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CHAPTER 115 OF TBHK BROKE ME >:(

the one time he gets to grow up and nene isn’t by his side…he probably remembered her too but never got to see her or hold her before he eventually forgot!!!! AIDAIRO STOP THIS MADNESS :(

wait.. im confused... are you actually christian?

or are you also just forced to your parents views?

Yes.

It's complicated LMAO

I would call myself Christian, but not subscribed to the same sort of belief my parents are? From a young age they've taken me to church, involved religion in every aspect of my life, and in a way tainted it for me. Same goes for the church I go to. At the same time, I think I still believe in a higher power. I've gotten more cynical as I've grown older, and though I've kept silent about it, my views almost always clash with theirs. I think a big part of it is they've (my parents and the church) uphold themselves to such a standard of being a good person, they've forgotten that being a good person requires being, well, good. Not self righteous or wise or inherently more morally upstanding, but being kind and understanding and loving. How am I to believe in a god that loves everyone when my parents preach about loving my neighbor but scoff when I want to donate to a trans charity? Or when my church tells me that God is kind, and then turn and tell a rape victim she must forgive her rapist? God is patient until you are in the wrong, then you demand forgiveness.

Why is being kind the rule and the homosexuals, and the poor, and the different, the exception? There shouldn't be an exception. Why am I drawing lines between me and them? What kind of belief system has the right to make me wonder, had my parents known I was queer, if they would love me less? If I am a child of god, and so are my parents, and my friends, then so are all those they condemn to hell.

In summary, sorry for the little rant haha, I am christian. I think, just not in the way my parents planned

Here's my OC and his cousin dealing with horn shedding! And yes, he's kinda not the brightest when remembering how to do proper horn care.😅 inspired by @coastyreef and her Oni idea!

My elaborate metaphor for endometriosis

Post about Tumblr etiquette and basic stuff that I'm trying to make as entertaining and colourful as possible because I have the attention span of a stick and if I saw long paragraphs like this too, i would go " I will scroll ".

Part 2: here you go. it’s very short, i think. 

CW! Twitter discourse (indicated, Techno's boundaries being broken. sleepytwt disbanding??, it's short, don't worry).

Hi hi hello to you all coming from Twitter after whatever the fuck happened. Sit down have a drink, take a sip, have a cookie (...cept for chocolate chip, those are mine). It's pretty safe here as long as nobody drags in the cousin we all dislike.

Tags, hashtags, not shopping tags.

We use the tags as a filtering system, basically. Like stuff about:

Tubbo in general? #tubbo .

Stuff about character Tubbo? #c!tubbo / #c!Tubbo .

Stuff about content creator Tubbo? #cc!Tubbo / #cc!tubbo.

etc. etc.

We try to keep positive stuff in the main tags (in general tags), occasionally there will be stuff about Twitter or negativity about them but generally, as far as I've seen, they aren't heavy, or they are but they're pretty solid arguments that aren't like, loud, yelling, or gives off that vibe, I suppose.

#cw!__ / #tw!__ / #neg!__ / #__ crit+ more can be tagged if needed or requested (as in, if the tag isn't already there). Depends on who runs the blog. Whether you need to send in a ask, or just reply to the post, or DM. Up to the person to runs the blog.

-- if there's more I'll add, when I think of them later --

Reblog button my beloved

I'm not : hey I study the algorithm I know shit!

But IG and Twitter runs on likes / retweets. Tumblr runs on reblogs. yeah, yeah, that small button that's like, circular next to the heart.

Looks like recycling, something the government failed to incorporate well. Looks like the recycling symbol doesn't it? yeah it just lacks one arrow and it's not a triangle.

Liking posts? Great that's nice buddy, thank you (not /s)

Reblogging? Mmmmmmm THATS THE SHIT. SEEING THAT IN MY NOTIFS? serotonin. absolutely.

please, it's like the one thing that's keeping this platform afloat and information / works spreading. also it helps spreads the post. Liking doesn't do much, most it does is be a bookmark just so you can look for that post later.

