I Actually Didn't Know Anyone Voted On This But Wow That's A Lot, Anyway

I actually didn't know anyone voted on this but wow that's a lot, anyway

No slicing till tomorrow pinky swear

On a side note, why are people posting there sh so convincing with saying it's SFX

Maybe I'm a fuckin dumb ass but almost every time I see "fake SFX" and I go "ohhh!! I love SFX" and then it's pictures of cuts, like 7 times out of 10

I've been on this app for years??? You think would have learned

Crying pissing shitting I'm out of gauze.

Fuckkkkk

The store is closed tomorrow too

Ugh at least I was able to use the last bit to stop the bleeding for my shift today

But it means I gotta be clean tomorrow or I guess I don't what do you think chat?

Rebloging this, I am currently 141 kg (weight reveal yay.) honestly here to just be able to live

Reblog, like or comment if you are or have been obese. I need more mutuals who understands what is being overweight🧡

I can't wait till I get my second job, two jobs means always moving!!! EEP!!!

I think I hit beans

Oops fuck

I forgot that scars are tougher to cut through, I've been cutting on the same arm almost every night for the past month and that bitch tough as shit

I was ventureing into a new spot and gave it the same push as before

Oh fuck

I can't tell if it's beans or not holy shit

It looks a lil different than my regular styros, and feels different too I can feel it in my hand Wich is weird

Fuck me Man I hope it's just a deep styro

I just looked again, it's bulging out a bit. Fuck did I just hit baby beans

She's still bleeding a bit wow

I'm gonna clean up and pass out

UPDATE: it was beans. Holy fuck god damit it just keeps oozing, I'm gonna put a bandaid on it Lucky it's small and not bulging out to much, holy fuck. I don't like this, I don't fuck with beans they scare the shit out of me styros are perfect for me, deep enough to scar and be satisfying anything more scares me

Kinda evil and messed up rambling, tags have TWs

I finally got the courage to cut again, nothing as deep as before, I really scared the shit out of myself last time so new rule, no cutting during disassociation or depersonalization episodes, way to fuckin reckless

That sounds goofy as fuck "no cutting while in a bad episode, gotta do that shit in a good mental state" honestly at this point it's a sleep aid am I even actually mentally ill? I'm probably just an attention seeking whore you know? honestly I should just stop. gauze is expensive and I shouldn't be wasting money just for attention. If I want attention so bad I'm sure there are plenty of men who will have their way with me I'm not even worth any money I'm too gross. I'm a disgusting awful thing, not even a person that title is too good for me.

And to think I'm actually "needed"? I should just kill myself shouldn't I? Get it done and over if I left all my money too him at least ide be worth something

But if that's the case why not live? Spend every waking moment working, being something useful to him, get as much money as possible all for him that's why I can't kill myself, he deserves a good life and the second I can't help with that he might as well kill me.

After days of sh, porn and EDs being on my timeline

Now it's full of trans fems, thank you to whatever goddess is watching over me right now I think i did need a break from it all<3

Anyway this is now a queer people appreciation post

Ily queer people in whatever fashion that may be

Also shout out to trans fems for making me smile rather than hate myself<3

Now go say something nice about yourself everyone I dare you, actually say 10 nice things about yourselves