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Little intro cause yes

Doing a little cut here cause we don't want to see massive bulky stuff when on our phone🥲

This will be updated as time goes on, and we might not always say when it's updated.

Under the cut you will find

DNI/BYF

Side blogs

Prns page + SP

Current interests

Things we have/show strong symptoms of

Google Drive of our userbox collection

Side Blogs:

@vynsartwall - Art blog!!

@vynnie-vents - Vent blog

@vynnie-asks - Ask blog where you guys can send asks n stuff

@wii-write-stuff - Writing blog

@wii-spam-shit - Rb blog

Uhhhh hi

We're Vyn‼️‼️‼️‼️

We will also occasionally go by Alex as a collective name but that's more so for closer friends/irl friends

We have a headcount of uhhhhhhhh

160+

We are VERY introject and walk in heavy

Pronouns page!!

Simply Plural: MysticPrideSystem

-Tagging-

• #》goober rambles - Random posts

• #mysticpridesystem [name] / 》[emoji].png - Stating who made the post and their proxy (the emoji)

• #mystic answers - Answes to questions in our inbox

• #mystic polls - Answered polls, some tagged with rambles

• #vynnie rb - Reblogs

BYF

• Many of us are highly sensitive because of trauma, so please interact with care

• AI "artists" please DNI (+ PEOPLE WHO SUPPORT IT). We don't tolerate AI "art" here.

•We're bodily BIPOC :3 (🇺🇲🇵🇭)

•We're also christo-pagan

•We might have some physical disability, but not enough info for our doctor to diagnose anything

•We are likely dyslexic so bear with us please

•Many of us are highly empathetic and go off of how someone feels rather than what they did, which tends to affect moral values and such

•We are VERY pro-recovery and think anyone deserves forgiveness if they truly put in the effort to do better (that being said, people who refuse to change or get help, we can only hope you get better)

•Due to several mental problems, we get major mood swings and are unable to control them

•We currently do not have access to any professional help

DNI:

• Anti-nontraumagenic systems/sysmeds

•People who demonize cluster B disorders (we're in the process of trying to not demonize NPD cause we were raised to always see it as a bad thing)

• Radqueer/transID PLEASE. You are not welcome here.

•Conservative Christians. We have a lot of religious trauma surrounding Christians (specifically Mormons)(Christians are okay to interact, just don't be a dick/force religion/beliefs)

•Low empathy people (nothing wrong with you guys, we're just high empathy and not uncomfortable around low empathetics)

We can't control who interacts, just don't be a dick. If we find out you're on our DNI list, we will block you.

• Current Interests:

WDY (Wii Deleted You)

CIU/UWO (Charlie In Underworld/Underworld Office]

UT (Undertale)

WH (Welcome Home)

BBIEAL (Baldi's Basics in Education and Learning/Baldi's Basics Classic Remastered)

TADC (The Amazing Digital Circus)

FNAF (Five Nights at Freddy's)

MLP creepypastas (ESPECIALLY RAINBOW FACTORY)

Theater/acting

BATIM (Bendy and the Ink Machine)

KinitoPET

HfjONE

Dead Plate

• Musicals we love cause we're a theater kid :3

Hamilton

SIX

Heathers

The Greatest Showman

RIDE THE CYCLONEEEE

•Thing's we have/show strong symptoms of:

P-DID

Hypersexuality/OCD (yes, hypersexuality is a compulsive disorder, do your research)

BPD

PTSD

RSD

ADHD

ASD

ASPD

Questioning NPD

DPD

We collect MANY userboxes, so uhhh high chance that this isn't gonna be everything

[Google Drive link where we keep them all]

calling all alterhumans, nonhumans, kin, therians, the otherhearted, fictionkin, plurals, voidpunks and everyone else

i had an idea.

what if we gathered the works of the wider alterhuman community and published the collection?

i’m talking poetry. journal entries. quotes. uplifting words. educational posts. discourse. the art we create of our kintypes. our opinions. our pain. maybe even a glossary of terms in the back.

i don’t expect us to become rich and famous from this. and i know this is going to be a lot of work. but i really want us all to have this. this could really be something special.

so. i’m calling out the mature members of the community. i’m also calling out blogs with a wider reach than mine to get the word out. i’m also also calling out anyone interested in publishing their work. this would be a collaborative effort and i can’t do it on my own.

your help and support is much appreciated.