"but I don't want my blog to be flooded with stuff I reblog!" No, no, dude (gender neutral), that's how you get people to follow and find your stuff. You really worried about people being annoyed, can't find what you actually post? Refer to part 1, tags as a filtering system. Make a reference post or whatever, pin it to your profile or make a Carrd, link that stuff. If people are really that lazy to go to the hashtag, doom scrolling works for them.

Filtering, yes great mechanic.

Filtering, now, this isn't for other people to find your stuff and save them time of scrolling. It's somewhat related to the tagging system of Tumblr but it's for yourself this time, very cool.

- Gear icon. Top right corner of your profile.

- Account settings.

- Filtering.

Two options : tag filter and content filter.

Tags filter is self-explanatory. You enter the tag you don't wanna see, and done. You'll never see that tag, or any posts that have that tag again.

Content filter filters posts with certain text content. Certain- as in the text you've entered, and decided you never wanna see em.

Congratulations, your eyes didn't lose HP today.

Bruh when was this posted.

Haven't used Tumblr on a laptop for a while, but I'm pretty sure it says, uh somewhere.

But on phone:

Three dots. Top right of the post.

There it is, like, rightttt there, above that rectangle pop up thing, there's the date. Have fun seeing how dead some blogs are.

My post is getting drowned :(

Uh, reblog your own post or pin it to your own profile. That works.

So does the post drowning and disappearing into oblivion. Tapping a button requires a lot of work and if ya don't want to, shruggie.

Ayo, if you're gonna justify something about someone or any situation, be specific and as clear as you possibly could, if you mess up a little with your argument, that's fine. Edit button is a pencil on the post, you can make another post or reblog the OG post to clarify.

Use tone indicators. There are neurodivergent people on this platform, like, every platform basically. Save us some worrying and head scratching.

Use the tone indicators, and don't use them as a joke (unless it's between like close moots, and your uh following gets it then yeah I suppose that's fine, but clarify in the tags would be great).

Typing out /insert_acronym_here isn't a time consuming thing. ( A simple Google search of Reddit tone indicators can give you a list if you need it ).

Last thing I can really think of is: the hashtags is where all the short hot takes, that good shit, is.

Not just in general, in posts too ;) .

also why are people on Twitter spreading the #kick____ with saying that you shouldn't do that. Your intentions are great m8, but uh, ಠ◡ಠ that's a... It's a method.

k welcome to tumblr. Each app has their like etiquette, this is Tumblr's or the most I can think of. no you can't have my chocolate chip cookies, have a good stay.

I'm going to bed like man, I'm sleepy. (Also since people is coming in because of like, the stuff related to SBI going on twitter, gonna mainly tag that. Hope that's chill)

Also, it's Ramadan. claps, Ramadan Mubarak, have a good one y'all. (whispers hey, hey send some love to fellow Muslims, hope you're doing well.)

Edit:

15/4/2021 , 6.42 PM --- Filtering (new section)

today’s warm up includes drawing xemnal wearing one of my favorite outfits from @usedbandaid ‘s webtoons series “Lore Olympus”. I love the series, and if you’d like to check it out, its free on webtoons, a desktop and mobile platform for reading and or publishing comics. 

this outfit makes me feel like this would be an alternate au from @thedivineyaoigirl and I’s rp storyline where xemmy does get norted, and this would be the early stages

I just want a day of down time, a day where i have no interruptions, just me and 🕸️, where I can give him proper attention, the past few days have been fucking exhausting with other people around.

Thx for tagging me, Boo😘 but this is mine n I don’t rly get it😭

@mixtape-racha @tadashisdisaster

my best friend sent me this test saying it was cute and all but i just felt insulted lmao

tagging: @leewonkyeom @hanniedream @wqnwoos @nishloves @lleercy @ikigaisvt (no pressure ofc)

New oc alert I’m sane

Not a real living person. More like a possessed doll than anything. Somehow the daughter of Dale. Her name is Dallas.

did i seriously post this on the side blog without batting an eye

i remember there was this one time floea got mistaken for a splatoon oc somehow

Thank you for mentioning A night at the mall 🥺

Jungkook One Shots (XXXVII)

* s - contains smut

Addicted by @sparklingchim s wc~2.9k / rich boy!Jungkook, established relationship, college au, PWP Summary: Your boyfie Jungkook fucking you silly.

