Npd Traits - Tumblr Posts - Page 2

how would yikes be a question... yikes because you're flexing abt being a nasty person.

Yeah I'm a really nasty person. I cuddle my dog and comfort people when they're sad and everything. It was my friend's birthday a few days ago and I (being the horrific person I am) sent them a happy birthday message and told them they were awesome. Clearly malicious of me.

Thoughts and desires don't equal actions. I'm in therapy trying to be a better person to myself and to others. I've stood up for a lot more people and been a lot more understanding of others than so called non-nasty people who just think about being kind and never actually do it.

My therapist (who's worked in forensic psychology and with many people with personality disorders) just told us we're likely antisocial.

But like a specific flavour where I've built my own moral compass based on not wanting to deal with negative stuff like jail and ruined image.

Her exact words were "society-conforming antisocial".

So yay I guess. It's nice to have a description and I'm definitely gonna do some more research...

My default state is apathy. When I get under-stimulated, I will do anything to feel anything.

Best case scenario is having a personally interesting conversation to feel intrigued. Worst case scenario is deliberately putting myself in a dangerous situation to feel angry or amused.

Understanding that now makes me so frustrated with the adults, who I asked to entertain me, who I told I was bored, and who dismissed me.

I hurt myself and others because the adults in my life couldn’t be bothered to entertain a young kid. It’s my duty to accept responsibility (and more so the older I get) but I wasn’t given a chance.

The urge to kill them so that they will forever stay in a state of adoring you

advice?

i might have NPD.. is there any way i can get diagnosed or at least some support for this?? a lot of the symptoms are relatable but im not a self diagnoser so im tryna get actual help.

The amount of therapy I've had to go through. That I'm still going through. That I will have to go through. To sort out the last 8 yrs. To figure out why I made excuses for things that were right in front of me. Your constant lying. Blaming everyone and everything else. Never taking any accountability. The numerous grape accusations against people that NEVER HAPPENED to the point you could never keep your stories straight and lying about being drugged when you obviously don't know what that is like? Taking people's survivor stories and making them part of your own for sympathy and attention. Making up lies about your friends, family, and exes... like I wouldn't reach out and talk to people? Stalking accounts that actually have survived narcissistic abuse so you can pretend to not be one? Acting accounts so you can mimic facial expressions and body language? Trying to turn me into some villan too, like you aren't going to do what you've done to literally everyone else in your life to your current partner. And she's so isolated and obsessed it's going to take so long for her to figure anything out.

You're a sociopath. The MOST vile, evil person I wish I had never come across. SA victims aren't believed because of people like you. Disgusting piece of trash.

~ I said you were too much so you made yourself small ~

Tell them...

Tell them about the constant bouts of silent treatment you put me through when you wouldn't get your way or when I would beg for communication.

Tell them...

Tell them how you told my ex my depression was a burden, I wouldn't let you leave the relationship or I would threaten suicide, pretended to leave me just to trigger it ( all so you could take screenshots of the manipulation to send to her and call me crazy, while simultaneously telling me you love and 'I can't believe I almost lost you')

Tell them...

Tell them how my ex sent me videos of all the conversations so when I saw everything you were doing to me, I immediately left out of respect for myself because I WAS NOT going to be abused any longer.

Tell them...

Tell them how to this day you take ZERO ACCOUNTABILITY.

Tell them...

Tell them how a few months later you said you did and said all of that ' because you were lashing out'. That it was a symptom of your BPD. How everything was always your BPD.

Tell them...

Tell them how you begged me to stay. Begged me to go to therapy after I saw the video. And when you realized I was putting myself first, you immediately switched to attacking me and tearing me down.

Tell them.

Tell them the truth.

Does anybodys npd make them egotistical but only internal? I dont really show my npd its more of “YES IM THE BEST EVERYONE ELSE SUCKS” but then i actually interact with people and all they see is a anxious idiot in a sweater and shorts listening to shitty vocaloid music

question for my narcs, who have you told about your diagnosis? and has your family been shitty about it?

I'm asking because I'm trying to get diagnosed but I'm worried my family being shitty about it. like "you're manipulating me right now aren't you!!" is something I'm worried about hearing.

something that has helped me disconnect from codependancy is realizing that married couples arent always together. they live together and spent time together but a lot of the time they just arent together but they still love eachother. they dont need to sleep in the same bed they dont need to constantly show eachother affection they can just coexist and still love eachother unconditionally. love isnt sacrificing every moment for someone, its having your life made better by their existence while you live

I wish I could find more resources for npd that didn't make me feel like complete shit for my disorder like I already know I'm an asshole please let me learn how not to be!!!

wow as i'm tagging this one of the suggested tags in npd is anti npd I love being seen as a monster for existing /sarcasm

How to stop depending on a person who has wanted nothing to do with you for 8 months no glue no borax