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I know I'm not okay in the head but I'm scared of getting better because what if I won't be the same person anymore

what if the traits that define Me disappear

Thing is, I didn't go through everything I did to die. I'm not going down without a fight. I'm not going down, period. And anyone who hurt me, who wanted to see me give up... they'll have to make peace with that. Because I like being alive. And I'm going to fight for that with my nails scratching and teeth biting if I have to.

Wow! I love English class! Grammar makes a lot of sense to me and I’m good at it! It’s just a lot of rules to follow which I’m really good at and *loses two points on a grammar quiz because I find the use of a singular they to be grammatically acceptable* well then.

hm. perhaps i should not make ocs while in the Worst Mental State In The World(tm)

Shopping for Lolita dresses when you’re plus size is so difficult. I’ll see a SUPER cute dress and then the largest size is M.

At least hats can’t hurt me.

the professor on the syllabus: you get TWO days missed before you lose points. you will NEVER hand work in late.

professor in person: yeah i get it u_u it takes time to adapt to college ^w^ you'll just have a couple points off for this late work its ok i get it ^w^

Ever do shit that makes you go “damn that’s a shitty ally move” and then remember “wait, I’m not an ally, I’m literally The Thing(tm)”

And then you go “THAT MAKES IT WORSE!!!”

Wonder if ill get a free block again today because the teacher didnt realize i need to take the elevator (I AM IN A WHEELCHAIR)

If it happens again i am going to stop showing up to this class is2g

Stretches so hard that i collapse to the floor in a family guy death pose while blood flow escapes my head, only to be deafened while blood flow returns

got distracted from my math test earlier (it wasnt timed) and i got talking about moths. no photos because i will cry if i look at most of the moths.

for context, i have intense mottephobia (irrational fear of moths) to the point that seeing a moth the size of my thumbnail causes me to activate flight/freeze (and technically fight, but that is just "scream real loud to alert others to danger" and then i am GONE.)

worst part of mottephobia is thinking SOME moths look cool but others are HORRORS

if god is real, they made the baphomet moth while fucking LAUGHING THEIR ASS OFF at all the future mottephobes like me. why does it do that. why does it become cthulu when horny. NO LIKE ACTUALLY THATS WHAT IT DOES LOOK IT UP. its HARMLESS and i am afraid of it.

but the venezuelan poodle moth? the rosy maple moths? those are babies. they are ok (i still think they should stay far away from me still please and thanks)

but when googling venezuelan poodle moth the "other people searched for" were luna moths, rosy maples, giant leopard moths, and cecropia moths.

cecropia can die. false eye moths. hate those fuckers.

giant leopard moths aren't that bad but you have NO RIGHT to be 3 inches.

moths are 1 inch or less. moth 1 inch or less are subjected to fearful put down with tissue. moth 1 inch or more are subjected to me fucking screaming the feral caveman death rattle that i learned i have because of moths.

moth antennae are some of the coolest things but they are attached to the most terrifying creature i have ever seen.

googles ai told me baphomet moths CANT bite people so i looked it up and there are moths that CAN bite. theres vampire moths. they look so fucking lame. i was unironically hoping theyd be red and black. nah they're brown and thats SOOOO overdone. (i am the biggest moth critic). at least they have a unique gimmick but brown?? lamest moth color.

SORRY WAS LOOKING UP MOTHS IN MY AREA BC ONE OF THE MOTHS I SEE A LOT LOOKS LIKE A BITER AND THERES ROSY MAPLES WHERE I LIVE. I HAVE NEVER SEEN A ROSY MAPLE. WHY. WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME, ROSY MAPLE MOTHS. IM ACTUALLY UPSET NOW. I've lived in rosy maple territory my WHOLE life and I've never seen a single one. found this rosy maple moth plushie and oh my god i need it.

Literally passed the fuck out so hard a teacher went “if you need to sleep, sleep. Dont kill yourself.” and yeah

You see, if everyone around you tells you you're the problem. You eventually internalize it. I wish I never existed, maybe then people around me wouldn't be so miserable. They'd be happy. And that's all I want.