Joyride by @sunshinerainbowsbts s wc~12.8k / ft KTH, college au, strangers au Summary: Senior year spring break sucks, thanks to the annoying spoiled little rich boy who won’t stop trying to get your attention. When a scenic drive in his ridiculously expensive sports car goes wrong, you meet two sexy mechanics who decide to teach him a lesson - and show you the real meaning of “joyride.”

Confessing to My Crush *NOT CLICKBAIT* by @scriptaed wc~3.8k / friends to lovers Summary: When your best friend Jungkook asks you to partake in his next video on YouTube, the shock of the script’s title quickly becomes the least of your worries; because unbeknownst to you, while you’re spending time crestfallen over a confession you could only wish was reality, Jungkook treats the entire video as practice for the real deal.

Trap by @jiminpitys wc~3.9k / established relationship, idol au Summary: In which you show up at your boyfriend’s concert soundcheck as a surprise, and to your own, he’s wearing an outfit that’s bound to make you feel a certain way.

Paint Me Naked by @gimmethatagustd s wc~16k / artist!Jungkook, college au Summary: After the mysteriously hot guy in your university class starts taking an interest in you, should you really trust that he’s not like all the other college fuckboys? Especially when his best friend is the guy who broke your heart?

A Night at the Mall by @bunnybubae s wc~8.6k / friends to lovers Summary: Your best friend Jungkook works as a security guard at the mall and everything takes an interesting twist when you go to visit him during is shift on a friday night.

Spin by @hamsterclaw s wc~7.5k / solo idol!Jungkook, manager!reader Summary: You were part of Jungkook’s management team, you know better than most the restrictions and rigid rules he has to live his public life by. If only he wasn’t so damn irresistible.

(Road)tripping for You by @latetaektalk wc~31k / strangers to lovers, roadtrip au Summary: It was just supposed to be a roadtrip; your best friend, her boyfriend, his best friend, and you. But it gets a little more complicated (and a whole lot more awkward) when your best friend and her boyfriend have to drop out and you’re left to go on the trip with none other than Jeon Jungkook, a complete stranger. Well, a complete stranger except for the fact that you hooked up two years ago.

Keep Driving by @ugh-yoongi wc~6.8k / friends to lovers Summary: The one where you and Jeongguk go on a road trip to nowhere and finally say all the things you usually hold back, and then you just keep driving.

Jealousy by @jkeuphoriadreamland s wc~2.3k / established relationship Summary: All of this over a fucking perilla leaf!?

Thank you so much, I’m glad to be part of this post! 🥺💜

📕BTS Fic Reads - 2022 June

Happy to share these fics read, reblogged, and commented on. I think June was a good collection and I might have read some of these fics at least twice over the years. Some of these have been in my drafts since 2020 😭 but I enjoyed reading again because I finally get to scream about these fics.

💌 Thank you to all the authors! I am, once again, amazed at the quality of fics and stories we get. I wish I can do more to show my appreciation. Lots of love!   💌

Note: if link doesn’t work, click on author link and go to their masterlist

🥕 Ongoing - most recent chapter [as of date this list was posted]

🥕 Completed - drabbles | one shots | series

🥕 S - smut | F - fluff | A - angst

Mostly Mature, 18+ only please

I read different members, different genres so please take note of the tags, description per fic

Don’t forget to reblog/comment on author’s work, too 😊

[around 70 fics]

Continua a leggere

Chat i really want to shoutout time

@icy-saturday. <- AMAZING STORIES AND STUFF I LOVE THEM /P

@justanapplenothinghere <- they are simply MY BIGGEST FAN because everytime i post something is always them who likes the post first :3 I LOVE YOU TOO /P

@futilemp3 <- AMAZING ART. I LOVE YOU /P. also i love your style cuz i litteraly am in love with it.