Hello y’all! Gonna info-dump about a disorder I have now! (There’s a specific mutual that this is for and if you see thing you’ll know it’s you :D)

So I have P-DID, aka Partial-DID, aka Partial-Dissociative Identity Disorder

Before I can go more in depth about P-DID, first I need to explain regular DID, so

What Is DID? (Btw I’m not a professional so this is may be worded wrong but I’m trying my best)

DID is a dissociative disorder that forms when a child, roughly between the ages of 2-8 but those can have some wiggle room, goes through extreme and/or repetitive trauma. Basically, this disorder causes a split of the base identity into at least 2 distinct identities, but there can be any number of identities, or alters as I will refer to them from now on. A person with multiple alters is referred to as a system.

With DID, but not required of every system (there are other disorders that can cause systems, like OSDD and UDD) there are memory walls. The effect of these memory walls is to, well, block off memories between alters. The strength of the amnesia differs from system to system, with some not remember anything unless they are in front (or driving the car that is the body), while others can remember what other alters do crystal clear. Not only does the strength change from system to system, it can also change from alter to alter. Meaning that the wall between alters A and B might be strong and A won’t remember anything B does and vice verse, the wall between alter C and D could be thin or nonexistent so they share memories.

That’s the basics of DID, if anyone wants a more in depth explanation of that, or anything else in this post either, let me know and I’ll happily do so.

Now, what is P-DID?

P-DID is exactly like it sounds, Partial-DID. This means that some of the effects of the disorder are not as pronounced as regular DID. What does this mean?

It can, but doesn’t have to, mean little to no memory walls. It can, but doesn’t have to, mean less alters/less defined alters. It can, but doesn’t have to, mean that there is less switching of front (when alter A takes control of the body after alter B was out and vice versa).

What does that mean for my experience?

In my system, there is significantly less switching. Instead, 95% of the time me, the host (meaning the alter who is in front the majority of the time) is in front while the other 5% of the time a different alter is in front. Instead, the majority of the time I am usually co-con with someone else (co-con means co-conscious, when 2 or more alters are in the brain seat at the same time, or it could be both in the driving seat, or one in the driver one in the passenger ect. It means we are both conscious of the out side world at that moment).

It also means that between me and Most (not all) alters, there is very little memory wall. I remember the majority of what the others do when in front and vice versa.

It Also means that while we have a large number of known alters (and a probably larger number of unknown ((to me)) alters) most of them are fragments, or not as defined alters.

What is my experience like?

Like I said earlier, I am usually co-con with someone else. About 60% of the time, I am not alone in the front and 35% of the time I am (5% left for when I am not in front at all).

More over, in that 60% when I am co-con, about 30% of it is when someone else is in the driver seat instead of me, so I am left to watch what they do but not do it myself. I can give feed back and talk to them and such, but ultimately they are in control until I am back in the drivers seat.

I also experience little memory wall, when it comes to the front at least. There are only about 2 alters who I remember little to nothing when they front. This made it a bit difficult for me to even figure out I had the disorder since I had very few memory gaps. Instead, the memory wall that is there between most of the alters an I is an emotional memory wall.

For example, this means when I think about a trauma that I did not experience/it’s not my job to hold, I can remember what happened, sometimes in excruciating detail, but I do not feel the emotions connected to it. I can remember that we were upset or hurt or whatever during the event, but I do not feel anything for or from that event myself.

I only figured it out because I remembered a short period of time where I wasn’t the host, and instead someone of a completely different gender than me was. This, for pretty obvious reasons, led to me being confused and questioning it until eventually someone reached out and told me that yes, I was in fact part of a system. This took many months of questioning and even talking to a different system and asking questions before they finally told me.

How does having P-DID affect my day to day life?

Honestly? Not very much. Sometimes I’ll feel random emotions and be confused before I remember that there are others in my brain and it’s probably them, or I’ll have occasional bad memory and suddenly someone will tell me the thing I need to remember (or more often than not hear someone laugh at me for forgetting, the bastards).

Sometimes I’ll starts disassociating really hard and then suddenly someone else is moving our body and talking with our voice.