(I would also like to preface this with this: I only watch the anime ((Eng Dubbed- on a piracy sight no less so further disconnection from the mangaka)). When I post about the series ((primarily regarding my AUs)) I am talking about specifically the anime, including the changes from the manga to adaptation.)

I spent months worrying about coming across as a bad person for having MIA being one of my favorite things- and I’m just very tired. So I am so happy to see someone outside of the fandom defending us. I love MIA for its many good traits, not for the problematic under tones. And I, in no way condone the actions of the creator.

MIA to me, will forever be about traumatized kids finding love and joy within each other despite the cruel world around them. Finding light in the darkest of places. About perseverance and determination. Lost kids who found each other but not a way home; though in the end maybe that’s all they need.

And I hate to see it get boiled down to its worst qualities; to its awful creator

(PS. This post was done on a whim without much forethought- simply it was rash. So I apologize for the possible poor wording or passive aggression)

I really really need y‘all to use some critical thinking right now.

Like it or not, but „Made in Abyss“ is extremely successful and critically acclaimed. It’s not some Dark Web niche child torture porn. Most anime fans have checked it out at some point or another.

The story isn’t centered around child molestation. Children are the main characters and it’s a dark twisted story so dark twisted things are happening to them. Is it my cup of tea? No. I dropped it after a few episodes, though I can’t remember why.

However, a plot like this isn’t unique to this story either. Though dark in a different way, „Promised Neverland“ also had child orphans as lead characters and terrible shit was happening to them as well. I really loved that one. Does that mean I enjoy watching children suffer? Fuck no. I enjoy the plot and watching these kids overcome the darkness and the same seems to be true for most MiA fans. Now let me make it clear: I’m in no way saying PN is as problematic (it seems like the MiA author actually caters to the messed up subsection of the fanbase on bonus pages that don’t get published and translated), but simply pointing out that there’s been other popular horror series with child protagonists.

Is the author of „Made in Abyss“ problematic as fuck? It sure seems like it, but that shouldn’t reflect on his readers. I sure as hell don’t research the authors of every piece of media I consume and I’m pretty sure that goes for most people.

I‘m also not defending the pedos in the fandom, but y’all, even My Little Pony has a huge chunk of those in the fandom but they’re clearly not a reflection of the entire fanbase.

TLDR: Don’t base your entire opinion on Twitter threads. Research the content you’re criticizing. Use critical thinking. Someone using big words doesn’t mean they’re right.

For reference, here’s the critical reception section of MiA‘s wiki page.

And from the reply by @niwakunis - some censored manga panels so you can get an idea of what the controversy is about:

Controversial scenes and elements are also listed and further clarified here:

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I never understood how people will settle down with someone just because they live close for a relationship, yeah it's easy and all but why settle for someone you're unsure about when there's billions of people out there. I always think about the one mythology fact saying how humans were originally made with four legs, four arms, two heads and two faces and Zeus was afraid of their power so he split them in half and for their entire life they are trying to find their other half. I really like this mythology fact because it's almost I guess you could say relatable because I feel like there's something missing from me no matter what I do to try and make this feeling go away. Personally for me I don't think I could ever limit myself from finding my other half, I wouldn't care how far away they are I'd rather be with someone who was made for me rather than someone who shares a few same hobbies and decided to talk just because proximity wise.

Eat

A hunger so deep I no longer can sleep,

All I dream is to eat,

Eat not food but the flesh of one,

One of which is human and blood,

Devouring you whole is what I want,

To the flesh bone and blood I taunt,

The hunger for you is more than a treat,

It's the burning of this yearning I crave to repeat,

Craving you is all I do,

To the flesh bone and blood I'll miss you

[Not Necessarily a vent but can be interpreted as one] : [slight tw: implied gr00ming but not really?, dad issues]

Why is this me fr but at 8-15 🥲 + it's my birthmonth >_<"

[I didn't make the slide, credits to @yourcurse7 on tiktok]

parents making fun of my music taste then wondering why i refuse to let them listen to it normally

Need to be Needed

This freaking episode hit me right in the guts...

Ouch...

- Pasta

My first time doing anything animation/animatic wise and im actually losing it, its so good, my god, im so proud.