I love that boy,I want that card.I love his voice. I love.

hmm, i love what harr says too! ♡

squid game logic but alternative timeline - Squid Game Logic (on Wattpad) https://www.wattpad.com/1294362177-squid-game-logic-but-alternative-timeline-squid?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_reading&wp_uname=KaruiEddus123&wp_originator=3kS1EaElRQB5UnKIkGbpLEoDIv327V8faiVx%2BxV6cf5HEZU%2FdeNJDt6N8NHR%2FczKhOl0SGI6Ipn9lR5o7Fwathhr1p8N4IxURW3t9LzXzgSte5K67wctnfbUGmqmTLI5 In this alternate timeline, the player dies because of the Noob, but she herself has already forgotten about it.But there are those who still remember that fateful birthday...

Since Ijichi's working most of the time, how do you find time to hang out?

It's true that Kiyo-kun do most of the heavy lifting, but he told me that compared to what was like in 2018, labour division in Jujutsu society is slowly getting better. He still does plenty of home office working, but he also gets to use his day offs now.

𝔸𝕟𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕤𝕖 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕕𝕒𝕪𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕪 𝕡𝕚𝕔𝕜 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕕𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕤. 𝔸𝕝𝕤𝕠 𝕒𝕟𝕪𝕥𝕚𝕞𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕀𝕛𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕚 𝕞𝕒𝕟𝕒𝕘𝕖 𝕥𝕠 𝕗𝕚𝕟𝕚𝕤𝕙 𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕛𝕠𝕓 𝕖𝕒𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕖𝕣 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕟 𝕖𝕩𝕡𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕕, 𝕙𝕖 𝕔𝕠𝕞𝕖𝕤 𝕠𝕧𝕖𝕣 𝕥𝕠 𝕥𝕙𝕖 ℍ𝕚𝕕𝕕𝕖𝕟 ℝ𝕠𝕠𝕞 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕒 𝕧𝕚𝕤𝕚𝕥, 𝕠𝕣 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕪 𝕛𝕦𝕤𝕥 𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕘 𝕒𝕣𝕠𝕦𝕟𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕤𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕠𝕝.

I still didn't had the chance to visit his apartment. Yuuji-sensei told me he stayed there for a while, during the time he 'played dead'.

Either way, we also text regularly. Speaking of which, he just sent me a picture. "Driving around Harajuku now, Okkotsu-san stopped to get a snack. Thinking of you while looking at the cream puffs set~"

𝔸𝕟𝕕 𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕔𝕠𝕞𝕖𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕢𝕦𝕖𝕤𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤: 𝕤𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕀 𝕥𝕖𝕩𝕥 𝕙𝕚𝕞 𝕥𝕠 𝕓𝕦𝕪 𝕚𝕥? 𝕀𝕤 𝕙𝕖 𝕥𝕠𝕠 𝕓𝕦𝕤𝕪 𝕟𝕠𝕨? 𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕚𝕗 𝕙𝕖 𝕔𝕒𝕟'𝕥 𝕒𝕗𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕕 𝕚𝕥?

Junpei!

how often do you punch mahito in junpei's dreams

A month or so. Though this gap got longer with time.

𝕀 𝕕𝕠𝕟'𝕥 𝕟𝕖𝕖𝕕 𝕥𝕠 𝕤𝕝𝕖𝕖𝕡 𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕦𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕪, 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕨𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕀 𝕕𝕠, 𝕀 𝕛𝕦𝕤𝕥 𝕕𝕠𝕟'𝕥 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕒𝕤 𝕞𝕦𝕔𝕙 𝕟𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥𝕞𝕒𝕣𝕖𝕤 𝕒𝕤 𝕀 𝕦𝕤𝕖𝕕 𝕥𝕠.

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Malachite Character Analysis

(Warning: Mention and analysis of a very toxic relationship.)

¨These two are really bad for each other. Malachite was formed through extortion and deception and held together out of revenge. Malachite is the worst relationship imaginable.¨

Malachite was a character that was introduced in Season 1 finale “Jailbreak” after Jasper and Lapis Lazuli decided to fuse together to defeat the Crystal gems.

