Sept.32011 - Tumblr Posts

confused and tired.

am i that shallow to think that i am starting to fall for this guy just cause he is giving me his time? *sigh* i wish i don't know anything abt him and people will not judge me or him once i admit that i 'might actually like' him. i wish my friends wouldn't mind it. but idk what is really happening. damn he makes me happy when he talks to me especially when i am bored. but at the same time, he makes me feel left out once our communication stop. i don't understand why, but it seems so wrong. i can lay out all the reasons i can think of why this is wrong but i also want to know why this is really happening. it is so confusing. it is causing me a headache. this is making me a bad person coz i know somebody will get hurt at the end, its either one of my friends, him or me... and i don't want this to happen. never in my life i want this to happen. tho i would rather be hurt than somebody else getting hurt just because of me. i only wish he'll stop being too friendly to me. i don't want a misunderstanding and an expectation. all i want is for the two of us to find our happiness and nothing more... and if avoiding him is the only way i can stop this confusion then i'll do it. i am tired of having misunderstandings all the time. it is so petty and stupid. so please people be straightforward when you talk to me. i don't have all the time to fully get what you really want from me. i want you to be direct and honest. let's stop these lies. talk to me like a real man. i am getting tired of all of this. i just want to be happy...