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Anyone else uncomfortable when they aren’t experiencing an extreme emotion?

My therapist made a good point. I haven’t talked to you even in messages, like a conversation, in four years. I can’t keep dragging this out. I keep trying to hold on to you but all it’s doing is hurting me. But how do I let you go when you are still the only thing that feels safe and comfortable? It all hurts

How can I explain to people that I can’t just let you go. You’re the one safe and comfortable thing in my life you are the only thing that can take away any of this hurt. And it hurts. All. The. Time.

I really wonder if I have repressed memories. I have a bad memory in general so it could just be that, but I don’t remember much of my childhood. I have random moments that I remember but I don’t know what is normal to remember in terms of how much. My psychiatrist said my symptoms sound like PTSD but the only traumatic thing I can recall is medical trauma. Medical trauma is very real and can cause PTSD and I do think it could be from that but it also feels like something is missing, there’s just a lot of things that make me wonder.

I think I’m splitting. Boo