In this post i’m going to examine Malachite as a fusion and what she tells us about Jasper and Lapis and their relationship.

Lapis Lazuli´s and Jasper´s backstory:

First let’s talk a bit about Jasper’s and Lapis´ past:

Steven first found Lapis trapped in a Gem mirror, after spending some time with her, he decided to free her and later healed her gem so she could return to Homeworld by using her magic water wings.

In the episode ¨Same Old World¨ (Season 3) Lapis tells to Steven her backstory about how she got trapped in that mirror.

¨It was thousands of years ago. I was only meant to visit for a short time, but I got caught in the middle of the war. It was awful. I tried to run, but… I was picked up by a Homeworld soldier and confused for a Crystal Gem, and used as a tool.¨

Lapis talks about what happened to her as it was an accident, a terrible tragedy in which there´s not only one person she can blame for all her problems. In a way, she´s potrayed as victim of the Gem war, she was on Earth for a visit and then she was meant to leave.

She was treated as a prisoner from gems who were supposed to be on her side, used as a tool and left behind on Earth like her life was nothing.

¨It soon became clear that there was no hope in stopping the rebellion. All of the Homeworld Gems fled, and all the panic of escaping Earth, I was left behind. And there I stayed. Freedom in my sight, but out of reach for ages, until I was found.¨

Then she spend thousands of year trapped in that mirror, alone, with no one to talk to, with her gem cracked on top of that. Anyone stuck in that situation who quickly became insane and would definely not be the same person that used to be before the traumatic event.

It´s not suprising Lapis was so angry when Steven free her from that mirror. While she didn´t want to get revenge on the Crystal gems she still had a lot of anger and frustration buried deep inside her.

As for Jasper, her backstory differs greatly from Lapis´:

Jasper was born in the middle of the gem war in the Beta Kindergarten, in less than a few hours she took more than 80+ Crystal gems impressing many Homeworld gems due to her strengh.

She was considered a gem role model in Homeworld, she was an example of what a quartz soldier should be. The issue was that depiste being highly respected by her peers, she couldn´t get out of her mind that she still was a gem that came from the worst kindergarten on Earth.

According to Peridot on ¨Beta¨ most gems born in the Beta Kirdengarten came out flawed or defective in some way. This was because Homeworld rushed the place during the war to get more gems. 

Jasper was one of the few gems that came out ¨right¨ to the point she could be considered a superquartz soldier by Homeworld´s standards.

However not matter how much praised she got, Jasper thought there was something with her because of her origins. This made her develop an  obsession with proving her power and getting more and more self-destructive as time passed.

¨Jasper is a bully in the truest sense. Deep down, she’s afraid there’s something wrong with her, so she has to feed her ego. She has to put other Gems down to stay on top. Who she is and where she’s from gnaws at her all the time. She has a fantastic reputation, she’s considered the greatest Quartz soldier produced on Earth, and that might impress other Gems, but it will never be good enough for her.¨

¨Because she loves honor, fighting, making her mark, and winning the battle, she’ll actually go against her programming a little bit just to be the winner. So she can be self-destructive at times. She is tragically obsessed with proving her superiority.¨

Why is all this important? Well, it´s essential to know where these characters are coming from to understand why they decided to be Malachite in first place and why they were a recipe for disaster the moment that Jasper asked Lapis to fuse with her.

On one hand you have a gem that was spent thousands of years trapped against her will and carries a lot on anger and trauma inside her. On the other hand the other gem also has war trauma, it’s very self-destructive and thinks she’s horrible. Mix these two together and what you get is a unstable fusion made of hate and revenge.

Malachite as a metaphor for Jasper´s and Lapis´ relationship

Now that i have talked about their past. I going examine the scene in which they fuse into Malachite in “Jailbreak” and what the fusion tells us about their relationship.

After being defeated by Garnet (a fusion) Jasper decides to find someone she could also fuse with to win against the Crystal gems.

