As If Me Being Myself Would Ever Work Since Nobody Does, Would, Or Could Ever Like Me. I Have To Chase

As if me “being myself” would ever work since nobody does, would, or could ever like me. I have to chase after people because no one would ever chase after me. So few people ever come into my life and none of them ever stay. Because I’m not worth chasing. I’m not worth staying with. I’m not worth anything past whatever a person can has me for...and then they’re gone as soon as I’m no longer needed...because that’s all I matter for. Some of us just have nothing going for us and no one that will ever want to be with or stay with us. Or maybe it’s just me. Probably just me...if theres “someone for everyone”, then there’s an odd number of people out there. So that everyone but me has someone they have a shot with...

It’s the constant guilt of being alive in a world that has never wanted me and never will. To the point where most of the time I’m just apologizing for being alive when no one wants me to be and taking up space where I’m not wanted or welcome.

My unconditional love comes with near unconditional tolerance....if I love and care about you enough I’ll put up with a lot of abuse. Not like I have anyone else lining up to be with me like all of the ex’s that cheated on and replaced me. I’m a worthless commodity....though it would be nice if the “love” others felt for me came with a little tolerance. I never would have thought that wanting someone reciprocated love and attention, affection, and support. As well as not being neglected and cheated on, would be too much to ask for. I’m just not worth the trouble....even the smallest thing from me is intolerable....but I will still take all the abuse for as long as I can and then some.

Unconditional love isn't a free pass to hurt me.

I say this to so many people and would kill to have someone say it back to me and actually mean it...

I think ‘I adore you’ is such a wonderful phrase,, it’s so soft and loving and feels so safe and comforting

Me, sadly.

Be warned I am actually uninteresting and better as an idea

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