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"I miss all my friends, all the time, constantly" Part 2

Trista Mateer, Honeybee // @sondber // @bloomingtrans // Steve Mueske, "Now and Then" // The National - Mistaken For Strangers

I hate losing friends..... especially people who have been close in my life for like 9 years?

I slowly stopped masking around her and that went okay mostly... but then had a pretty rough chat about AuDHD and she just.... was so closed off after that....

How can people just.... do that? Be friends with someone then... drop them like they're nothing when finding out about disability. She barely understood me talking about pots... apparently drawing the absolute line at neurodivergence.....

I'm really depressed about it. Especially since our youngest kids grew up together since a couple months old.

It really makes me want to isolate. My adult friend group is dwindling and it's really difficult for me to make new friends at this age.... I know that sounds pathetic. I feel pathetic..

Well that friend and I are officially over with. She successfully got me to be the one to end it. So she doesn't feel in the wrong.

I'm over it. I'm over being on the recieving end of purposeful miscommunication. I'm done feeling like my pots and audhd are character flaws.

I'm done BEGGING to be spoken with clearly and effectively whenever there's been a tiff. I'm just done. I'm done. I wish you and your family the best. But we cannot be friends anymore.

I'm going to grieve for a while, for sure. But. It has to be done for my peace. (And clearly for yours too)

My kids are still young enough that they'll get over the loss of friendship with your kids pretty quickly. For that I am thankful.

I just want peace and respect from my future friendships to come. As I'm still hopeful there are more to come.

You're never to old to lose a friend. You're also never to old to make new ones either. Despite how it feels or seems sometimes.