Worthless And Unlovable. - Tumblr Posts
But when they leave you all of a sudden for someone they fell in love with and lied to you about, you’re just expected to be ok with it. Break every promise they made to you? Abandon you out of nowhere? Turn everyone you ever knew against you? Just turn off your feelings because they they did it so easily. Because I’m so fucking easy to get over. Yell at me about my lack of self worth when you’re all the ones that did this to me.
“You can’t just switch off your feelings because the other person did.”
— Sophie Kinsella
This will never happen for me...
When you make someone fall in love with the darkest parts of you, there's nothing you can do that will scare them away. They will be yours forever because they already love all the fucked up bits and pieces of you.
Haunting Adeline - H. D. Carlton
And they use you for all your worth and kick you to the curb when they’re done with you. Cheat on you. Replace you. Abuse you. Turn on you. Turn everyone you know on you. Blame you for everything. Call you the toxic worthless one and say you never deserved anyone loving you in the first place. Every goddamn time.
Things that will never happen to me.
May you find someone who thinks your dorky ass is endearing.
Same with me but with every girl I’ve ever let trick me into thinking I matter. Last one not only lied cheated and replaced me, but still spent a year abusing me and telling me I don’t matter and don’t deserve respect until my replacement even came and said I don’t deserve to be loved and the only reason I existed was to bring them together. Both were sure to remind me that I don’t deserve anything permanent and that I am a disposable tool, not even a person. I’ve just accepted it now, there’s no point in fighting it or pretending I matter or deserve to be loved. I’m the worst thing that can possibly happen to someone according to all of them.
I no longer am gonna believe a guy when they say they love me and will always be there for me. Too many times now when I’m starting to believe that maybe I’m not alone, maybe someone really does care about me, they pull the rug out from under me and I end up feeling more and more used.
I think that I only get told that stuff because they wanna see what they can get out of me until they realize I just am as messed up as I say. I’m too much and they leave. 😣
I know I’m the problem. Everyone else says so.
i don’t get along with anyone
maybe i’m the problem
I can and always do give it but no one wants or appreciates it and sure as fuck doesn’t return it.
Having another self hatred night again tonight. Been going on for a couple days/nights straight. Though at this point I’m not sure if it could be classified as an event or just my natural state. I don’t know anymore. I can’t do anything without some form of harassment from some sources or another. I have no luck anywhere. I keep meeting people and liking them but it’s so clear that they don’t feel the same. It seems like a stupid thing to complain about I know. And I do like to be alone, but I also get lonely. More and more lately. And it’s hard having everyone always be against me. Not having anyone care about me or even want me around. Valued by no one. Loved by no one. Or even fucking liked. I hate being “nobodies type”. Worthless. Ugly. Unlovable. Never being anyone’s first choice or choice at all. Too much of a shitty person with a bad personality. Too ugly. Too worthless. Too not good enough to be loved by anyone...with the entire world being so clearly out of my league there’s no hope in even trying. I hate myself. I hate being me. And death is the only way to stop being me...I can only hope that I don’t live to see 2025. Ideally not even my birthday this year. I truly can’t do this anymore....I know it’s a stupid thing to complain about. And I know no one cares about me or my rants. Maybe that’s part of the reason here is a good place to type all of it out. Almost no one is going to read it. Those that do will skim it at best. Disregard it most likely. I have one or two random people that will just hit like on it just because they do that with all my posts for no reason. Then it will be buried by others. Like screaming into the void. Though maybe that will only make me feel lonelier...
How I know she doesn’t give a fuck me: I tell her the rest of the group is mocking and suicide baiting me and she doesn’t even respond to it. I fight with the group and she mocks me. But once I mention his name, she starts attacking me about “not saying that about him”. So clearly I don’t matter to you at all and you don’t need to even pretend. Yet you do. How unironically fake can you possibly be.
“How a person reacts to your sadness says a lot about how long they’re going to be in your life.”
— S. Z.
I don’t give someone all of myself to the point of self destruction: I’m selfish.
I do give someone all of myself to the point of self destruction and would like even the smallest percentage of their time attention and love to feel like I actually matter to them: I’m selfish.
Basically I can’t win no matter what I do and don’t do and I’m always the bad guy.
You’re not selfish for wanting the same energy and love you give. Always remember that.
HAH!!! I wish but no. I’m the “person” (if you can even call me one) that you ditch and say to my face that you’ll be better off without me. Then you go and be better off without me. Because I’m worthless and the worst thing that can ever happen to a person. Everyone is better off without me. Always have been. Always will be...
I’m that person you wish you kept in the long run
My unconditional love comes with near unconditional tolerance....if I love and care about you enough I’ll put up with a lot of abuse. Not like I have anyone else lining up to be with me like all of the ex’s that cheated on and replaced me. I’m a worthless commodity....though it would be nice if the “love” others felt for me came with a little tolerance. I never would have thought that wanting someone reciprocated love and attention, affection, and support. As well as not being neglected and cheated on, would be too much to ask for. I’m just not worth the trouble....even the smallest thing from me is intolerable....but I will still take all the abuse for as long as I can and then some.
Unconditional love isn't a free pass to hurt me.
As if me “being myself” would ever work since nobody does, would, or could ever like me. I have to chase after people because no one would ever chase after me. So few people ever come into my life and none of them ever stay. Because I’m not worth chasing. I’m not worth staying with. I’m not worth anything past whatever a person can has me for...and then they’re gone as soon as I’m no longer needed...because that’s all I matter for. Some of us just have nothing going for us and no one that will ever want to be with or stay with us. Or maybe it’s just me. Probably just me...if theres “someone for everyone”, then there’s an odd number of people out there. So that everyone but me has someone they have a shot with...
No I am definitely not. Not worthy. Of love. Or respect. Or to be treated decently or even like a person. I can’t do anything right. I am both useless and worthless. I deserve nothing good and everything bad. I have been told so many times but pretty much everyone and I have accepted that it is true. I’ve had more people saying that shit then anything good. I am ugly, worthless, less than human. Disposable tool. Useless. Good for nothing. And don’t deserve anything good in my life.
You. Are. worthy.
Even if you never drive. Even if you need help with basic tasks. Even if you need help with hygiene. Even if you’ll never work. Even if you’ll need help for the rest of your life. You’re. Still. Worthy.
Don’t let anyone tell you that you’re useless, or that you don’t deserve certain things. You’re amazing, and I see you.
Things that will never happen to me because I don’t matter to anyone.
being told you’re appreciated is one of the simplest yet incredibly uplifting things you can ever hear
I’m not worried. I know for a fact that one of them are missing me. No one ever does...all better off without me.
Whenever you miss me just remember you had me and I wasn't enough
I’m absolutely not a keeper, obviously...since no one ever bothers keeping me...
I have no life left in me AND I absolutely do not deserve to be loved at all. Half or otherwise.