She spot Lapis Lazuli and grabs her before she can escape flying. She convinces Lapis to fuse with her to get revenge on Crystal gems. She reminds her how they used her and how they are traitors to Homeworld.

¨These Gems, they’re traitors to their Homeworld. They kept you prisoner. They used you.¨

It’s worth of pointing out that Jasper never tries to “force” Lapis into fusing with her in this scene. She tries using her, true, but she waits until Lapis accepts and gives her hand.

Now, Jasper could care less about Lapis in this scene. For her, she was only just a tool to get revenge on the Crystal gems and Rose Quartz. There wasn’t any “trust” between the two.

As for Lapis, she tried escaping from Jasper first but after realising that she was about to being used again by someone who had kept her prisoner in the ship she snapped and decided to stop being treated like an object for once.

Moments later after they fused into Malachite, Lapis took control of the fusion’s water powers and chained her down, dragging her into the bottow of the ocean.

¨I’m done being everyone’s prisoner. Now you’re my prisoner! And I’m never letting you go! Let’s stay on this miserable planet… together!¨

As Lapis stated, she was done of being everyone’s prisioner, she was tired of being treated like a tool by everyone. Control in her own life was something was constanly taken away from her. So by trapping Malachite (and herself) meant that was able to make choices again.

As for Jasper, i already mentioned that she only wanted Lapis to become more powerful. Jasper is a gem that shown to be obssesed with winning and fighting. She doesn’t accept defeat easily and the more she loses, more self-destructive she gets.

In “Chilled tid” Steven gets a glimpse of what Malachite’s mind looked like: Lapis and Jasper were fighting over the control of the fusion. They both were completely exhausted and beaten.

There’s a visual methaphor about how they are both chained to Malachite in this dream sequence. This is very much like how it’s really difficult to get out of a toxic/codependent relationship and how one feels trapped with no hope of getting out of it.

Another interesting detail is when Jasper takes control, all she’s able to say is “YOU! YOU! YOU!¨ to Steven. It shows how crazy she gets when can’t win a battle and how her mind deteriorates in the process.

The episode "Alone at the Sea” explores their relationship even further by showing which their main motivations were and how it affect them both.

First of all, the reason of why Lapis didn’t want to be near the ocean again it’s because it remind her of time she used to be fused with Jasper:

“Look, Lapis, I know you spent a really long time fused with Jasper at the bottom of the ocean, but you’re not Malachite anymore.And water is a part of who you are. You can’t let one bad experience take that away from you.”

During the boat trip Lapis keeps blaming herself for the events of Ocean gem and Malachite:

“It’s my fault. I’m the one to blame.”

“I'm terrible! I did horrible things! I-I broke your dad’s leg. I stole Earth's ocean! Go on! Tell me I’m wrong!”

She describes herself as “terrible”. She thinks she don’t deserve the kindness that Steven has giving her during all this time.

Lapis is a character who usually stuggles with change in the series. She thinks she won’t be able to revover from her trauma, that she can’t grow and become a better person.

She also mentions to him how she can’t help but think of when she used to be Malachite.

“I’m really trying to enjoy it out here, but… I can’t stop thinking about being fused as Malachite, how I used all my strength to hold her down in the ocean, and how I was always battling against Jasper to keep her bound to me.”

“But it’s not like that anymore. You don’t have to be with Jasper.”

“That’s not it. I… I miss her.”

“What?!”

“We were fused for so long.”

This implies that after spending so much together Jasper and Lapis became codependent of each other. Steven, who was still a teenager in this scene, couldn’t fully get grasp of why his friend who missed being in a terrible situation like that.

And Lapis was not the only one that felt like this.

When Jasper shows up, she shows she has been missing Lapis as well and she has been tracking her to find her.

In a very rare moment that would look out of character for her Jasper kneels down and begs for Lapis to be Malachite again.

¨Let’s be Malachite again.¨  

Keep in mind that until know Jasper has always been potrayed as someone who would do anything it takes to win. She’s tough gem soldier who isn’t afraid of her enemies. She’s strong,cocky and agressive. So why did she ask to be Malachite again?

