Onwards - Tumblr Posts
let me see you and stay
neil hilborn // text post – @rebeccabinch // naudline pierre – through the clouds, 2020 // flintcoded, 08 –15 – 21 // the first bad man – miranda july // sade alandria zabala // georges bataille // @tristamateer // mess is mine – vance joy // @softhe4rted , i will – mitski // taylor jenkins reid, the seven husbands of evelyn hugo //georges bataille – the dead Man //
Eggs: no
Steak: no
Milk: whole, cow's. (definitely not raw, who told you that, it's dangerous and illegal, i would never /s)
Alcohol: no
Hot drink: hot chocolate, various caffeineless tea (shoutout to chamomile, throat coat, peppermint, echinacia, and liver cleanse), molasses water. Someone gave me fire cider once (for a cold) and it was awesome.
ok so i spiralled to the extent that i needed to call my mum to talk me out of it. so that's a fun little insight into my brain. i struggle a lot with taking any minor setback as some moral failure and can be disproportionately hard on myself about it. and sometimes it takes a while to get out of that head space, although i turned it around pretty quick this time. progress! but everything i said remains True and Right and i will continue to remind myself (and you) of it ♡
the embroidery i've been working on for my sister-in-law's birthday hasn't turned out the way i'd hoped so i'm starting again and in an attempt to stop myself doom spiralling into a self-worth hell portal this is me telling myself and you if you need it that starting again is okay !!! projects not working out don't mean you've failed !!! sometimes it's hard to get things out of your head and turn them into a physical tangible thing !!! you are not wrong or bad because something didn't work the way you hoped !!! don't put so much pressure on yourself that you stop enjoying the things you enjoy !!!
I hope you believe that you can still make a beautiful life for yourself even if you lost many years of it to grief, or darkness, depression, or a wound that wouldn't close.