Another big way it affects me is that as it turns out I am a fictive. A fictive is an alter that is made based off of something that already exists, whether that’s a whole other person or a character from a book, game, movie, ect. This means that I Do Not match what the body looks like on the inside, this was another way I figured it out because everytime I looked in the mirror I would go “hey wait a minute, that’s not my face” before realizing that yes, it was in fact my face.

That’s the most of it for now, if anyone has any questions, or wants further explanation, you can either comment/reblog asking for that, or you can DM me directly :)

Thanks for reading, and for the one specific mutual I hope this helped in any way at all

Hello y’all! Gonna info-dump about a disorder I have now! (There’s a specific mutual that this is for and if you see thing you’ll know it’s you :D)

So I have P-DID, aka Partial-DID, aka Partial-Dissociative Identity Disorder

Before I can go more in depth about P-DID, first I need to explain regular DID, so

What Is DID? (Btw I’m not a professional so this is may be worded wrong but I’m trying my best)

DID is a dissociative disorder that forms when a child, roughly between the ages of 2-8 but those can have some wiggle room, goes through extreme and/or repetitive trauma. Basically, this disorder causes a split of the base identity into at least 2 distinct identities, but there can be any number of identities, or alters as I will refer to them from now on. A person with multiple alters is referred to as a system.

With DID, but not required of every system (there are other disorders that can cause systems, like OSDD and UDD) there are memory walls. The effect of these memory walls is to, well, block off memories between alters. The strength of the amnesia differs from system to system, with some not remember anything unless they are in front (or driving the car that is the body), while others can remember what other alters do crystal clear. Not only does the strength change from system to system, it can also change from alter to alter. Meaning that the wall between alters A and B might be strong and A won’t remember anything B does and vice verse, the wall between alter C and D could be thin or nonexistent so they share memories.

That’s the basics of DID, if anyone wants a more in depth explanation of that, or anything else in this post either, let me know and I’ll happily do so.

Now, what is P-DID?

P-DID is exactly like it sounds, Partial-DID. This means that some of the effects of the disorder are not as pronounced as regular DID. What does this mean?

It can, but doesn’t have to, mean little to no memory walls. It can, but doesn’t have to, mean less alters/less defined alters. It can, but doesn’t have to, mean that there is less switching of front (when alter A takes control of the body after alter B was out and vice versa).

What does that mean for my experience?

In my system, there is significantly less switching. Instead, 95% of the time me, the host (meaning the alter who is in front the majority of the time) is in front while the other 5% of the time a different alter is in front. Instead, the majority of the time I am usually co-con with someone else (co-con means co-conscious, when 2 or more alters are in the brain seat at the same time, or it could be both in the driving seat, or one in the driver one in the passenger ect. It means we are both conscious of the out side world at that moment).

It also means that between me and Most (not all) alters, there is very little memory wall. I remember the majority of what the others do when in front and vice versa.

It Also means that while we have a large number of known alters (and a probably larger number of unknown ((to me)) alters) most of them are fragments, or not as defined alters.

What is my experience like?

Like I said earlier, I am usually co-con with someone else. About 60% of the time, I am not alone in the front and 35% of the time I am (5% left for when I am not in front at all).

More over, in that 60% when I am co-con, about 30% of it is when someone else is in the driver seat instead of me, so I am left to watch what they do but not do it myself. I can give feed back and talk to them and such, but ultimately they are in control until I am back in the drivers seat.

I also experience little memory wall, when it comes to the front at least. There are only about 2 alters who I remember little to nothing when they front. This made it a bit difficult for me to even figure out I had the disorder since I had very few memory gaps. Instead, the memory wall that is there between most of the alters an I is an emotional memory wall.

For example, this means when I think about a trauma that I did not experience/it’s not my job to hold, I can remember what happened, sometimes in excruciating detail, but I do not feel the emotions connected to it. I can remember that we were upset or hurt or whatever during the event, but I do not feel anything for or from that event myself.

I only figured it out because I remembered a short period of time where I wasn’t the host, and instead someone of a completely different gender than me was. This, for pretty obvious reasons, led to me being confused and questioning it until eventually someone reached out and told me that yes, I was in fact part of a system. This took many months of questioning and even talking to a different system and asking questions before they finally told me.

How does having P-DID affect my day to day life?