“I was wrong about fusion. You made me understand! Malachite was bigger and stronger than both of us! We could fly!”

She emphazises Malachite’s power when they were fused. How strong and powerful she was.

This makes sense considering the factthat Jasper thinks of herself as “horrible” and “defective”. She has a huge inferiority complex that comes from how Earth gems are perceived on Homeworld.

So, being Malachite made her feel “complete” and cover up her insecurities and personal issues.

“It’ll be better this time. I’ve changed. You’ve changed me. I’m the only one who can handle your kind of power.”

She tries to convince Lapis by saying how she’s the only one that can “handle” her powers. This shows again how self-destructive Jasper can be as she was willing to go through that pain again just to feel powerful.

Another reason, i think, it’s because she partially blames herself for Pink Diamond’d shattering. She probably wanted to be punished for her “failure” or wanted someone who she could follow again much like she started calling Steven “My diamond” in “Homeworld Bound”.

As for Lapis, there are a few reasons she had her doubts of being Malachite again:

1) The fusion was a way for her to gain control back on her own life. She was tired of being tricked and used by everyone that she wanted to take her anger on someone.

“I was terrible to you. I liked taking everything out on you. I needed to, I-I hated you. It was bad!”

Lapis wanted someone to go through the same pain she had to endure for thousands of years. And that someone could have anyone. She choosed Jasper as she was the closest one to her in “Jailbreak”.

When she was separated, she felt she suddenly lost that great amount of power that the fusion gave to her. She lost that “control” she had.

2) During “Alone at the sea” she describes herself many times as terrible and how she doesn’t deserve the boat trip. She keeps blaming herself from her actions and how she can’t get better.

Jasper even calls Lapis a monster in a moment, stating they very much alike:

“You can’t lie to me. I’ve seen what you’re capable of. I thought I was a brute, but you… you’re a monster.”

Lapis wanted to go back to be Malachite since she thought it was what someone as terrible as her deserved. She thought she couldn’t grow into good person. Gems terrible as her and Jasper were meant to be together.

But Lapis knew better than getting trapped in that fusion again.

“NO! ”“What we had wasn’t healthy. I never want to feel like I felt with you. Never again! So just, go!”

In the end she refused to fuse with Jasper and realised how toxic their relationship was. It was a terrible experience and something she didn’t want to take part in ever again.

Malachite as a character

Being fusion who is supposed to represent an very toxic relationship, Malachite is potrayed as very agressive, unstable and sadistic. She´s quite unpredictable since her actitude depends of who it´s taking control of her.

When her eyes are ¨cat shaped¨ it usually means that Jasper is the one controlling her. If her eyes are wide and open, it indicates Lapis is the one in control.

It´s difficult to affirm Malachite ever had her own personality at all,as her components were always fighting over her power and she was a mere tool from the moment she was ¨born¨.

¨A fusion like theirs is unstable, bound together by anger and mistrust. If that bond snaps, their anger will take over, and destroy.¨  

She ends up being a pretty tragic character as her whole existence was filled by hatred and suffering to the point she didn´t know anything else. Unlike other characters from Steven universe she wasn´t given the chance to redeem herself.

It´s interesting how Malachite in ¨Super Watermelon Island¨ kept exchaching between ¨we¨ and ¨I¨ to talk about herself. This indicates again that she wasn´t fully her own person.

If Lapis and Jasper were to fuse again after having worked through their issues, Malachite would be a more stable and less agressive fusion. But that´s very unlikely to happen since it was a terrifying experience for both of them.

In conclusion: Malachite is character with tons of metaphors that talks a lot about Lapis and Jasper and who they are as people. She serves to show how toxic some relationships can get when there is a lack of basic trust and understanding and is created by mutual hatred. It´s an example of how complicated relationships can be and how a person it´s really more complex they appear to be.

I don't want to read philosophy, I want to read Danganronpa Zero.

Okay, actually, I want to read both... But it's very difficult to decide which to choose.

Me after I draw random art of 2 guys from completely different peices of media just because I like the idea of them interacting 🙏