"Why Do You Vent About Your Relationship Issues So Much? Isn't That Just Selfish??"

"Why do you vent about your relationship issues so much? Isn't that just selfish??"

I do it because it's been the only thing on my mind for the past several weeks, and I'm tired of pretending like I feel happy about my friendships.

Every time I build a genuine and happy connection to someone, something goes wrong and it always ends up with me no longer being friends with them, either by them cutting me off or me doing it myself to save myself the heartbreak.

At this point, I should cut all of my friends out of my life and die alone, because I know I'm going to lose them too.

It's genuinely so tiring having to think about that all of the time, I mean, I literally landed in the mental hospital after I threatened to kill myself because I felt unloved for Christ sake.

I hate being like this so much. WHY CAN'T I JUST FUCKING HAVE A MEANINGFUL FRIENDSHIP THAT ACTUALLY LASTS???

My empathy works like a god damn swingset lmao

"All autistics have low empathy" - This statement is wrong.

"Autistics having low empathy is a MYTH, we actually have HIGH empathy!" - This statement is ALSO wrong.

Autistics can have low empathy, they can have high empathy, they can have learned empathy. The myth would be that all autistics only experience one end of the empathy spectrum.

In spreading around misinformation that autistics actually have high empathy, you are disregarding the autistics who do have low empathy. And vice versa.

I feel so out of place

and I don’t really know who I am

and half the time I don’t know how I feel until I feel like I might burst because of what I’m feeling

and I’m so tired

and I wish I never existed

and I wish I could start my life all over again

and I I wish I could do everything I want to in this lifetime

and I wish I knew what I want for my future

but I also kinda wish I never existed to begin with.

It's funny how I'm sitting here on my bedroom floor crying over you while you're probably just going on about your day perfectly fine.

I'm starting to think you really just don't care.

I think. I'm just. Done trying.

Do whatever you want.

I love you strangers in my phone!

I love you Internet numbers!

I love you online validation!

if my fp saw my angry mean gross vents and posts on this blog i feel like theyd stop caring about me and abandon me because no one cares about the angry person people only care about the sad ones