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Hey systemblr, how do you differentiate extremely fragmented alters from alters who change their identity regularly depending on what media we're fixated on?

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systems of all kinds that have aphantasia, here's it to you guys.

it can be hard seeing everyone talk about visualization and most advice being about visualization, when you just can't do that.

you're not broken or less of a system for that.

you're a part of the natural variation of systemhood and plurality. your experiences are just as important as anyone else.

and!! i hope your day gets better

It's important to note that 'switching' can be extremely subtle, especially with polyfragmented systems. So beating yourself up over keeping constant tabs on fronting and shit can be unneeded stress. You may feel the need to constantly know who 'you' are, who has taken control, etc. It is the voice of the devil do not fucking listen to it

It's ok if you don't always know when switches happen. It's ok if you struggle to keep track of when they happen or who with. It's difficult to always know those things, so please be kind to yourself about it.

does anyone know how to have headmates in ur system not constantly argue or have drama with eachother ??/gen

My most toxic relationship is with our brain

Like, what do you mean the brain is not ok without me? What do you mean I'm forced to front just because the brains wants even though I'm completly fucked up and I can't anymore? What do you mean the brain made more alters like me that tell me they're "another universe me" and even with them existing I'm the one who fronts?

Brain leave me fucking alone

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Being a polyfrag DID system is like

"Yeah ik I'm this alter... Am I alone fronting? Who knows, maybe, maybe not, am I being influenced by other alters in front? Maybe, maybe not"

And then you forgot you say you were X alter and you continue your life as normal till someone or something reminds you you're that alter and you remember you're a system

And then doing some normal shit you became aware you're not fronting alone and you hear the other alters at front talking or they talk to you/externals so you're now like "Oh yeah... I'm not fronting alone"

Sometimes forgetting about the existing of fronting, alters and all this shit is hilarious and random, it's like the thing that most of the community talks about when talking about symptoms and it's the thing that we forget most of the time about DID lmao

It was a real roller coaster, it was a mix of a bunch of this things and similar things... It was wild because I tend to forget about it and till I accept it well I remember all those past semi-discoveries (I call them like that because I was aware of the disorder but not the system... Does that make sense??)

This is regardless of if you are self diagnosed or professionally diagnosed.

⋆ System ask game: Polyfrag edition ⋆

Remember you don't have to answer all nor give extra information, simple yes or no is enough, this is just for fun and for anyone who wants to do it

Endos this isn't for you, exclusive with those who a CDD and are polyfragmented

🍄- Do you feel comfortable with the term polyfrag?

🌹- How long have you been knowing you're polyfrag?

🥀- Did you pass for the "I think I'm OSDD/P-DID" phase a lot of polyfrag systems seem to have?

🍁- Do you use other system terms besides polyfrag or just that? (Ex. C-DID, RAMCOA system, etc.)

🍂- Do you have really problematic alters that aren't allowed to front because of it?

🌰- Do you have multiple hosts, one host or none host?

🍠- Is the front always/a lot of the time crowded?

🥕- Have you ever coin terms just for your system? Or you just use community ones?

🥜- If you have one, do you have a complex inner world?

🧅- Do you have multiple layers?

🥔- Do you have in-sys relationships? Like family, partners, etc. If do, you want to talk about some of those relationships? (The last part is optional)

🌻- Do you have an internal life? In the sense of alters being able to simulate life within the inner world

🎑- Do you have multiple alters with the same name?

🌾- Are amnesiac barriers a big problem with you? For communication, healing, normal day, etc.

🌱- Are you something heavy? (Ex. introject, trauma holder, non-human, etc.)

🌵- Do you have low or high split tolerance? Do you split more than two at the same time?

🌴- Does being polyfrag have ever made you feel invalid?

🍃- You have subsystems and/or subsystems?

🌿- If you have subsystems, do you have container subsystems?

🎍- Do you have other names for formation/fragmentation besides alter and fragment? (Having more categories for that)

🌳- Do you have a hierarchy or government internally? You don't have to talk about it if you don't feel comfortable

🌲- Do you experience more blackout or grayout amnesia?

🎋- Free question! Tell us something about you, your system and/or your experience as a polyfrag system, there's no rule here, just keep safe important info, share what you like!