension 20: Fantasy High: Junior Year
Everyone is talking about the similarities between Kristen, Lucy, and Buddy (ie. dead or formerly dead clerics, the minis in the same poses) but nobody is talking about how they were all killed by betrayal
Lucy was betrayed by the Ratgrinders (probably)
Buddy was betrayed by Kipperlilly specifically
But Kristen
Kristen was LITERALLY KILLED BY CORN in her first day of school as a CORN CLERIC
The dead Ratgrinder clerics were betrayed by their party and Kristen was betrayed by the domain of her God
I don't know if this amounts to anything but it makes me want to cry
TW: Blood, murder, character death, spoilers for FHJY ep 15
guys idk how to add a cut on mobile just scroll rlly fast
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this scene lives rent free in my head i had to animate it, even if it is kinda bad
i keep having this dream where your blood is turning my hands into river stones, and i keep waking up to pale white sunlight
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every time buddy talks i am truly just like what is this guy’s fucking deal
the sun's out. where's helio?
he's supposed to be saved. buddy is supposed to be saved. why isn't he saved?
fandom: please brennan. we need buddy dawn to live and leave helio
the monkeys paw curls