Honestly? Not very much. Sometimes I’ll feel random emotions and be confused before I remember that there are others in my brain and it’s probably them, or I’ll have occasional bad memory and suddenly someone will tell me the thing I need to remember (or more often than not hear someone laugh at me for forgetting, the bastards).

Sometimes I’ll starts disassociating really hard and then suddenly someone else is moving our body and talking with our voice.

Another big way it affects me is that as it turns out I am a fictive. A fictive is an alter that is made based off of something that already exists, whether that’s a whole other person or a character from a book, game, movie, ect. This means that I Do Not match what the body looks like on the inside, this was another way I figured it out because everytime I looked in the mirror I would go “hey wait a minute, that’s not my face” before realizing that yes, it was in fact my face.

That’s the most of it for now, if anyone has any questions, or wants further explanation, you can either comment/reblog asking for that, or you can DM me directly :)

Thanks for reading, and for the one specific mutual I hope this helped in any way at all

System ask game np of course

🧡📻🌱☀️🍬?

🧡 - no and we dont plan on it

📻 - lyric and sal 👀

🌱 - no sadly :[ ☀️ - little to none

🍬 - "why are you planning an orgy" (dont ask for the context)

key

𖤓 — introduction — ☽

Name — mothman / max / mothy

Pronouns — it/they

Sexuality — pansexual

Gender — agender / any xenos with moths or cryptids

Role — (outer) soother

Source — mothman (the cryptid)

Likes — light (obviously), being friendly, hugs, games, staying up late, sitting down on fluffy things (idk) & true crime

Dislikes — daylight (I get tired), loud noises, electricity sounds, humans with guns, being discovered, being cold & talking

About me / extra — semi-verbal, tired 24/7 but even more so in the day, I'm good at listening to people but bad at explaining my thoughts, I'm pretty lonesome but enjoy dabbling in friendship

DNI — fake claimers, endos or non-traumagenic "systems", bug haters (sorry, but ya gots to go), people who judge based on source

Face claims — below

User boxes for fun —

it’s okay to not know who you are or where you’re going. it’s okay to split a million times. it’s okay to need to simply bed rot and stay in your own inner world for a while. it’s okay to take a day to dissociate and disconnect from the world.

sometimes just surviving is enough. having just enough effort to keep living is enough.

Inclusive Partial DID Flag

[ID: The Inclusive Partial DID flag. It has five stripes. From top to bottom, they are pale purplish blue, pale mint green, purple, sky blue, and gray. End ID]

I couldn’t find a partial DID flag that wasn’t made by sysmeds so I made one myself.

The purplish blue is for often having a “main fronter”.

The mint green is for emotional and partial amnesia.

The purple is for camaraderie with all kinds of systems.

The sky blue is for often being co-conscious (and related states).

The gray is for not being ashamed of who you are.

Anyone can use this, regardless of diagnosis status.

If your trauma caused you to split, then you were traumatized 'enough' to be traumagenic/have DID, OSDD or what have you. Trauma isn't always from a parent: it can be peer bullying/shunning, sibling abuse, near death experiences, experiencing death of a loved one or even a stranger, medical trauma, etc.

I will go one step further and say that if your system experience isn't purely traumagenic, and you're pushed out of supposed safe spaces because of it, don't feel pressured to change the labels that feel right for y'all. I have half a heart to not post this in traumagenic tags, because SO MANY traumagenic systems are anti endo it seems. But mixed origin systems exist, endo systems exist, non-disordered traumagenic systems exist, etc and plurality is such a large umbrella of different experiences (even yours!).

You're doing nothing wrong by existing.

In spite of the endo hatred on certain sys tags, I will continue to post endo positivity in them. We are a disordered traumagenic system, and we're unaffected by endos existing. Endos don't harm 'real systems' or 'mock trauma' or whatever antis whine about. In case any nondisordered endos needed to hear that from a sys like us, there you are.

Edit: I say 'traumagenic' but our origins are more complicated than that lmao (not to mention I'm trying to let go of origin labels). It's sort of like a heavy simplified idea of things per se.

P-did flag (see also osdd 1a flag)

A flag for those with p-did!

PT. P-did flag (see also osdd 1a flag) A flag for those with p-did! END OF PT.